When Destiny Re-Picks
Flashback: Suffering Alone

..."Love may give you a wound. But, a wound will make you more mature."...

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Dian sat leaning on the head of the bed with her hands clenched at her knees. He looked up at the dark silence of the night outside the window. It seems that nature feels the atmosphere of her condition.

Dian moved from her seat. He grabbed his blanket wrapped in his bare self, and walked up to the glass wall that revealed the darkness of the night. A speck of crystal grains flowed from the corner of his eye.

Tonight happens again. For the second time he again gave his body to a man whose future was not for him. It's been almost three months that night and it's happened again.

He looked at the man sleeping on the bed. So calm in his sleep. His face was so seductive to women, who could resist it? And he's just a lucky girl who happens to be his wife.

Although this marriage is undesirable, you still treat me well. You kept your promise to let me be your wife until your girlfriend came back. Thank you and I appreciate it.

Tonight, Nico is back drunk. I don't know what happened to her out there today, but she keeps mentioning Melly's name in her rations. Is that how Nico loves that woman?

Dian was only able to accept that. They had agreed and she was not the girl who would lick her own spit. Sick indeed, where you accept the fact that you already love that man.

He tried to ignore it, then looked back out. Looking up at the sky, Dian prayed to God.

Lord, let me keep trying to smile in pain. The sky is not always bright, sometimes the rain can bring disaster and feelings can also often be hurt. I accept a destiny you wrote for me, just give me strength. I will receive my happiness later on.

Reality does not always go hand in hand with hope but that does not mean we have to be overwhelmed by despair.

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Dian smiled sadly staring at a small picture that clearly plastered two small creatures the size of a bean. He felt his flat stomach with painful tears accompanying him. It had been two months since their second night, Dian had finally tested positive for twins.

He did not cry out of hatred, but how would he explain to his two children if they were born without a father? Dian could not imagine when the two were born and grew up without a papa figure who became the leader.

Upon hearing the door of the room open, Dian quickly wiped away her tears. He tried to smile again, as if everything was fine.

"May ..." Nico did not see his wife. Somehow he wanted to see the girl to dispel her bad mood.

Today, he gets word that his girlfriend has returned. The woman he had loved for years finally returned to Indonesia after canceling the engagement unilaterally on career grounds.

But that's not what he feels. Why was he not happy when he heard it? He began to doubt his decision. It felt so fast, he didn't seem to want Dian to leave yet. Is he starting to love that girl?

"You okay?" ask Dian to worry. He could see Nico's different face.

The question made Nico smile again. This girl always knows her changes, unlike Melly who is sometimes busy with her own business. See? He even began to compare the two.

"I'm fine." Nico grabbed Dian's face and stroked her gently. Honestly this face always made him calm. Teenage short hair does make Dian like a high school boy.

She is an 18 year old girl! inner Nico reminded.

"Lied!" Put Nico's hands down. "Let's be honest with me. What's up?" urged Dian, making the man chuckle.

"No, I just miss this shitty face of yours." Nico pinches Dian's chubby cheeks, making the girl squeal.

"You're a bitch. Let go, sick tofu!" Dian stroked her flushed cheeks. Nico laughed, ah happy.

But wait! There's something strange about this girl. "You've been crying?" Nico was about to touch Dian's eyes which looked slightly swollen. "No! Why cry," said Dian nervously, brushed off Nico's hand.

"Really?" ask Nico suspiciously. "Sure," he answered convincingly.

Nico sighed softly. "Tell me what's bothering you. I'll try to help as much as I can," said Nico gently, making Dian's chest rustle.

How can I not love you if you keep treating me like this. Treating it like we're not going to part.

"Nlc ...."

"Hm?"

"What if I'm pregnant?" tanya Dian hesitated. He looked at Nico's face.

"No, it was an accident. Only once can't make you pregnant." Rubbing Dian's head. He thought Dian was worried about his future.

"If it were?" Dian tried to look ordinary, but she wanted to cry. Tell Nico she's pregnant with the boy!

Nico doesn't even remember their second night!

"I'll take good care of him with Melly."

Crushed. Lost her little hope. How could Nico have so easily said that. Even if she was a teenager, she was the girl who would become their mother. Dian wouldn't be willing to give up her children for another woman, but she didn't want to be selfish either.

Even though he left his children with Abraham's family, was their presence still acceptable? Will they be treated well here when he leaves? Nah! It is better to stay away than to have a complete family but not to be appreciated for its presence.

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