The Ball Behind the Love of the Court
156. Forced to Leave

Explain the meeting between me and my mother. Asking for the blessing of departure, but fate said something else as the black car sped up and wanted to hit me. My mom pushed me and she was the one who got hit.

Is this God's punishment given to a child like me. Happiness comes suddenly and then suddenly.

"Buuu, Key's scared" I'm still in mom's arms. I'm really scared of what's going on with mom inside.

How long have I not been with him. And when I got back to motherhood, things turned around and now she was lying weak because of me.

There is no stopping the guilt continues to run in my mind, let alone the doctor has not finished also dealing with the state of the mother. How long has she been inside, but there is still no news.

"Calm down, son, your mother must be fine" Mother always calmed me down wherever and whenever it was.

*crack*

"Doctor, how is my mother doc. Please answer doc" I can't wait to hear the doctor's explanation. I'm really scared of the bad things that happened to Mom.

"Don't calm down, you need to calm down" said the mother.

"Yes Key, let the doctor explain to you" Ari continued.

"The agent is past his critical period" The doctor's explanation made my heart calm at this moment.

"However, the patient's state was paralyzed by the violent impact that hit his tailbone" Immediately my body became limp. I really don't believe what the doctor says.

"You're lying, my mom's fine. No, my mother's fine" Broken my heart listening to that, how can mother be paralyzed. All of this is because of me that caused my mother's condition to become like this.

"The situation is still very weak, maybe 30-60 minutes in front of him will awaken" explained the doctor back.

"Thank you doc for the explanation"

"I'll excuse you, ma'am"

"Nice doc"

"Mommyuu, wake up buk sorryin key" I keep ripping off mom's body so she'll wake up from her sleep.

I wanted to apologize to my mother because it was all my fault. I took the life of my mother's feet so that it became like this. I'm really disappointing. God deserved to punish me for paralyzing that heaven.

A few minutes passed, I kept looking at the still unconscious mother as well. Ari and Yuri were waiting for me and sitting downstairs. Likewise with the mother and father who are taking care of administrative letters.

"Key, you're okay son" My mother's hand shocked me as this head fell asleep beside her.

"Mother, is Sudha's mother conscious? "

"Tante is conscious? "

"Wait a minute key" Ari immediately went out and called the doctor. Not long after that the doctor returned and examined the current state of the mother. He said everything was normal.

"I'll excuse you first"

"Okay doc, thank you"

When the doctor left, I looked at my mother with my eyes. Surely he still did not hear the words of the doctor who told him that his mother's legs became paralyzed due to the hard impact he experienced.

The foot was still covered in a blanket, should I have the heart to tell everyone?. I don't think there was anything that hard. And it's all my fault.

"Son, mom's feet can't move? "

All quiet with that question, Ari and Yuri looked at each other and stood beside you. They froze and froze, not knowing what to say.

I looked at them with a hint that I was the one responsible for everything. Yuri and Ari could only gently stroke my back to strengthen.

"Mom, it's all because of Key. Because Key's feet mom can't walk anymore. The doctor said you'd be paralyzed from a hard impact"

I cried in her arms and tried to mean mother. Seen from his eyes, mother was very surprised by his current state.

Glittering clear details from his eye peluk, it is clear that sadness can not be contained anymore. So also between us who are in the room.

"No son, this has become the destiny of mother. Maybe it's a punishment for never paying attention to your life. So God took this leg so that I could continue to be with you"

"No ma'am, I'm not wrong. Key's wrong and makes mom like this"

"No child, I realized that God rebukes a mother who lets her child live a day"

I cried again in his arms. I never wanted any of this to happen. I just want you to come back and not want you to get karma.

"Buuu" I cried in his arms. I really feel so guilty.

"Key promises to be the mother's foot wherever you go" I said with restraint.

Morning 03.00

"Don't wake up, it's time to get ready to fly to the selection" Mother woke me up who was sleeping nearby.

I don't think I want to leave here because I have to look after mom. Maybe the selection of the national team will come next year even though the invitation is there only once.

"No ma'am, key will take care of mom here" I put my head right back next to my mom's body.

"No son, mother's dream is to see your dream succeed. I've been wrong a lot because I didn't accompany you growing up. So this time I don't want to go back to being a barrier for you to reach for a dream"

I looked down at my mother, my lips were a little smiling and my heart was touched. The lost warmth slowly approached my wavering life.

Yanti's mother also approached and gave input so that I continued to dream. It's hard, but the opportunity won't come a second time.

"You're a great boy, don't you want to make your mother proud? " Ask mom while raising her bowed chin.

"Mom wants to see a successful mother's son become a star and known to many people" he explained.

"Key, go. I'll take care of your real mother here"

Hearing that remark there was a slightly calm heart but not entirely. Ms. Yanti is a good person, but her health is not that good. I'm afraid my mom and dad's health is declining because it's helping my real mom.

"But ma'am.... "

"Mom will take care of her until your mother recovers son" explained Ms. Yanti back to me.

Finally I decided to make mom proud and get out of my seat to hurry home and prepare. Because at half 5 I have to go to the airport.

I have many thoughts and burdens that I carry. It's heavy of anything. About the meaning of guilt, about the meaning of compassion, about the meaning of worry and much more.

"Well, key will go. Ma'am, please take care of Key's mother here because Key will fight to get into the national team" I leave mother to Yanti ma'am, she and father willing to stay and accompany me in the hospital.

"Yes son, I will take care of him" I say goodbye to Mom and Miss Yanti to go home and prepare.

"Let's go, son, I'll take you home"

"Key wait" Mother's soft voice called out to me as this move wanted to rush away from the room.

"Come here" I approached her, her eyes like they wanted to tell me something.

"Yes ma'am" Mother glared at me tightly.

A few kisses he wilted on my face, right now I was actually holding back the crying of not wanting to look sad in front of mom.

I promise to find someone who has hurt my mother. And I promised to put her husband in jail for committing violence against her.

"Son't you please get me mom's purse for a second" I took mom's purse in her purse located on the nightstand.

Mom opened her wallet and wanted to give me some pocket money. But when he opened his wallet, I saw a picture of my grandfather who always appeared in my dreams.

"This? " An old black-and-white photograph, like the one from a long time ago but I still recognize his face.

"It's your grandfather, mother's father" My legs went limp. Really surprised not playing.

"Grandfather? Where is he now? "

"He died when you were a baby. Already now you must go so as not to be late"

"But grandpa... "

"Get up son, here's your pocket money for the snacks there"

"No ma'am, I just....."

"Have gone"

I was forced to leave and bring the money I gave. Though I wanted to ask a lot about grandfather to mother, I still could not believe that grandfather in the dream was my real grandfather.

"Let's go home" I went with my dad to get ready and went home.

Airports.

"Be careful, Key will always pray for you to play well and be a national team player".

"Yes mbak" The sadness raut was again seen on the faces of my two brothers who are usually nosy is now a day.

"Take care of yourself, son, you will always pray for you to achieve your dream of becoming a soccer player"

"Yes sir" said my voice while holding back tears.

"Key"

"Key"

"Why did your two faces become ridiculous, could you laugh for me to leave quietly for the selection place?"

Ari and Yuri showed their sad faces, they both cried when I wanted to leave. Because the first time I went out of town was far enough away that I had to get on an airplane.

But their faces would still be funny, the cry was always there when accompanying my departure. They are the most sincere friends in my life. One day they will be the best friends of Indonesian national team players. But if I get away anyway.

"If you arrive, let me know. Hiksss, hikss" Yuri's habit of crying as hard as possible so that many people see it.

"Don't cry, I'll leave first"

"Be careful key"

"Don't forget to go home after being a star" I smiled hearing their screams.

This hand-leaving will always be an early sign of the longing that will begin again in this day. I smiled and turned to look at them.

My spirit is currently on them when my day really falls down again when I remember my mother's circumstances. I promise we'll meet again at the airport, but with a different status. I'll bring that jersey in my name.

"I will fight desperately to get into the national team" Lie if I don't cry, these tears just slip through the cheeks. Until my body gets on the plane.

"The sky, this time I'm really beside you. Let me talk to you so I can enjoy the ride this time"

I can't believe I'm really flying now, when I'm going to reach for the stars at night. During the day then I side with him who faithfully heard my talk.

"Scr... Why do these tears appear again anyway" I muttered in annoyance as tears continued to drip.

Seems like pretending to be calm is a lie. Because my brain is filled with my mother's current state. I'm afraid he's okay, it feels like the heart is not calm.

Not only that, I also thought about the grandfather who had always been in my dreams. He was like real, always giving me advice to keep walking in the right place and always pouring passion to achieve my dreams.

"Sleep key, you have to sleep to calm your mind" I muttered as I tried to close my eyes and hear a song I liked.

A few hours later I arrived at the airport. Riding the car according to the instructions given by David through a message. I followed him and told the taxi driver the address.

I finally arrived at a dormitory used for the selection participants. In a place where there are various kinds of children who come from all over Indonesia to race into the national team.

"There are so many participants, whether I can escape" Suddenly my heart was a bit doubtful, because there were so many participants who would take part in the selection.

From along the way I glanced, they were wearing a lot of branded clothes. I just wear a hoodie like I normally do with jeans.

\*Pritttt\* I was surprised to have just arrived, a loud whistle had been rung in front of a very spacious dorm building.

"You will do some selection for the next few days, the passing of the selection will depend on the skill you play and please do it well and correctly"

"Each coach"

The first direction is to all of us who are in the middle of the pitch. Lots of national team selection and it turns out the competition will be very tight.

I had to fight desperately to secure my name here. Because bringing the good name of Indonesia on the international scene is my dream that has long been submerged. Now is the time for all that.

"And now please rest in the dormitory and do the rules. Tomorrow we'll start the selection, so prepare yourself for today"

"Each coach"

I saw the terraced building, there is a dormitory place that we will stop to follow the selection of the national team in the future.

"I want to resign and you please go to the room that has been determined by name in front of the door of each room"

"Good coach"

The coach left the field, we all rushed to our rooms. I have to find a room that has been informed that my room is on the 2nd floor.

This time luck sided with me because this self that was so lazy that it earned a spot on the 2nd floor, so only a few stairs that I climbed.

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