Merlinda (Ranging Back)
Memories

Elin repeatedly sighed, her chest feeling claustrophobic by the thoughts raging in her mind and making her feel like she was crashing back at the bottom of the abyss after she tried hard to climb , maybe other people won't understand how it's hard to stay this long, trying to be happy and okay with broken feelings.

Again he took a deeper breath while continuing to stare at the bias of the garden lights in the middle of the lush foliage that is still touched by rain water, the cold air of the night did not make him move from the open room window , " are you happy now, Gerry ? " he asked as he looked up at the night sky, and his eyes focused on one very bright star and then reminded him again of the night before his heart was so broken, "was that you ? " he muttered again with trembling lips.

" I really haven't forgotten you Gerry "he said in a voice choked by tears that couldn't be held back from coming out, "maybe never even " he continued and now the tears have flowed more and more , he repeatedly wiped the crystal from his face but because of the feeling so tight by the tear wound it seemed to be unable to stop even now the cry sounded more and more bitter , " people don't understand how I've survived all this time Gerry, people don't know how broken I was after you left me for good , it's not easy really not to be me all this time Gerry's "shutter so ruined , maybe his cries look excessive for some people but only he knows how hurt when the bitter memories are back in the open , maybe others think it's just an ordinary sentence to talk about but for him who is experiencing and being in his current position is not an easy thing , making himself happy again after everything is destroyed without remaining is really not easy and coming back again because everyone does not understand how to be him all along.

" I'm sorry to bother you again tonight ' I hope you're really happy Gerry" he said, looking back at a star that was still shining brightly at him , even today his light seemed brighter than before he cried.

" Ah forgive me for being so crybaby" he continued, wiping away the occasional tear still dripping, "you must have been so happy with the daughters of heaven "

This time his lips smiled with his eyes still remaining tears, "I'm sure you must also be happy to see my current state , he's a handsome man isn't he ? , and you also "said as if this time the man in his past was talking to him.

" He's just as good as you are, which makes him different he's just a little cold but it's okay I've found a humorous guy when I'm with you" she laughs , " we must be equally happy Gerry, even in different places "he continued and again felt his heart was tight especially for the last sentence he just said.

His eyes re-glazed with a sudden sense of longing, and slowly he closed with the sighs that sounded heavier,

the gentle breeze of the night that hit his face gently seemed to signal that there was nothing wrong in enjoying the longing for someone who had once filled so deep in his heart , and there is nothing wrong with remembering someone who once created happy days, even if it was only a longing and longing cannot be blamed ,because the place is always something that we will miss someday certainly like him today.

Memories and all the laughter of the man reappeared in his mind ,

test "the crystal circle back dripping, longing and all the memories really make his feelings back crowded, "maybe you do exist to be a memory Gerry " he said without opening his eyes, but slowly the memories in his mind slowly dimmed and replaced by a man who approached him with a smile, a sweet smile that always made him fall in love every time he saw it , " Daniel "murmured with a smile when he realized that the shadow of the man was present in his mind.

He screeched with a smile that did not fade, then slowly his eyes opened and he was surprised to see the smile that was in his mind now looks so real ', "i love you miss Merlinda " sweet words from a man with a red rose in his hand.

Elin's eyes were still not blinking, she still found it so difficult to discern which thoughts and where a reality was, yet surely the smile was equally so beautiful ,

" Cup "

Without permission Daniel kissed her lover's lips, "don't look at me like that" he said, which this time managed to make the woman realize , " I guess you're just a shadow that comes to my mind Daniel "he said so innocently, but managed to make Daniel smile all the while.

" It's good that I'm also on your mind "he said, and for a moment he was struck by a hug that suddenly grabbed him so strongly, "promise to continue to love me Daniel " elin said, which sounded like a deep plea.

" Everything I've been through has been so hard and with you it's all so easy, I've had so much hope in you, Daniel and I don't want to be disappointed anymore " continued in a voice that began to sound stout, Daniel was still speechless with a moving body to tighten his grip and repeatedly peeling in the tip of his lover's head, "you don't have to worry , I promised my life to you "he said earnestly and there was no doubt in it.

" I love you Daniel "he said so deeply.

" I did too and I beg you never to doubt "

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Everyone was still silent and waiting patiently at the dinner table to wait for the two people who were not yet present among them, "what do I say we really offend Green ? " ask Amel who did look riled up in his place, and repeatedly he looked towards the large hallway as a divider of the dining room of the luxury house.

" We talk to him again later "reply Green who is no less anxious.

" What happened ? " ask Nathan who is very curious what caused Elin to be so cold and choose not to join them, "we unknowingly bring up Gerry's sister to him " green was clearly regretful.

Nathan and Alfin's eyes enlarge instantly, and luckily there are only four of them because Viona chooses to sleep early with Naina.

" Why are you doing that ? " nathan snapped involuntarily with his eyes closed for a moment, "where your mind when bringing up the thing you know is very painful for him" he continued without lowering his tone , Green and Amel were completely speechless even at this moment Green's sharp tongue seemed to be malfunctioning as he realized there was no defense to his mistake.

" It's not easy being her dear and you know that" Alfin told Amel in a different tone from Nathan.

" We did not do it intentionally "

" From now on never do that again, you never know what the pain will be like when the wound is trying to heal, then accidentally re-open " nathan said back that made Green and Amel really speechless.

" Don't take the feelings of others lightly, even for a joke "he added so seriously and now Green has lowered his head , he really did not think that such a trivial word had succeeded in making his friend hurt and now he really regretted it.

" If he's not the one who starts talking, then you shouldn't bring it up" Nathan said in a slightly more relaxed tone.

" Don't repeat it again "he added gently as he gently rubbed the tip of his wife's head ,

Green again straightened her head and looked at her husband "I was really unintentionally "he said regretfully.

" I know, you couldn't have deliberately hurt your own best friend "reply Nathan and try to calm his wife who looks so sorry and feels guilty , so did Alfin to Amel who had wept in his arms.