AFTER THE DIVORCE
Chapter 23: Sincere (Revised)

“Although I am sincere, but I also hope to get a reply from you. It's hypocritical that I say I'm sincere and willing to see you happy with another man, whereas I really want you.”

Chapter 23: The Pass

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“Enough, Na .. don't resume again!”

Yuan looked very angry, sad, even hurt. But all the flavors that melted into one did not necessarily make Ryunana feel better. Even the word “win” as if away from him because instead of leaving or at least saying rudely to Keinya, Yuan actually embraced and herded the woman to leave Ryunana.

Ryunana confusion. “Y-yu?” Shouldn't Yuan be on his side? Should Yuan be angry at Keinya too? But ... Why didn't that happen?

Yuan stopped stepping. Likewise with Keinya who is still silent, following every guidance that Yuan despised.

Without staring or just glancing at Ryunana, Yuan said, “you know the way out of this apartment, right?”

Ryunana is confused. But the woman tends to feel disappointed because Yuan seems to deliberately drive her away subtly.

In his clear silence waiting for Ryunana's reaction, Yuan looked extremely uncomfortable. “One more time, until any time, I don't need the truth about my woman from anyone, even that from you.”

There was one power that suddenly knocked Keinya's heart and mind when the word “wanitaku” was spoken from Yuan's lips. There is a strange feeling that makes Keinya not understand. Keinya himself did not know, whether he was angry, objected to the name of Yuan, or just the opposite? Why does that name make Keinya's heart rustle? It was as if someone was living there after a row of wounds had smashed him into such fine pieces.

“Wanitaku?” ryunana muttered continuously repeating the word. The word that Yuan calls Keinya. Also, a word that felt so painful to him. For just because of that word too, defeat completely immersed him.

“Even if Keinya dumps me, I don't care. So you already know, right, how valuable Keinya is to me?” continued Yuan who felt desperate because the woman he loved also never realized his sincerity.

Keinya who became the subject of conversation remained unmoved. Only the wrinkles on his face only increased as his seriousness listened to Yuan and Ryunana chatter.

“One more. Regarding your business, .. My lawyer will settle it. So don't bother Keinya anymore. Because if that happens, you will deal with me!”

Slowly for a long time, Ryunana actually gnawed and looked to withstand the embarrassment that to just lift his face did not have the guts. True, Yuan was angry with him instead of Keinya. The man so sincerely loved Keinya even looked very conspicuous from every way at once Yuan's effort.

After the atmosphere of togetherness became quiet, Yuan focused his gaze on Keinya. “You better rest with Rainbow,” the whisper is right next to Keinya's ear.

Yuan's voice sounded much calmer, contrasting as the man spoke to Ryunana. Because when talking to Ryunana, Yuan sounded emotional, despite the anger even the hatred that the man could endure as much as possible.

With a heart filled with regret, Yuan again whispered, “sorry. I shouldn't have brought him to you.”

Keinya had never received the kind of preferential treatment that Yuan did. Even with the apology that Yuan just whispered when the man was completely innocent. Because without or with the help of Yuan, the meeting with Ryunana had indeed become Keinya's goal to solve their problems. And when Keinya reflected on what he got from Athan, his heart became stupefied. Keinya hesitated and indeed became distrustful of the sincerity and love of anyone especially a man without exception Yuan. Is it true .. is Yuan sincere?

Slowly, with a wounded heart in addition to the heat that made his eyes wet, Keinya used a side of his hand that Yuan was not holding, to release the man's prisoner. But once again, Yuan remained unwilling to let go.

“Go. Don't bother me anymore.” Yuan stepped back to include Keinya with him. And again, he tried to expel Ryunana.

There was no other explanation from Yuan even though the expelled woman showed some objection and stayed silent for quite a while while looking at him with a hearty look. Therefore, Ryunana was forced to put her feet up with a sense of shame that weighed down every step of her life, because Yuan really did not care about her.

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“If you really love me, please, don't touch me let alone force me to always accept your decision.”

Keinya's voice sounded floating, and he uttered it without looking at Yuan. “You know what happened to me even seems more than I know.” Keinya was sure, Yuan already knew everything. Not only about Keinya household problems, but the following work with Ryunana.

Yuan further tightened his distance from Keinya while bending over, trying to look at the face even deeper into the woman's eyes. Deep down, he hoped Keinya would return his gaze even if only for a few seconds.

“Two years are waiting for you, you still can't believe my seriousness?” lirih Yuan sounded miserable as well as heavy.

Keinya flinched and remained with his position without even a single glance at Yuan.

“Two years more is not a short time, Kei—”

“If you love me, you should sincerely do it.” Keinya interrupted Yuan's explanation without looking at the man.

“Easy then?” saut Yuan was disappointed.

Yuan looked at Keinya with trembling eyes. “If you were me, would you still like this, treat me like this?” Yuan looked at Keinya with certainty.

“Unfortunately I'm not you.” Keinya remained indifferent and chose selfishly so that Yuan was angry and even hated him.

“Although I am sincere, but I also hope to get a reply from you. It's hypocritical that I say I'm sincere and willing to see you happy with another man, whereas I really want you.”

Keiny knocked Yuan's hand away, but the man was still unwilling to let go.

“And now, you ask me to let you step by yourself, while you have a Rainbow that you should pay more attention to?” yuan said quickly even though his tone was still soft.

Yuan looked at Keinya with certainty. After being silent waiting for a reply from the woman who remained silent, he shook his head and felt inexhaustible. Yuan was getting frustrated. “If you have been to a psychiatrist, you will not continue this way. You must have—”

Yuan's words stopped because Keinya suddenly turned back and then looked at him.

“Do not interfere in my affairs again!” Keinya began to feel iris towards Yuan who never gave up.

Yuan stared fixedly at Keinya's eyes as he shook his head. “I can't let alone everything related to you impact the Rainbow. Everything related to you is my responsibility, Kei!”

“If you think all the men who approach you are jerks and have foul goals just because of your past, you are wrong. Everyone, even those who are identical twins, have different traits and preferences. Stop thinking that I am even someone else, same as your past!”

“You're a smart woman, Kei. And even if you're being so devastated or even traumatized, please, .. please give me a chance!”

Keinya swallowed his saliva, then looked at the man before him with a look of astonishment. Keinya did not understand, why did Yuan enter his life so far away?

“You must live happily, the rest I will take care of everything for you.” After saying that, Yuan gradually turned around while sighing deeply.

Yuan seemed to be dispelling the tightness that filled his chest because Keinya still ignored him.

“Hold your word!” keinya said without staring or just glancing at Yuan.

Keinya's reply made Yuan excited. “Starting this second I made sure no other woman touched me except you. You should do it for me too, huh?”

As Yuan was about to hold back his shoulder, Keinya hurriedly retreated leaving the man in a hasty step. Finding this, Yuan smiled amusedly and released Keinya full of happiness. To him, what happened to Keinya this time had shown a much better change than the woman was just being flat, even to just walk around until it did not make a sound.

Keinya reaction to make Yuan flowery. The man became powerless to finish his smile in the middle of his breath that was hunting. But often, happiness is born from simple things. Yuan came to think, what happened was now the result of his sincerity in loving Keinya which made Yuan talkative even into a noisy man.

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