Merlinda (Ranging Back)
Complaints of a Wife

Elin's eyes did not stop looking to the left and to the right, his lips smiled no less looking back at the towering buildings in Jakarta , " though I was gone a few years but nothing too changed from this town "he murmured a little laugh.

" Something has changed" continued Amel.

" What ? "

" His president "sahut lightly, make the atmosphere in the car boisterous by laughter.

" Ah finally we can be like this again huh " said Amel while taking a breath and a wide open lip line.

" The last time we passed this place was like this it felt like it had been so long" he continued.

" Em. If it's not wrong last time we were in High School" continued Elin ,

" yeah you were right after Green got married it feels like we've almost never been in this kind of atmosphere, a three-way street like this" Amel said with a slightly fading smile.

" Don't be like that 'you made my marriage a disaster in our friendship" said Green, now speaking in a weak and emotionless tone.

" No, that's not what Green meant "

" It's just that time like quickly passes and changes, sometimes circumstances allow but the time is not right anymore, and vice versa" explained Amel.

Hearing that sentence Elin who was sitting in the back immediately approached the front seat and then looked closely at her best friend , "you really have grown up Mel" he said seriously , yet it sounded so funny by Green who immediately laughed so loudly.

" It turned out that it wasn't just me who realized it "he said, still laughing.

" Yes it turns out that since marriage many changes from Green "

" heh, I'm talking seriously why you two are laughing huh "Amel protest became upset.

" But I swear, I also miss this kind of thing so much "said Green who suddenly made the boisterous atmosphere become silent , " Amel is right sometimes the time and circumstances that are often at odds make the moment difficult to repeat "

" Well I am right" said Amel chimed in with his bragging.

" Yes, if I hadn't married first, maybe now we're still on the same campus" Green said, leaving his two friends slightly stunned.

" Hey what are you saying Greenindia, you sound like you're regretting your marriage " continued Amel in a slightly elevated tone, but then he fell silent as he watched Green sigh slowly.

" I'm not regretting my marriage Mel, but in hindsight there must have been a lot of things I could have done if I hadn't married first , at least I am still enjoying my youth and if I am not married you will definitely not be married at this time" he said again making the atmosphere suddenly quiet.

" Sometimes it's a lot of words, if only and if it's stuck in my head sometimes there's even when I'm envious of you who can still school quietly Lin "

" Green" said Elin quietly as she rubbed her best friend's back.

" I'm the same" continued Amel slowly.

" There were times I wanted to roll back everything , choose not to get married and enjoy my youth well , continued school where I wanted to and many things I might be able to do again if I didn't get married "

" We've finally been pulling out our uneg-uneg all this time huh Mel, I guess I'm the only one who's ever felt that "

" Not me either, it's just that I don't dare tell you because I'm afraid you don't feel the same way "

" You sound so depressed" said Elin staring at her two best friends.

" Not depressed, it's just that when we meet and talk we talk more often about household affairs rather than discussing what we are feeling , more often telling about food recipes , unfinished college assignments, even it felt like there was very little chance for us to sit together "

" Yes you're right Green " said Amel while nodding.

" When we live very close but feels so far away when you want to tell the story "he continued with a little sigh.

" Yes you're right, better keep it to yourself "

" I really don't know if you feel this way, I think you're so happy" said Elin, who was sad to hear the complaints of her two best friends.

" We're happy Elin "said Green weakly with a smile back.

" Yes these are just small complaints that have never been expressed during being a wife because the world is really different, when married we are selfish if more concerned with our own feelings "

" Even when complaining like this feels like ungrateful huh Mel "he continued and Amel quickly nodded "The world of a wife is completely different "he lamented with a slight back sigh.

" Ah why do we become confiding yes" said Green who ended up laughing when he realized their chatter.

" Do you know that all this time it was me who wanted to be you guys" said Elin suddenly, making Green's laughter fade instantly and Amel who turned to him immediately , " living alone in another person's place is really unpleasant" she continued with smiling lips but her eyes began to ooze a clear liquid that was still stuck in her eyes.

" Liinn." call Green softly.

" Truly, when I arrived in New York almost every night I cried and complained why I wasn't like you

" he said as he quickly shook off the tears that had fallen.

" Good God I didn't expect that it turned out we were like this" said Amel as he rubbed his watery eyes , " we just envy each other when in reality nothing is easy to be us ".

" Yes you're right Amel, we who want to be Elin it turns out Elin even wants to be us " added Green laughed, but with teary eyes.

" It turns out we are indeed people who are not grateful " continued Green made the car space again filled with laughter.

" Huh "the voice of Amel sighed so deeply.

" But I like it like this , we can finally figure out what each of us is feeling "

" Yes you're right Mel, we finally know that all this time we've been jealous of each other's lives "

" It was not easy to be me " continued Elin with a sentence so deep, but he said it with a laugh, " huh , huh , it feels so grateful that I was able to get through those days and get to this day "he said again with a shady smile back while looking back at the streets of Jakarta.

Green immediately looked at the windshield of the car to see what his best friend's facial expression was like, "you must have been so hard " he said softly and just a smile from Elin's lips for his words, "it was even very difficult for Green "to reply so softly.

" Even yesterday I was still crying when I remembered those times "he continued, which sounded more heartbreaking, "I'm sorry that we didn't continue to be next to you lin " said Amel who also felt what is now being felt by his best friend.

" foolish bastard, how can you continue with me if I am alone in New York and you in Indonesia "protest Elin who laughs again.

" It turns out he's still the same as Green "

" Yes still so stupid "

" Ceh "decih Amel, but finally laugh even though it is caused by his own stupidity.

" So don't be jealous of me anymore , my life is very sad and I'm sure you won't be strong enough to be me" said Elin who was now actually laughing.

" Ceh, you laughed when it sounded so painful to us" said Amel a little annoyed.

Elin took her breath back, "actually I would love to cry and hug you to vent all my feelings during this time "

" Stupid why don't you do it "

" No , I don't want to cry anymore and make my eyes wet, tonight's my fight night and in that moment I don't want to look ugly " he said it so innocently made Green and Amel laugh again, "you're really still the same as you used to be" Green said.

" Yes is still so idiotic and innocent" continued Amel laughing who now alternately made Elin who became upset.