My best friend, Maduku
Unsavory regrets

After chatting with umma while watering her flower plants, Alsya and Umma went inside again for breakfast which turned out to coincide with the arrival of Abah and Affan.

Alsya immediately greeted his brother's hand with a full hiatus and hugged him tightly as if spilling all the longing he had felt all along.

"What about your heart, son ?." Abah hugged her daughter.

"Al is fine, Abah. "

"Thank God, where is Abah's grandson?." Abah searched for the whereabouts of his grandson who had not been seen the trunk of his nose.

"Fazal's still sleeping, bah."

"Oh, that's it. Let's have breakfast." Abah invited all his family members to breakfast.

Alsya couldn't come right away because she was going upstairs first to see her son. When he arrived at the room, Alsya widened her smile to see the son was awake but still at home rolling on the bed.

"Assalamualaikum, prince of Ummi..."

Fazal reflexes. She returned her mother's smile and sat up. "Ummi."

"Yes, let's take a shower?!."

Fazal nodded obediently. Alsya immediately bathed Fazal and after spending less than ten minutes, the two of them walked out of the room towards the dining table.

Everyone ate quietly for a few minutes then disbanded due to their respective affairs. Alsha will be preparing to go visit the graves of her children.

Alsya goes in between the family drivers with Fazal. When he arrived, his eyes began to glaze over at the two adjoining tombstones. His sons have gone before the Creator. His children are his helpers tomorrow.

"Ummi cry ?." Fazal asked innocently.

Alsya rubbed her son's head gently. "We pray, baby ?." Alsya said without answering her son's questions.

Fazal complied and began to raise his hand as Alsya began to read his prayer.

So solemn and shahdu. Breeze from shady trees in the cemetery area as if to guarantee Alsya prayer at this time.

Alsha closed his prayer with the phrase hamdalah followed by the son.

"Nil,.." Fazal looked at his mother's face that was still wet with tears. That tiny hand gently wiped those tears. "Ummi can not cry, later kaila same brother Hafidhz also cry." Fazal said so understandingly.

Alsya smiled and kissed Fazal on the head. "Yes, honey. Ummi won't cry anymore."

"Fazal loves the ummi..." Fazal suddenly got up and hugged his mother tightly.

Alsya could not hold back her tears, she cried again, but this time she cried because of the behavior of the son.

Fazal let go of his embrace.

"We're home, yuk ?!."

"He em."

Alsya got up from her seat and walked while holding Fazal's tiny hand. The weather of the day is quite shady because in some parts, the sky looks cloudy.

The two joined hands with their mouths humming sholawat. Fazal from small does like sholawat the most. Even as an infant, Fazal would never have been able to sleep if Alsya had not been told sholawat.

Fazal occasionally chuckled as he managed to jump over the small rocks.

"Alsha."

Alsya stopped her steps instantly as a voice called out her name. Fazal also stopped his steps and looked towards the sound.

Alsya felt familiar with that voice, but she forgot whose voice was it ?. Alsya turned to the source of the voice.

Deg

During this year, Aly lived like a dazed person who did not know the direction. Several times he also did therapy to a psychiatrist to restore his state of mind.

At that time Aly was really not careless, he sometimes mused, daydreamed and then suddenly hurt himself and raved while mentioning the names of Alsya and Hafidhz.

Aly was really like a person who lost his sanity for months. I don't know where all his knowledge went so that he could get into severe depression.

When Aly's condition has returned to normal, Aly once tried to find Alsya's whereabouts to apologize to the mother of the child. But it turns out that he can't find her at all, as the Alsya family hides her whereabouts and only tells her that Alsya is out of town.

And at this moment, after a long time, his eyes returned to look at that figure. Alsha was standing in front of him with a little boy. Alsya's face looked even more beautiful, not even a hint of sadness there. Contrary to the reverse with Aly who until now is still plagued with guilt against all his once outrageous attitudes.

Aly's gaze was fixed on the little boy who was a little similar to Hafidzh's. He's sure, if it's Fazal, his son.

"Sorry, excuse me." Alsya's words just passed while carrying Fazal's body.

Aly pulled her wrist making Alsya stop stepping. "Alsha." Call Aly very soft.

Alsya was seen breathing heavily and then turned around. "Take my hand off ." Said cold.

Aly was stunned then let go of her grasp. "I'm sorry, Al."

"It's all happening, so let it all work out. And, behave like an ethical person." Alsya is very spicy and gets colder.

"Alright, Al. I was wrong, but let me touch my son..." Aly's gaze began to faintly look towards the face of the boy that Alsya was carrying.

"He's my son." Alsya reminded.

"Al, I beg you, he's also my son, I'm his ashes..." Aly's getting more and more.

"You don't even deserve to be called Abi. You destroyed all your children. What is Abi called ?!. Huhh ?!." Alsya began to run out of patience and stared intently at the face of the man she once loved so much, the selfish man she had once known. "You obliterated my daughter,... You also obliterated Hafidhz !!. What do you really want ?!. Huhh ?!. Even I willingly allowed you to take my son, but you killed him instead !. You're Aly's killer... !!!." Alsya felt increasingly tight in her chest. She recalled everything Aly had created towards her, everything that hurt her heart so much.

Aly stunned. For the first time, Alsya called him by name. All his life when he knew Alsya, Alsya never mentioned his name. And this feels so heartbreaking.

Aly noticed the frightened face of the boy and peeked on his mother's body.

"I've been kind enough to ask Brother Affan to drop his charges, so I'm warning you, there's no more of your son. All your children are dead !." Alsya said sarcastically.

Alsya passed by without even looking at her.

Aly really cursed her own stupidity. He was sorry, very sorry. She had wasted the gentle and affectionate woman even she had abandoned her own child and instead chose to be busy with the trust of her Kyai.

If anyone asks, who is wrong here ?.

Definitely not Abah Kyai or Halimah. But Aly !!. The stupid Aly, the unprincipled Aly, the less assertive Aly, Aly, Aly and Aly !!.

Aly was the one who made all this happen. Aly has destroyed everyone's trust. And now Aly is reaping what he's been planting.

He now lives a family without a family. Both of his parents also returned cold after Aly escaped from his slump. In fact, Chayra, the only child she had with had gone was taken away by the Halimah family while Aly was dying in the hospital.

Aly is now alone. He is being punished by a sense of remorse for all the actions he once did.

Aly looked again at Alsya who was getting away and there, a man came to Alsya and took his son to be carried. Aly could still hear the voice of the boy who was very excited to see the figure and called the man as Abi.

Aly's world seemed to collapse instantly. Alsya has found her successor, she has found her happiness now.

With shaky footsteps, Aly slowly approached the graves of her children and cried out there. He vented all his regrets in the earthly vortex of his two sons who had died from his carelessness.

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