AFTER THE DIVORCE
Chapter 2: Changing

“Don't life have to keep going, even if things have changed?”

Episode 2: Change

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He lost his direction. He sat down weakly while holding the rainbow. The boy was still crying. The reality that made him even more helpless, especially what Keinya could do was also just crying.

All efforts Keinya has tried to calm the Rainbow including inviting Athan to participate. But what a force, a moment ago, the man left them after briefly saying goodbye. Athan prefers other women. Women who have also been in the past of their relationships. Also, the woman that even Keinya never expected would be the cause of the destruction of her relationship and Athan, the destruction of their family!

Relying on the rest of his strength, Keinya moved on. It was hard, because he had to crawl. Keinya climbed the stairs to the top floor. Trouble the woman did and there were times when she almost fell. This fact also makes it take a lot longer just to be able to return to his room, decorated with frustration that continues to explode, as well as his tears that never stop glinting.

When he managed to enter his room, the shadow of Athan who floated farewell as if life adorned the atmosphere there. Keinya did not dare to face it. The debate between him and Athan is both real and painful. Everything echoes like a scene of a film that continues to repeat and makes Keinya more frightened.

Keinya's body trembled. Even the longer the more uncontrollable like someone who shivers because of sakau. Keinya did not want to look over to hear the debate. Keinya chose to hold Rainbow tightly while leaning his face on the face of the little boy who until this moment was still crying.

“Honey, relax, yes. Everything's fine. Love you, and always will be. Mom won't let you go, let alone leave you for another happiness. Believe this. Mom will always be there for you!”

Keinya broke into tears while kissing the face of the Rainbow. But soon after, with a stagger, he laughed while laying the rainbow on the edge of the mattress.

Keinya's looks are very sad. He laughed in his tears while observing the atmosphere of the room. The picture frames with Athan adorning the table became his focus. Keinya approached the frames with a laughter that gradually subsided. Then, the woman grabbed one of the frames lined up there, while continuing to stare blankly at the remaining frames. However, the farewell that Athan said just a moment ago and suddenly adorned his memory, making Keinya's emotions overflow.

While crying hysterically, Keinya swept the rest of the frame there brutally using both hands. 

The loud noise broke, chime with Keinya's cry. And after all the frames were completely swept away, Keinya's body rolled up, sitting limp in the middle of the scattering of glass from the frame that became the outlet of his emotions. He lamented the floor around him. Completely messy full of broken glass, in addition to the frame frame following his photo.

With a still frustrated look, Keinya found a seep of blood on his fingers. Then, he observed the state of his body even more in detail. His legs, wearing light blue knee-length pajamas, also found him bleeding. There was a sting that seemed to be piercing all over his body without exception his heart and heart, despite clearly bleeding from his arms and legs.

Actually, what makes a person lose his love for a partner? Does love have an expiration? Keinya thought about that while looking up, staring at the ceiling of his room that never gave him an answer. But it seems, the only one who has the answer to Keinya's question is Athan. 

Since when did Athan's love for Keinya, expire? Or, it has become part of the nature of Athan who is easily bored, even though before marriage, they dated for four years? Four years is not a short time, is it? Meanwhile, Keinya felt that he knew Athan very well. 

Thinking of all that, there was suddenly a hatred growing so wild in Keinya's heart for Athan as the woman's gaze darkened. 

Keinya lost consciousness. The pitiful woman fainted in the middle of reality that had barely lost her sanity.

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Keinya woke up in shock. Beker on the nightstand next to the bed is the cause. In the middle of his head that felt very dizzy, also the eyes that felt heavy and painful, Keinya moved and stepped stupefied leaving a glass as well as a frame on the floor. It turned out that he overslept a wound as well as pain. And because of his carelessness as well, new wounds were also born from broken glass frames scattered around there.

While staring at the work on the nightstand and stepping there, Keinya stared at a glimpse of the hands following his feet that felt sore. Not only did the dried blood decorate every wound there, because fresh blood also seemed to seep from the same place.

After successfully turning off the work, who stole the attention of Keinya was none other than the silence of the atmosphere. The rainbow did not cry, while last night, it dissolved in sadness as well as an unexpected wound.

With a soft, tense look that suddenly wrapped up his life, Keinya immediately turned his head to ascertain the state of the Rainbow. Truly, his body shrieked, as if there was an instantaneous flow of electricity stinging on purpose. He's numb. His heart seemed to come off. The pale rainbow face was filled with a sweaty foam that was so striking.

After being silent in confusion and looking extremely ill within a few seconds, Keinya who could not hide his fear, immediately grabbed, grabbed onto the body of the Rainbow and carried it away. Keinya continued to run out of the house without first improving. He just snatched the bag following the cell phone from the dresser.

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Body temperature Rainbow hot passing. Keinya again lost direction, do not know what to do? While tracing the way out of his yard, all he had in his memory was Athan. Kei tried to contact the man. Press the number one emergency call button and directly connect it to Athan's contact. 

While sitting on the passenger bench, Keinya sulked, feeling inexhaustible, why did Athan not answer his call? “Than, Rainbow hurts. I'm taking him to the hospital.” He accidentally leaves a voicemail to Athan, before storing his phone in a bag.

“God, .. I believe You never sleep. So please don't let my son get sick. Let me feel all the wounds. Let my son live happily without any injury. I really begged ...”

He went back to fighting on his own. In silence, the woman tried hard. Keinya continued to pet and wipe every sweat of the Rainbow while trying to give him ASii. But damn, even though Rainbow responded immediately, but ASI Keinya still did not come out.

Keinya believes the rainbow is dehydrated. So, inevitably, he must be willing if his child consumes formula milk, rather than getting dehydrated Rainbow.

With his condition that began to tremble because of fear of something bad to happen to his daughter, Keinya said, “Pak, later when I enter the hospital, you can please buy me formula milk as well as the bottle?” sergeant.

Keinya ketar-ketir and hope the taxi driver will be kind to help him.

The taxi driver could feel how distressed Keinya was to face the baby in the woman's arms. So, sincerely he immediately said, “well, Mom!”

“Thank you very much, yes, sir.” Keinya immediately took out a few hundred thousand pieces of money from his wallet nervously. He gave it to his taxi driver. Not forgetting, he reviewed a smile even though it only lasted a few seconds, in the middle of his pale face filled with sweat foam.

After Keinya out of the taxi, the taxi he was riding also went directly to the supermarket at the opposite end of the front road. But unexpectedly, Athan who he had repeatedly contacted was in front of him. Only, the state of the man was certainly not to accompany Keinya let alone awake for the Rainbow. Because in front of the hospital entrance that the man also just left and will visit Keinya, Athan actually embraces the waist of a distended woman, with a very friendly. 

Tiara's. The woman was so spoiled and Athan treated her lovingly. Chest even all over the body Keinya immediately hot to see that reality. Keinya's world seemed to be spinning slowly and only centered on the two lovebirds before him.

Both of them were very happy even when they realized that the pitiful-looking woman before them was Keinya. Athan was stunned after being surprised to find Keinya in front of him. But only that. Because when Tiara who looks uncomfortable with the way Athan looks at Keinya immediately shakes next to the man's arm, Athan also immediately ends his gaze and passes while re-embracing Tiara affectionately. Several times, Athan also again appeared to stroke Tiara's stomach while floating a kiss on Tiara's head that was not ashamed to show off his indulgence.

After having been transformed into a fool for precisely paying attention to Athan and Tiara who were clearly happy on top of his suffering, Keinya immediately turned away the face of the two lovebirds who had made his world destroyed.

“I assure you, you will pay for every tear drop of my son!” keinya's oath. Keinya's jaw is hardened. Along with that, her tears also flowed back. Keinya closer to the body Rainbow. Full of warmth and love. Yes, it is not fitting that his world be destroyed just because of Athan's betrayal. Doesn't life have to go on, even if things have changed?

“Hold Baby. You are Mamah's only treasure!”

***

Keinya's suffering continues, as the miserable woman must be caught in line. Keinya queue while giving Rainbow formula milk after until helped make it by a taxi driver who is so kind and happy to help him. Even now, the man is facing the hospital officer, so that Rainbow immediately referred to the IGD.

“Bu, why is his son given formula milk, not ASi, just?” reprimanding a nurse who happened to come with Dadang, as a taxi driver who helped Keinya.

“ASI I'm not out, Sus. But do not worry, the degree of a person is not measured from the milk drunk, kok!” Realizing the change in the expression of the sisters who became wry, Keinya immediately added, “Sorry, Sus. Not to be disrespectful. But please, Sister must know better if the mother is breastfeeding, no less sensitive than pregnant women. If only my ASI came out, of course I would prefer to give my child ASI!”

Keinya realized, he shouldn't have said that to the nun who would handle the Rainbow. Just look at how much the sister lost because when going to reply, Dadang forbid it through the eye code on the nurse, so as not to prolong the debate between formula milk and ASI.

For Keinya, there are times when a mother feels very depressed and even fails, just because of people's judgment. Not only about the milk consumed following parenting, but the development of children who are always equated, when clearly, the growth and development of each child is different. And Keinya would not be silent if it hit him let alone the Rainbow.

When Keinya followed the nuns accompanied by Dadang, someone held Keinya's arm until the woman was forced to turn back to make sure.

“Why? Just called, don't want to reply?” A man holding Keinya's arm, was astonished and looked at Keinya very calmly, although from the look in his eyes, the man also looked worried about Keinya.

A man in an office style despite not wearing a suit and tie. The tall man wearing the grey shirt was completely foreign to Keinya.

Keinya got rid of the man's prisoner, because Keinya did not know him. For him, it was not important to serve people he did not know, especially if it was a man. Keinya deliberately ignored and stepped back towards the IGD. But when Keinya looked back to make sure, the tall man was still staring at him. So much worry emanated from the way the man looked at her. But really, with full consciousness, Keinya asserted that he did not know the man!

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