The Suffering of Si Kembang Village
A letter of invitation

"There's still a chance. Among us is just an invitation, there's no wedding ring around your finger yet." There's no doubt. Kenzie immersed all his feelings into the deepest trough of his soul. Closed with a lump of faith.

No, it can't be selfish. Enjoying his love above compulsion, really .. it is not a choice. Except the obsession to have. There was no love for her, not even a quarter of her. Fallen a scrap of intent to accumulate that flavor in habit. Now ... The main cast is back. And it ....

Ahh... forget!

Not as calm as enjoying the friction of the violinist, or as cool as painting on a hill. The feeling of Patchouli is really in the winding of tangled yarn. His heart pounded at the speed of Marc Marquez at the crossing.

Staring at Kenzie's back guts who began to step left him to catch up with Gavin and Dalia. Tears have set themselves in line on both sides of her cheeks. Must what?

"No, Kenzie...." Without extending again he thought, Nilam ran towards Kenzie who was almost swallowed by the door. And....

BUGS!

He hugged the man from behind. The face with the decoration of his cry, leaning slanted on that burly back. "No, Ken. I want to stay with you."

Flinched, flabbergasted, with both beads of eyes widened, Kenzie was in complete disbelief. Nilam, did he really choose her? But what about his love for Gavin? Nope, no. This is not true.

He flipped his body that suddenly made Nilam's embrace on his back released. He held both shoulders of the girl. He stared at the sad net who was also staring at him. "Don't force yourself. No need to pity me. I can stand on both my feet. Don't sacrifice what you shouldn't. I don't want to make you suffer, just because you were forced to marry me based on your guilt and your mother. No Nilam!"

Nilam shook his head quickly. "No, Ken. I've decided. This marriage will go on."

"But how do you feel about Gavin? I know you still have a great love for her. And now he's back. God still gives you a chance to be with him. Please don't force yourself."

"There is no compulsion in me. I really want to be with you, Ken! These two months you haven't left me for a second. Is there a word of force in me?! I know I can't love you completely. But I'm sure that love will continue to grow over time. Until there's no place in my heart for anyone else. And only you ...." Softens.

Really so? What about Gavin?

Because the pair of eyes belonged to the man, had witnessed the whole melancholy scene between Nilam and his best friend. Standing rigidly a few meters away from the position of the two young men, Gavin was deeply crushed.

In the end, he had actually lost. Lose without a fight. And Kenzie . does deserve it. I have to take it with all my heart.

Clik!

In one blink, the clear feather plunged without an umbrella past both of its reddened cheeks. It hurts!

Upholding his face, strengthening his heart, removing the remaining droplets on his cheeks, Gavin stepped towards the two people who were hugging him. "Congratulations to you both." His palm extended towards the two of them.

And suddenly, the hug came off. "Gav ..." Kenzie's voice softly

"May you be happy. And Nilam .. I'm sorry." His palm is still floating. Invisible, Kenzie or Nilam will retaliate. Because the two were still looking at him with a gaze that meant nothing.

"I'm sorry, Gav." Kenzie is filled with regret.

But a smile was given by Gavin. "I've told you and Nilam that you're better than me. And obviously, he's chosen you. Choosing the right person. Even though I don't have a choice. Be happy. You're a matching couple. I'm sorry." Drawn with stiff palms, then sauntered away leaving Nilam and Kenzie who still digested every verse of the sentence he said.

If honesty is required here, then to be honest, Nilam is eager to embrace Gavin at this time. I miss that body scent. But she is not a woman who can sow hope in many hearts. Though Kenzie declares his sincerity, it is clear that if he really returns to Gavin, it is not only Kenzie who is wounded, but also Dalia.

"Ken, Nilam, where's Gavin?" Dalia's head swerved in search.

"He's gone, Mom." The answer is Kenzie.

And Nilam, quickly wiped out the rest of the dung on his cheeks, to dispel Dalia's suspicion that a love triangle drama they had just played.

"Why is he in such a hurry?"

"He still has needs, Mom. He also left me alone for Mom."

"Just do it, Mom. There is still me and Nilam. Yeah, right, Nilam?" As always, Kenzie is the most accomplished actor playing a cheerful role in front of her mother.

"Yes, Mom. Let's help." Embrace the shoulder of the middle-aged woman. Then walk to the kitchen.

"Nilam ... I don't know what our relationship will be like? .... Also me and Gavin." muttered Kenzie after the two women passed.

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It seems like these two days, Gavin needs his car more than a soft mattress in his room. Because again, he is now playing with the steering wheel, as well as the brake and gas pedals. Because the road began to crowded vehicles, he was only able to drive at medium speed.

Until a few hours later, a place became his choice to park his car and rest his body.

White villa!

Get down and start walking into the area where it is. The place that for two days in the last few months, he and Nilam spent time in a circle of love that was still warm.

But right now, enough solitude was accompanying him.

Traced one by one the stairs in the building made of white painted wood. Balcony was his main goal.

Attached to both palms squeezed the guardrail on the side of the balcony. The view is skewed on the expanse of lavender flowers that decorate beside the Villa.

Time.

On top of this balcony, he proposed to Nilam who then received. Hugging each other warms. But now ... there is a deep abyss that has blocked between them.

His pants pocket. A piece of hard paper that he had folded with great difficulty, was now in his hand.

Invitation letter.

In front of him is a picture of Nilam and Kenzie smiling facing each other.

Slowly the pain began to creep back into his chest cavity. If not to unite, why did he and Nilam have to be reunited?

Why should a feeling this big die? But ....

"Kenzie deserves to be happy. Also he ... May God make this feeling disappear soon."

Stared for a while, then his fingers began to move to make several folds on the invitation paper he held.

A miniature plane.

Which he then threw into the air followed the wind as far as possible. Along with his expectations that also eroded.

"Goodbye, Nilam."

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Some chapters will still play with feelings. Jan's bored!

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