Butterfly Night But Virgin
295. Mutually Honest

Rayyan cradled Aurora's body under a sheet of blankets after she finished a heated struggle with her wife. Hot activities that can lower blood pressure and reduce the stress response in the brain, thus making a feeling of pleasure and relaxation.

"Ray!"call Aurora softly with her face attached to Rayyan's chest.

"Hmm.."sohut Rayyan cradled Aurora's body with her eyes closed.

"Did you love him so much?"tanya Aurora who actually still feels upset if she remembers Rayyan ever touched a woman other than herself.

Rayyan opened her eyes and frowned at the question of his wife.

"It seems like my past and Dila made Aurora's heart feel disturbed. I have to convince Aurora that I only love her" Rayyan muttered inwardly.

"Eitherway. To be sure, my feelings for you and her are different. I feel happy and calm when I am with you. Even if it's only a day, I miss being away from you. I also feel dizzy, unsettled and stressed, if you are angry with me. I feel jealous if you're near another man. I always want to be near you. Feel like having you completely. And all that I never felt when I was in a relationship with Dila, "so Rayyan was honest. Gently rubbed his wife's arm.

"Did you meet often and walk together often?"

"We rarely walk together. He used to come to my office to take me to lunch. But I rarely eat lunch outside, and prefer lunch in my room. Finally he often came to bring me lunch and we had lunch together in my room" Rayyan replied honestly.

Aurora slightly flinched at Rayyan's reply. Because Aurora had never come to Rayyan's office, let alone deliver food for her husband and lunch with her husband.

"But why did you keep talking about him?"asked Rayyan who actually felt uncomfortable if she constantly talked about Dila.

"He looked for me in the cafe and said that you loved him so much and were often drunk and calling his name. He also told me in detail about your body and where the mole is all over your body" said Aurora with a pouty face.

Hearing Aurora's words, Rayyan loosened her arms and held Aurora's chin. Rayyan raised Aurora's chin so she could look at Aurora's face.

"He's looking for you and saying all that?"Rayyan seemed surprised and unexpected if Dila was desperate to find his wife and say all about their past,"Sial! What does that woman mean? He wants to destroy my family?"rayyan muttered inwardly feeling annoyed at Dila.

"Yes. He even told me that you always call his name when you're making love, "sahut Aurora with an annoyed face.

"Where is there such a thing? Don't trust him, baby! I never got drunk because of him. What he said was all a lie. I was just drunk because of you. If you don't believe it, you can ask Andi, "said Rayyan with a serious face.

Rayyan did not want Aurora to think that everything Dila said was true. Because the truth is not as Dila said.

"Say to Andi? Andi is your subordinate who is very loyal to you. He will obey you and obey all your words. How could Andi say something that would harm you,"

"He was my subordinate, I paid him. But he's on your side, "that Rayyan became upset when she recalled Andi threatening her for fear of her hurting Aurora.

"Where is there such a thing?"sahut Aurora still does not believe in Rayyan.

"That's the truth, baby. Last afternoon Dila came to my office and insisted on talking to me. Dila wanted to talk to me alone, but Andi didn't want to leave my room. Andi even threatened to complain to me if I was desperate to talk to Dila alone. Not only was Andi threatening me. He also threatened to hide you and Zayn if I made you cry" Rayyan said.

Aurora frowned hearing what Rayyan said. The woman turned her head to look at Rayyan.

"He threatened you like that?"aurora looked at her husband's face. Aurora could not believe that Andi would threaten Rayyan for her sake.

"You don't believe me?"rayyan asked looking at Aurora with a serious face.

"Then, why are you telling me about your meeting with your ex?"aurora asked who thought Rayyan was upset to say about Dila meeting her at the office this afternoon.

Rayyan let out a long sigh, then held Aurora's cheek, "I don't want any secrets between us. I want us to be honest with each other. So that there is no misunderstanding between us. Wouldn't it be better if I told you all that myself than you knew from others and misunderstood me?"rayyan asked, looking closely at Aurora's bead eyes.

"I promise. And I hope you're honest with me and don't keep anything from me, either,"

"Hum," Sahut Aurora smiled faintly, hugging Rayyan. There was a sense of relief in Aurora's heart hearing Rayyan's words. Although Aurora cannot read Rayyan's heart, Aurora feels Rayyan is completely honest with her. Evidently with Rayyan who said everything with a face and voice that looks calm, but serious.

Aurora knows that no human being is perfect, let alone never err, including himself. Aurora therefore tries to refrain from fussing over Rayyan's past of having slept with another woman. Although Aurora really felt upset and did not accept knowing Rayyan had been touched and slept with other women.

"I love you and our son. I don't want our relationship to be fractured let alone destroyed just because of someone from my past. I don't want to part with you anymore. Eight months apart from you made me very miserable. I can't live without you, baby," Rayyan said, clutching Aurora's body tightly.

Rayyan really loves Aurora very much and is afraid of losing Aurora. Rayyan did not want to part with Aurora for any reason.

"I beat him up," Aurora said, making Rayyan stretch her arms back to face Aurora.

"Why did you beat him up? Did he make a move?"rayyan asked with a serious expression.

"Why? You don't accept me beating up your ex?"aurora asked as she squinted one eye at Rayyan.

"Why should I feel unacceptable? I was just curious. Why did my stray cat beat people up" Rayyan said, pinching Aurora's chin.

"He attacked me first,"

"Ohh.. Didn't he? You must have battered him. You wild cat!"said Rayyan smiled faintly back pinching the trembling of Aurora's chin.

"You know? I was so upset at him for describing your body in detail. If you've only done it three times, why does she still remember in detail about your body" Aurora said.

Rayyan let out a long sigh looking at his wife who looked annoyed. Rayyan realizes that there is a feeling of unworthiness in Aurora's heart when she learns that another woman has touched her body. Rayyan gently held onto Aurora's cheek and raised Aurora's face to look at her.

"Honey, I know you must be upset about my past. But I can't change what has happened in the past. I'm sorry, if it bothers your heart so much. But believe me, I only love you. And forever will not change. Only he and you have ever touched my body. But now, I'm only yours and I promise I won't let another woman see, let alone touch my body. Only you can see and touch my body. I promise," Rayyan said, trying to calm his wife.

Rayyan hugged Aurora warmly. Gently stroked his wife's back and pecked at the top of her head several times.

Rayyan really did not want to argue, let alone fight with Aurora. Because his heart would not calm down if Aurora was angry with him.

Aurora took a long breath. What Rayyan said was true. People cannot change what has happened in the past. I can only try to be better in the present and the future. Aurora realized, even though she did not want to accept this reality, this reality would also never change.

"I shouldn't continue to feel upset about Rayyan's past. All of that will only make my relationship and Rayyan troubled. I'd better forget all that. Importantly, now Rayyan is mine," murmured Aurora trying to legowo.

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Legowo is a term in Javanese which means to accept sincerely and patiently related to problems or difficulties that are happening and not reject, or even hate it. Legowo is the inner condition of a person who prefers to accept whatever happens to him with a spacious heart.

Usually, the inner attitude of Legowo occurs after we accept something that is not good, or not in accordance with our expectations. If faced with things that are not good or not in accordance with our expectations, there are two reactions that people usually choose, namely not accepting and blaming the other party which in the end appears a lot of hatred, he said, or accept with chest.

Legowo is a choice. What we need to underline, Legowo is not a thing that suddenly comes just like that. But the attitude of legowo is present because we do prefer to accept the bad things, and make it a life lesson.

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To be continued