
“Lo sure Ju? But why haven't the police found him yet? Though clearly he still uses the same name.” Ervin said across the phone.
“Gue.. Less sure anyway. The problem is, I don't see his face. Who knows if I was wrong?” Reply Julian while seeing the street view with rows of trees from the roof of the campus.
“Xennora's name is unique Ju. Do you know Edwin and Leo?”
“Not yet, I'm afraid I'm actually wrong people and even ngerepotin them. Moreover, Leo who is again preparing for the trial in Cambridge.”
“What the hell, I wonder.. Why can't the police find him? If he has been registered as a student of Nusantara University, it would be easier to identify.”
“Maybe.. There is a mistake here.”.
There was a few minutes of silence before Julian spoke again. “Yes, thanks for the time. I closed.”
“Kapanpun bro.”
Then Julian hung up the phone. Returns the display of his mobile phone to Home-Screen where a photo of a girl who looks to be thinking without looking at the camera. The photo that Julian took secretly, while at the carnival. Julian is getting closer to the barrier wall which can now be seen many students passing by down there. The streets in crowded daylight, accompanied by a slightly cloudy weather make the sun not shine hot today.
Julian only wanted one thing now. One thing made him want to meet Xennora again. He wanted an explanation of the last topic they talked about, he wanted to ask why Xennora had suddenly disappeared, he wanted to know the reason why Xennora had suddenly said that…
...The Poison's...
“Congratulations on his graduation!”
“Hm.. Lo also.” Julian was certainly confused as to why Xennora had suddenly turned cold to him. Last night was still ordinary. It could even be said that Xennora seemed to have accepted Julian's presence.
After being satisfied with taking photos and euphoria for graduation, Julian deliberately invited Xennora to go to the park where they often walk there. Sitting face to face on one of the shady park benches covered in the shade of shady trees. Everything looks the same, there's just one different thing here. Xennor.
His gaze cooled again, there was absolutely no smile adorning his face. Julian knew Julian was used to this. But this time…. It feels a little different. The expression that Xennora showed was completely different from usual. Making a hunch Julian said that the thing he didn't want would happen soon. Xennora never changes. It seems he can't change.
“Lo when to leave? Want me to go to Temenin? Mumpung still free.” Julian will smile. Relax, nothing bad will happen. At least that's what he convinced himself.
“No need, won't be long.”
“Gue. I think we're just getting here? But don't worry, I can still wait for you to last - years again. I can wait until—”
“Gak will be able to.” Cut Xennora looked directly at Julian's surprised-looking eyes. “Lo won't be able to wait for me that long. Impossible to know?” Xennora asked with a slanted smile.
“Means—”
“Aw that, brother. We'll never be together. If you don't go, I'll go.” Final Xennora while standing up from her seat, preparing to leave Julian. Six steps Xennora took, Julian also stood up from his chair.
“Why? What is different about the two? Want you to go or I go, we both still feel the same pain.” Julian said Xennora's steps stopped. The girl turned to look at Julian who was still standing between the bench and the garden table.
“Of imagination, right? Suggestions, fantasies, love never existed. For me, love is just a delusion that does not pantes said. Because everything is not real. Make shame. In fact, we cannot squirm love, squirm the contents of people's hearts. That doesn't exist, does it?” Xennora kept Julian quiet.
“Only naive people who believe in love. Believe that the relationship will last forever. Believe that nothing can separate love. Shh. A little amused by him…. Yes, I'm not used to that word. And will never get used to.” Xennora ended the conversation and left Julian in disbelief. All his struggles really yielded nothing?
Everything just a trick? It's never real? And that's just Julian's imagination?
...The Poison's...
Xennora returned home, intending to pack her things to accompany her trip to explore the city of Bandung. As he passed the sofa where Leo and Edwin were relaxing, his steps came to a halt when he heard the babbling of one of his twin sisters.
“Lo really has no refutation? We can still forgive you if you ngaku now.” Leo's chirps made Edwin look at his twin brother.
As the eldest brother, Edwin was eager to finish this cold war. Ah, he regretted carrying that thing so clearly. His only intention was to destroy the object so that it would not be seen by Rafael, and Edwin himself did not expect Leo's response to be this exaggerated when told. Though it could have been Rafael's, his cigarette fell outside Xennora's room, but very close to the entrance of the room. It seems that misunderstandings have occurred.
Edwin had already explained dozens of times, but Leo kind of closed his ears. He himself does not know what makes Leo uncontrollable like this.
Xennora let out a tired breath. “Where do I want to argue if I just don't know what you mean?” Reply Xennora then continue her steps towards the stairs. Narissa who saw that was intending to approach, but it seemed that Xennora's mood was not good, just like her husband.
Speaking of Rafael, where is the man now?
“... Can not, just once you make Papa not sorry for taking care of you from small?!”
Oh no, Narissa can guess where Rafael is now. Pimply.
“You are the cause of your sister's death! But what are you doing right now? Law school? Hahaha for what? What with you going to law school your sister will come back to life? If you don't take him to the park, and don't act like a friend to the criminal, Zenara will still be here. You think he died by chance? The accident?! There is no such thing as Xennora! He must hate you up there! You—“
“What if I went to political science major everything would change? Don't you? Nothing will change even if I die..” Reply Xennora with an irregular breath.
“I know. That's why I've been depressed all this time! You don't understand! Every day I feel almost crazy when I enter my own room! Heart's sick…. When you see Sofia and Eireen and I'm sure you'll never understand!! I'm a girl too! I'm human too! I'm sorry, depressed, almost crazy, and what are you doing right now?! Blame me?” Xennora. His emotions are very unstable. The girl looks weak now. Narissa alone had already cried seeing Xennora who was trying to hold back her tears.
“Did my struggle mean nothing to you?! All my achievements, all my achievements, why has Papa never seen them all?!! I am also a child, why even though Papa never considered me a daughter?! If Papa wants to know, I've eaten a lot of sleeping pills so I never wake up again. But you seem to be right about this. God did not love me so much that I was left in a useless world with this naive parent…. I want to live quietly! Does that request sound difficult to grant?!”
Xennora snatched away the invitation letter and recommendation letter that was in Rafael's hands. The girl then walked out of her room past Narissa, Leo, and Edwin just like that. Leaving the house and his beloved rabbit, Julio, who was trying to get out of his cage when he saw Xennora who left without saying goodbye to him.
The girl left, occasionally wiping away her tears that did not stop urging her out. The typical SAN High School uniform is still attached to its body which looks perfectly matched to that uniform. A white shirt, a black gray ribbon tie, a black sleeveless vest, a black stamped skirt with gray stripes, and also a long-sleeved black alma mater he carried in his right hand. SAN Multi Law Academy pride uniform. Senior High School based on Law and Governance.
Believe it or not, Xennora's departure makes Narissa blame her. Every day, and every moment.
“Xennor…. Mama's sorry, Mama's too scared, sorry Mama.”.