
“Eh, this is the one that just sang huh? Can I have a photo? You look a lot like Carissa Putri.” The words of a woman with the age of about 30 to 40 years make Xennora steps stop. The girl stared around nervously and confused at being suddenly approached like this. Especially now that more and more people are swarming her.
Yep, this is what Xennora did not want when her identity was revealed. He doesn't want to be popular. Popular in school alone has made his soul tired let alone this. Xennora had no idea whose nature this was down on, which was definitely not Carissa. How could an idol be this introverted?
“Sorry mom, sister, mas... My girlfriend is not feeling well anymore, so please give way..” Said Julian who is now holding both shoulders Xennora from behind.
Seeing Xennora's expression, the people stepped aside, giving way to the two of them. Though Xennora's expression was not due to illness, it was a mixture of confusion, fatigue, and fear. Afraid that his identity will be revealed. Be that unpleasant expression.
After exiting the crowd, Julian invited Xennora to visit a cafe located quite close to the roller coaster. “Tuh right, this is what makes me males follow the music festival. Because they will say I look like Mother Carissa.” Dumel Xennora sat in front of Julian who was keeping their order on the table.
“Yes is her daughter Mommy Carissa, Ra. Even strange if you do not look like your own biological mother.”
“Kok lo call her Mother anyway?” Xennora Protests.
“Emang should be what? Aunty? It's even stranger, so familiar. Carissa Putri is famous as Mother Carissa.”
Xennora was silent, staring at Julian fiercely and diverting his attention to the roller coaster ride that could be seen from the cafe window. "Oh yeah, Sofia how's sister? I still want him to ever promise to study hard if anyone succeeds in singing the Korean performance song.”
“He keeps his promise. Every day he goes to the library, although I'm not too sure he's a hundred percent studying there anyway.” Julian's reply made Xennora nod her gaze at his Cappuccino. “Ra..” Call Julian makes Xennora turn her head. Julian did not say anything more, causing Xennora to look at him strangely and then look for what Julian was paying attention to. This is called code.
Xennora looked back, where the roller coaster was operating. Ah, looks like he knows what Julian's trying to say. “Lo want to take me on that ride? No yes, thanks.” Reject Xennora before Julian even asks for her officially. Do you know the last time Xennora rode the ride with other friends what it was like? Far from pleasant words.
Julian chuckled at hearing that. He already knew Xennora would reject his invitation. “It looks like we're even, Ra.”
“What? And, why do you call me Ra, anyway?”
“Impas, tomorrow the day after graduation, lo will go temporarily to Bandung, and I will also go temporarily abroad. Sorry, I can't refuse Dad's request.” Julian replied, not caring about Xennora's last question.
“Kok lo discuss this mulu anyway sak? Haha.. I told you, old man is lo.” priority Xennora laughed awkwardly then gulped down her Cappuccino again.
Julian just smiled silently, a few minutes later, he stood up. “Come, we have fun today.” Take Julian with her hand. Xennora looked at Julian strangely because of his fickle attitude. But then Xennora received Julian's helping hand and walked out of the cafe after paying for their drinks.
“Woah, I just found out on the carnival deck there is a lake..” Admired Xennora after a few minutes ago Julian invited her to go somewhere. This lake is very beautiful, there are some people who camp around the lake. The lights of the building were reflected by the water forming a colorful ripple. Plus, the atmosphere of this lake is not too crowded, suitable as a place to be alone and clear the mind. Xennora doesn't even realize Julian left for a while to pick up something in her car.
“Ra..” Call Julian after return.
“Hm?” Xennora muttered then shifted her attention, then Xennora's gaze was fixated, her smile faded bit by bit.
“I want to give you graduation tomorrow after tomorrow, but fear you are busy parting together with your friends later.” Julian said with a bouquet of blue roses in his hand. That made Xennora surprised.
“So...Lo who has been putting blue roses on my desk kak?”
“Yeah Julian answered and held Xennora's hand to take over the beautiful blue rose.
“But... The time of brother sick this flower is still on the table. And just a few weeks ago the flowers were not there.”
“Oh... My time is bad luck?” Julian's question made Xennora understand. True too, it was Julian's first time of misfortune, not misfortune, but it came a bit of daylight. Literally, the bell has not rang. “When I'm not in school, I send her flowers to the security guard, or even drop to Sofia same Eireen.” Julian.
Xennora stared at the bouquet of flowers in her hand. It's. It's so beautiful. Even Xennora could have been destroyed back then, but it seemed like Xennora could not. To be exact, Xennora could not.
“What do you mean by sister? Definitely love it...” Xennora replied. Well. It seems like Antha's guess is right. ‘Decisive admirer’ Xennora is Julian. “Thank you sis... Make all these flowers.. Hundreds of flowers that you already love, make my days a little better... Sorry too, because—”.
“Hundreds of flowers that I love, did not manage to make you melt? Didn't make you realize that it was all my sacrifice? It’s okay, Ra. your feelings matter. I'm sorry, don't feel guilty, are you beautiful?”
“Lo want to make me moved or even want to tempt me anyway brother? Wonder...” Xennora said dilute the atmosphere. The call was not on Julian's list of 10 favorite calls, so Xennora was not ready to hear this one.
Julian chuckled then stroked Xennora's Head softly. He is happy to be this close to Xennora, he is happy to be standing long enough beside the girl, he is happy to be the reason Xennora smiles, he is happy to be able to improve their relationship. Julian happy…. Because finally all his dreams long ago fulfilled. All his requests to God, all the hopes he offered, all the prayers and hard work that Julian worked for. The reality is quite painful as well, because it is only temporary. It only lasts for at least 45 days…
“Come home, it's malem.” Take Julian down after lowering his hand from Xennora's head. No, his heart said to stay in that place. Hold on a little longer.
“Eh? What time is it now? Hour half eight... Lo sure brother?” Xennora asked which made Julian even more worried.
Julian smiling. “Iya, it's too bad, Ra. Next time we go for a walk again kayak gini, rather unfortunate let play the old Hahaha...” What lies is this again…? Why are his thoughts and feelings out of sync? Why does everything he says not match what he feels?
“Haha... Yes already, come on kak.” Take Xennora while walking ahead of Julian.
Julian was still there, he looked at the sky with teary eyes, then smiled after hearing Xennora who called out to him. Actually, there are a few more things that Julian really wants…
“Iya, briefly. I... Nyulus..”
One of them uses that vocabulary.
Either way Julian sighed there, he couldn't hold back his emotions, he couldn't hold back what should have happened, he couldn't hold back what should have gone. Julian can't keep it. He can't help it. With a quick step, Julian approached Xennora and grabbed the girl. He let his tears out. For this time, Julian would not go to great lengths to deny anything. Accepting everything is indeed heavier, but denying it will make Julian more tormented.
All her struggles, all her hopes, all her dreams, all her memories, and her. It's not gonna be the same anymore.
Everything was clear from the beginning. They quarreled, never got along for 5 years, Xennora never expected anything, the girl did not want to change anything. The only exaggeration here is Julian, who wants to change the line of destiny is Julian, who fights only Julian, only Julian, and Julian. The end is unhappy. It seems like everyone realizes, everyone knows, the end of this story. Only Julian tries to close his eyes, trying to get out of the line of fate, trying to plunge himself into the open ocean, denying the end of this tale.
It turns out that there is a story like this.Not a third person, not a blessing barrier, not a departure to the Creator, not a emotional barrier. But it's about the fate line, which is basically inviolable, even guessable.
...“This story is indeed a mistake. A happy mistake, at the same time sad. Where everything is blocked by the destiny line.”...
...-Julian Matteo Kayden...
“The sun teaches us that at every warm meeting there is a beautiful farewell, from Arief Subagja.”
“Talking goodbye is like feeling a little dead, from Raymond Chandler.”
“Maybe you guys think there's love in a defend. But also there is a love that is no less great than a release, Mario Teguh.”
“Parting is indeed made to make the reunion feel beautiful, Ken Terate.”
“Some farewells are not the end of the story, but may be the beginning of a new journey.”
...Season 1...