Just a Servant
I don't want to be alone.

Mr. Bagas has finished bathing and getting dressed. I helped him like he was yesterday. Now it's my turn to take a shower, but the problem is. I know how to get brought here.

"Master.... " Call me doubt.

"Hmmm... " See Mr. Bagas. Her hands were still combing her hair which was still a bit wet. His eyes looked at me through the mirror in front of him.

"Eng... can I take a shower here? " Tanyaku be careful while pointing at Mr. Bagas' bathroom.

"Well?! Where else would you like to shower? " Mister Bagas asked back.

"Eng. don't know sir... " I answered confused. In this house there are how many bathrooms I do not know, want to be told to choose anyway...

"Nur... " The master's order then while patting the chair that was in front of the dressing table. I approached, then hesitated to sit on the chair he pointed at.

"Nur. Who am I to you?" Ask the master when we are already sitting face to face.

"Master, my employer... " Answer me. Hearing that, Mr. Bagas sighed.

"Then... what is the function of the kabul ijab event this afternoon? " Task Mr. Bagas again, his tone sounded half as frustrating as it seemed.

I unconsciously bit my thumb's fingernails out of nervousness.

"I'm sorry.... " I'm really confused as to what to say. I was really afraid to hope that Mr. Bagas would think of me as a wife.

"Are you sorry, marrying a disabled person like me?" Ask Mr. Bagas suddenly startled me.

"No. Not so, sir... " Reply answer.

"Then...? "

"I feel unworthy for you... I am a woman without a caste without a clear family.... " My mouth while looking down. The words 'Nurul bint Fulan' again ringed in the ears.

Looks like you want to say something again, but stop. His mouth that had been opened to speak again closed.

"We'll talk later. Now you take a shower, get changed, we eat. I'm already hungry... " Say Mr. Bagas then while releasing my chin with a slight nudge.

"But sir, I don't have a change of clothes... " I said.

"While, you just wear my clothes first, choose in the closet that is suitable for you to wear. Tomorrow we buy clothes for you... " Answer sir.

"Thank you sir... " My heart.

Armed with permission from the master, I approached the master's wardrobe. I looked at the pile of clothes that were there. Then I grabbed a piece of short-sleeved t-shirt with training pack model trousers.

"I took this one, sir... " I said while showing the clothes I took.

"Hem... " Murm mumbled sir while then. "At that fast... " Say sir added.

"Yes sir... " After answering that, I hurried to the bathroom, hurriedly bathed and hurriedly dressed as well. Not until ten minutes have I stood ready in front of you.

"Already sir... " I said. Mr. Bagas stared and watched my appearance for a moment.

"Yes great....?" His comments when he saw the slightly fluttering t-shirt I was wearing. I smile.

"But comfortable sir... " I answered lightly.

"Aren't you shampooing?" Ask sir to see my hair remains dry.

"Said was told quickly.so no time sir..." Reply again.

"Yes, it's shampooing in the morning." He said with a strange smile. I didn't catch anything strange from that line, so I just said...

"Yes sir... " I was still confused as to why the master smiled like that...

"Let's eat. I'm so hungry..." Said the master then turned his attention while advancing his chair towards the door. I rushed ahead to open the door.

We headed to the dining room. At the dining table there is a food menu that seems to be prepared by mak Surip and Murni.

There is vegetable soup, sambal, tempeh, tofu and fried chicken.

"Please sir... " Said. He was focused on the master, not thinking of me at all. I pulled over and took the plate to get the rice master. But it seems Pure doesn't like me doing that. He immediately took out a plate as well and picked up some rice for master.

"So this is enough, sir...?" He asked while showing the rice he had brought.

"Hem... " Murm sir. His eyes looked at me who was still holding the plate I had filled with rice.

"Nur.. sit here..." Said the master while pointing at the chair next to him.

I approached and sat on the chair in question followed by a dislike gaze from Pure, and Surip's mak's wrinkled forehead. Master took the rice plate I was holding.

"Take me the vegetable and the tempeh... " Mister's orders to me. My hand immediately moved to fetch what master asked.

"Have enough, sir?" I asked after spooning vegetables to master's plate.

"Yes... Let's take it for yourself..." Said sir. I nodded and took another plate to get food for myself.

"Would you like to eat together?" Asked the master suddenly at Pure who was still standing half-still looking at us ready to eat. Master's eyes were directed at the rice plate that Pure held.

"Oh.no, sir... " Pure Sahut when you realize the direction of your gaze. "Excuse me..." Pure said leaving the dining room with the rice plate he took earlier. Mak Surip stared at Pure's back which passed half confused.

"Sorry sir... Is there anything I can prepare again?" Ask mak Surip.

"No one. later let Nur prepare my needs... " Answer sir. Mak Surip nodded in understanding.

"I'm sorry, sir. If there's anything, I'm in the kitchen... " Said, sir nodded. I also nodded to her as a thank you for preparing this dinner.

"May I ask you, sir?" I asked after a while we kept quiet and enjoyed our meal.

"Ask what?"

"Do you always eat here by yourself?" I asked while looking at the master timidly.

"Yes... why?" the master replied at once asking.

"Eh no reason.... " My leg hangs.

In my mind, how lonely is this master's life. Eating alone, doing everything himself, even though he has a family and many employees.

Ever since I had amnesia, one thing that was really scary to me was living alone and being lonely. That's why I don't understand if you choose to live alone like this.

"What's wrong? " Task master again when he hears the tone hanging in my voice.

"There's nothing, sir... " I answered trying to behave normally, but without me realizing it, there was a choking tone in the throat, making you not believe that there was nothing. He kept looking at me waiting for my answer.

"I'm afraid I have to live alone, sir... " I finally answered, almost whispering.

Really, the shadow I had to live alone it really felt so scary. Very scary. Even if just imagining it makes me shiver in fear. The first few months after I had amnesia, I was still in the hospital. No relatives, or relatives who come to visit, no friends let alone friends to share. Really frustrating. Sleeper and languish alone.

At that time, I really wanted to be able to go home. I really wanted to be able to hug someone.. Maybe my mother or father? I want it to feel even in a dream, I can meet them... But my memory is empty.There is no memory of anything I can dig up, that can warm this heart... That lonely shadow really made my chest tight.

I feel my body being grabbed by master. Master hugged me tightly and without me being able to stop, in his embrace I started sobbing.

"I'm afraid to be alone sir. I'm afraid..." My murmur is interrupted by sobs.

I felt master's hands patting my back slowly.

"Sst. don't be afraid. From now on you will not be alone.... I will always accompany you... " Speak sir calms me.

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