We are Not Honey
Chapters 20. From Zahra To Meisya

"Don't hold the sand too tightly. Because the more Mbak grasps the sand tightly, the more will come out and eventually run out of nothing." Zahra's words made Meisya look over.

"You mean?" Meisya asked, however, Zahra immediately shook her head.

"Sir, don't love anything more than our love for Him. God will be jealous later." Zahra's words again made Meisya more confused.

"Allah is everything. He could even be something that would not be possible. I trust Him more, than I believe in myself." Zahra said again.

"Speak straight to the point, Zahra. I really don't understand what you're talking about." Meisya.

Zahra raised her hand, then clasped Meisya's hand which was holding a book.

"Mother asked if I loved her? Well, I'm in love with her. So great was the power that God had placed on me, even in just a month, He was able to change my heart to this extent. I love him as much as you do. We can be good friends and relatives, and I'm willing to be. However, if Mbak is not pleased, then I will not force it either. I will again plead with the owner of the heart, to take the taste He has placed in my heart for almost two months. I sincerely let go of Mas Riyan, because maybe he is not my destiny." Zahra said at length. Meisya was even more stunned hearing that long explanation.

Zahra glanced at the small clock coiled around her wrist, then looked back at Meisya.

"That feels yes, ma'am. The time we spend telling stories is so long. Do you want me to help you with lunch first or what? Soon I will pray dzuhur in the hospital musholah." Ask.

"Friend me eat first." Meisya Pinta.

Zahra nodded. He then stepped out of the room to ask the officer to deliver Meisya lunch into the room.

However, as her steps came out from inside the room, Zahra was silent for a while as she looked at the man who was stepping quickly towards her while smiling warmly.

"Where are you going?" Ask Riyan.

"You take this. Ma'am Meisya wants lunch." Zahra answered while pointing at the tray that was in Riyan's hands.

"So I met them there." Said Riyan, and Zahra nodded. "Get in again yuk." Bring her.

"You want to go to Musholah, it is time to pray dzuhur. I prayed, right?" Ask Zahra.

"Well, before I got here, I stopped by the musholah. Yes, I went in.." Pamit Riyan's.

Zahra nodded.

"Oh yes, Ra. Breakfast and lunch are delicious. Thanks." Said Riyan again. And Zahra just nodded back.

After Riyan's body disappeared behind the door of the room, Zahra immediately turned around and stepped out of the room with tears falling down her cheeks and hijab. As much as he could resist staying strong over the decision, however, his heart was still so sad, remembering that he would again part with the loved one for the second time.

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After Zahra's death, in the room where Meisya and Riyan were so calm. Upon hearing Meisya's request, various kinds of things began to disturb Riyan's heart and mind. Singapore was so far away, and how he asked Zahra for permission regarding her departure.

"May, I have to discuss this with Zahra first." Said Riyan making a disappointed look on Meisya's face look so clear.

"You still have time to talk to him. We're leaving next week, anyway." Answer Meisya ketus.

"alright. You eat first, yeah." Persuade Riyan.

"Don't do it, I'm not hungry." Meisya pulled out her blanket, then lay down on the bed.

"May, don't be like this." Riyan tried to grab his wife's hand, but was rudely patted.

Not wanting to hurt Meisya, he immediately got out of the chair and brought the food on the nightstand to the sofa table.

"Are you in love with her?" Meisya asked making Riyan's footsteps stop.

"Don't bring Zahra with you because of your selfishness. I've given up enough on everything. It's not only my fault, but you're also involved in this complicated matter. Understand, May. Don't make things harder. I only asked for time for her permission, because you and she alone are important in my life. I'm in charge of your life, and so is Zahra." Clearly Riyan was upset.

After putting the tray with the bowl of food for his wife on the sofa table, Riyan left the room. Musholah, that place is the goal at this time. He wanted to make sure Zahra was still there.

Riyan walked down the hospital corridor to meet Zahra. But when he got there, the girl was no longer there.

Without wasting any time, he stepped back quickly towards the parking lot. Maybe the girl was still there, but nothing. Zahra was no longer there.

With a feeling of sadness mixed with guilt, Riyan stepped out of the parking area, and entered the hospital to accompany Meisya.

"Where are you?" Ask her when her phone call was received.

"Mom asked me to come home. I'm going out of town. There is nothing if today can not help accompany Mbak Mei. Cassian's own mother."

The explanation he knew was just that reason, making Riyan squeeze his phone firmly.

"I'm a real jerk, Ra." However, there is no answer on the other end. Only a sigh sounded so heavy, it pierced into his ears.

Moments later, without saying his usual greetings, the call ended.

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