Merlinda (Ranging Back)
Love Without Forgetting

Elin was still sitting quietly on her bed. His eyes looked one way, staring out the window.

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Tears fell back on his cheeks. His heart was still not fine after the meeting that had just happened in his dream realm.

He buried his head between his legs and he started crying again.

Again he remembered that the garden which was in his dream realm earlier, was a garden that became the last moment among them.

" I'm so selfish. I should have been happy that we met, but right now I want you to be real and continue with me "in the midst of her tears, "my God why this has to happen to me " his screams held back, while shaking off the tears that did not stop flowing on his cheeks.

Elin's Round Eyes had now been narrowed by the increasingly swollen petals, because the tears did not stop flowing and indeed Elin could not stop it.

Since his arrival at the Tomb of his parents, his tears seemed to be unable to stop, even until he fell asleep, the crystal circle continued to drip.

The phone on the nightstand rang, making Elin finally lift back her head, shake the tears that are still flowing, then look at the cellphone screen.

He sighed deeply before finally answering the urgent call to answer, "Hello "greet from behind the phone.

" Em. yes Daniel "repeatedly raspy and he kept trying to make his tone as normal as possible. After a day, the tears flowed. It feels like it's impossible. Even at this time he began to have a little difficulty breathing due to a stuffy nose.

" Dear." call gently from across the phone.

" Hemmm. yes ".

" You okay ? " ask Daniel carefully and the question is like a bomb to Elin's efforts who wants to look okay. It was as if the short question was like a falling glass, disturbing every ear that heard and made it hurt by the flakes.

Elin's cry broke out again there, "No Daniel, I'm not okay. I miss my parents. I want them to be here with me "the noise is in his sobs, "I miss them Daniel "he said so weakly.

The man behind the phone is silent. His heart ached when he again heard the cry of his future wife, "if my money could make that happen. I'll definitely do it. I will definitely make you meet your parents. But unfortunately I can't. Ii'm sorry. Sorry for being so useless to you "said Daniel weakly. However, his words were filled with seriousness.

Hearing that, Elin fell silent. And trying to end her crying, "I'm sorry " said Elin hoarsely.

" Don't ever say anything like that again. You've been very useful to me. Your presence means so much in my life, Daniel. I really didn't mean to make you meaningless, really.

" I know baby. But I feel so myself. Seeing you cry made me realize that everything I have does not always make everything happen. It turns out that not everything can be realized with money" said Daniel full of regret.

Elin took a breath and really ended her crying, "are you busy ? " sanyanya.

Daniel was silent for a moment, "emmm no. Do you want anything ? "

" Yes, come here, Daniel. I need your hug "weak Elin's pinta with a voice that comes back hoarse.

" Wait for me "reply Daniel quickly. Without waiting, he ended his phone call.

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This afternoon Elin chose to sit on a bench that she had avoided.

Leaned his weak body on the side of the bench, then closed his eyes and simultaneously the breeze came crashing into his face that was closed.

and why the wind that afternoon seemed to invite him to talk, "do you also not want to meet me "slowly said from the side of the left ear and then the eyes were open.

He remembered that voice very well. Although it may be just a hallucination but the whisper is so real in his ear.

The now curved lips, with the back chest tightened, "do you also want me to come to your house ? " he said staring at the empty spot next to him, where he last saw the owner of the voice.

His nose was again sore by the cry he was holding.Repeatedly he took his breath trying not to make his tears fall back, "I will definitely come " he said hoarse and simultaneously suddenly a jacket covered the front of his body.

" Why here ? " ask a man who is waiting for his arrival.

Elin smiled blandly at the man who had now taken an empty spot by his side, "You have come" he said weakly to Daniel.

Now Daniel stared softly at the pair of eyes in front of him. His heart was again pierced by Elin's helpless gaze. At the pull of the woman's body into his arms, "I'm already here. Tell me what you want to tell me "the question.

Elin was still silent in Daniel's arms, leaning her head against the man's chest, "I met Mom and Dad" she said slowly.

" They gave our marriage blessing and they said they liked you a lot "he said in a raspy tone.

Daniel said nothing. However, his hand tightened his embrace on Elin's body.

" They were so happy to know I was going to marry the right person. "he continued to be held back by a voice that started to falter, "this morning I just wanted them to come to my dream Daniel. But after meeting in a dream, I instead became selfish wanting them to be real and be with me ".

" In that dream they kept holding me and asking me to live happily. They seem to forget that they are one of my joys, so how will I continue to be happy if they are not by my side Daniel ".

" Sayang . "call Daniel softly, "I don't know how you feel. But maybe the point of your parents saying is to want you to be grateful. Everyone who leaves will be replaced, they don't want you to keep remembering them ".

" But indeed I will never be able to forget them Daniel ".

" I know baby. But maybe that means, try to accept what has happened, until whenever they will not be able to return there by your side ".

" Your sadness makes you forget that you've had a replacement for them dear. You have to remember that you also have Bimo's father and Mala's mother right now, and you know they love you so much " Daniel added, "their hearts may be even more broken than mine, when you see you keep crying over the tomb ".

" They must have been so sick and felt they meant nothing to you. Your sadness makes them desperate for not succeeding in replacing your parents' second place ".

" Dear I'm not patronizing your feelings but you should know. The most painful thing is when you're alive but you're like nothing. Maybe that's how your parents feel right now "

" You're not alone, baby. You've got people who love you as much as your parents. Try to accept their presence perfectly. Remove the barrier between you. Eliminate the thought that you are just an adopted child in this family. By accepting everything, that's when you'll be truly happy dear ".

Elin was a thousand words in Daniel's arms. The man was right, maybe all this time he was too unaccepting of the situation. The wound inside him seemed to make him forget that he had been loved so well. Adequate and loved with all the attention.

" They love you very much, baby. You grew up like this because of your mom and dad. Maybe what you're going through isn't easy but it'll be another story if they're not parents. Maybe you'll never meet Green and Amel, and neither will I. Maybe we wouldn't have met if they weren't your master. Start being grateful for what is still there. Love what is still beside you. You know very well what it feels like to lose. So don't wait for new losses you'll realize that their presence is also so important to your life ".

" Love without forgetting. Like you love me and don't forget her. Maybe that's what you should do with your parents" Daniel continued, and Elin knew who he was.

He nodded, "you're right. Maybe I was ignoring those who were still alive "he said, and at the same time the sound of whispers came back to his mind.

" Daniel." called him softly as he stared at the man's brown eyes.

" Yes, baby. What's up ? Hmmm "

" May I ask you something. This is the last time before we get married ".

" What do you want. Just say ".

Elin remained silent. His tongue choked whenever he wanted to convey what he wanted, "promise not to get angry "he asked and Daniel nodded, "as long as it is not something that makes our marriage void "reply with a little laugh.

" Can I come to eat Gerry ? " pinta Elin and say it so carefully.

Hearing that Daniel's lips curved, "of course." he said.

" With you "cut Elin, "I want you to come "with you again.

This time Daniel went silent. However, his eyes did not turn from the look of his lover's eyes, "are you sure you want to take me there ? "

" Hemm." replied Elin nodding, "I'm sure she also wants me to come with you ".

Daniel was still silent and slowly his head nodded, "well "said. Hearing that, Elin's eyes grew bigger and more emboldened the embrace in Daniel's body, "thank you dear "he said so softly.

" I also wanted to meet him, and there was something I wanted to tell him" Daniel said.

" What is that ? "

" You can't know. This chatter between men "reply Daniel laughed and re-engulfed the body of Elin into the arms.

" So from now on. Learn to accept everything that still exists hemm "he asked Elin, "You should know there are so many humans who are more unlucky than you.

Elin nodded slowly, then leaned back her head against Daniel's chest.

" Come on in "take Daniel.

" but I still want to be here, baby "

" The wind is getting stronger. You just got well. I don't want you to get back sick just because you've been here too long" Daniel said. Hearing that Elin's lips pursed, "you start back to fussing "his protest.

" Want me to carry or walk alone ? " ask Daniel seriously.

Elin sighed, then moved out of place, "the basic fuss "were so upset and at the same time Mala arrived.Make Elin a little surprised, "Mother... ".

" It turns out you're here. I'm looking for you everywhere " said Mala so worried.

" What's the matter mom?, what's going on ? " ask Elin in a panic.

Mala nodded, "nothing happened. I'm just afraid you're going "he said. His eyes looked down at Elin, making her heart full.

Near him a body that looked anxiously at him, "i'm here mom and I'm fine" he said.

Without saying goodbye Mala hugged her body, "come back to me if you leave. Even though it was so close "the door sobbed.

" I'm afraid you left me "he continued so sincerely. Hearing that without realising Elin's tears came back, "i'm not going anywhere and I'm not going to leave you" she said in earnest.

and why the feeling of great affection for the middle-aged woman arrived present. During this time it was not not a pity, but this time the feeling was present many times over.

" I love Mom "he said again.

Mala's cry broke out there. In the close embrace of Elin's body, "I'm not your real mother. But my love is so sincere to you, son, and it makes no difference to your sisters. I know your mother's place will never be replaced, I'm just asking for a little bit of my place in your heart. Just a little " said Mala in her tears.

Elin's chest was tight at the time. His feelings raged over what he had been so ignoring the middle-aged woman in his arms, "i'm sorry mom. Maybe I was so cold to you all along. But really I didn't mean and didn't need you to ask. You already have your own place in my heart and you are my mother Mother" she said, holding Mala's body warm.

" You are my son too. My eldest daughter. So never feel like you're anyone else here. This is your house and we are your parents. Never feel alone " said Mala.

Daniel who was looking from a distance was smiling. Her feeling was relieved to watch the warm embrace before her.

Slowly he walked over, "let's go in "take him along while pulling the two bodies that were still hugging.

" Daughter Daniel's here too ? " excited Mala was surprised, when she saw his presence, "yes mother since I was here, watching you guys hug warmly "reply slightly seductive reply.

" Cheh "decih Elin tickled at him.

" Let's "take her again, while pulling the two bodies inside her grasp. Elin was on the right, while Mala was on the left.

" Wouldn't father-in-law be jealous of you, if I held your hand like this "

" If he is jealous. I will strike "sahut Mala laughed. And everyone laughed.

Elin breathed in between her steps with her lips curved.

Yes Daniel is right, he will be really happy when he starts to be grateful for what is still there.