
"I'm blush..." That sentence was first heard from Bella's lips that had been hesitating to smile. His eyes stared at the glittering glow of the flickering, snow-shaped flickering lights encircling the branches of the spruce trees out there.
The bias of the yellowish light, made Rangga able to see the face of Bella who was trying to calm down after saying that sentence.
Rangga turned to Bella and was stunned when he saw Bella's clear eyes were now reddened and teary. Are you sure Bella said her words just now?
Rangga took a step closer but Bella had already taken a step back to keep her distance. Then the man smiled a little at Bella who he thought was joking with him. Not funny, is it?
The atmosphere of this afternoon cafe is very quiet from visitors. Only the sound of instrumental music is heard from the music player that is played repeatedly from earlier. But somehow the aura of this room suddenly turned hot after Rangga heard that sentence from Bella's mouth. His feelings are not out of whack.
He thought after 11 days of not meeting, Rangga would get a smile from Bella who he missed so much. He had imagined that Bella would run cheerfully towards him and hold him tightly. But in fact until now they just mute each other without knowing where to continue this conversation from.
"Are you sure?" That question was finally raised by Rangga.
There was no answer, Bella just turned her face away while pulling a scarf around her neck to cover her braided hair. He tried to hide his gloomy face without looking at Rangga.
On the other side of Bella, Inka saw the innocent face of Bella who looked sad while holding back her crying. He bit his finger with anxiety as the feeling that Bella showed through her expression felt right up to his death. The girl was riled up but tried hard. It was truly a reflection of Bella that he had always seen.
Seeing Bella's response, Rangga's body suddenly limp. The girl seemed confident in her speech earlier. He sat on one of the benches with both hands supporting his body so as not to collapse. Bella's words were too sudden and seemed serious.
While glancing at Bella, Rangga saw Bella wiping her own tears. She was really crying and Rangga's heart felt sliced.
Rangga's hand outstretched about to touch Bella's shoulder but immediately Rangga saw a circular ring on his ring finger. While in Bella's hands, the girl still wears the bracelet she gave as a sign of her love.
Rangga clenched his hands furiously, this is a difficult choice. He was already married to another woman while the woman in front of him was the woman he had been fighting for all this time. The woman who turned her lonely life into color.
Instantly greed fills the recesses of Rangga's heart and mind. How could he just lose this woman?
“You went for 11 days and came to say silly things in front of me. You think this is funny?” Ask Rangga who moved from his place and approached Bella.
“Where have you been all this time Nara? What stupid thing has taken hold of your mind until you think we should split up?” Rangga continued, leaning against the wall and looking at Bella in disbelief.
Bella seemed to sigh deeply with her face that changed gently.
“Aaaa... Incaa... I want nangiiisss.” Rengek Rini while reaching for the hand of the Inca sitting next to him and then he squeezed. Bella's expression completely cut her heart.
The Inca did not lick, tears had already washed his face. Seeing Bella so deep into her role, she could imagine what Bella's expression was like when she found Rangga was with Amara. It must be more than this, right?
“Let's end it all.” Again Bella asserted her sentence on the sidelines of her efforts to hold back tears.
“What?” Not staying silent, Rangga immediately rose from his place and approached Bella. He pulled Bella's hand violently making the girl turn to look at him
“What did you say? End?” Rangga quoted a part of Bella's sentence that felt ringing in her hearing.
“Ya.” Lirih Bella without daring to look at Rangga. He just bowed.
“HEY!! LOOK ME IN THE EYES WHILE YOU'RE TALKING TO ME!” Rangga's cry gripped Bella's jaw, lifting her up to look into her round eyes full of anger.
Bella's jokes aren't funny anymore.
Bella did not refuse, she let Rangga behave as he pleased. Forcing them to look at each other, why not? The decision was very unanimous. Even so, a tear still dripped from the corner of his eye.
“GILAAA!!! Is this really Bella?!!” Several crews approached, surrounding the filming area. They were so interested in seeing Bella's acting that it turned out to be far beyond their expectations. Very capable.
“You think you can just leave?” Rangga looked at Bella with a smile.
“Let go of me.” Bella tries to release Rangga's hand that grips her chin.
Rangga did not then obey, he still wanted to look at a pair of round eyes that began to interfere with his mind. He saw a lot of confusion in it.
“You think I'll let you go?” Rangga's voice sounded trembling. Apparently Bella's fishing has really worked, Rangga carried away the atmosphere.
Bella clasped Rangga's hand back and shook it violently.
“I don't need your approval of my own choice.” Bella with complete confidence. Only a moment did he stare at Rangga before then he walked backwards away from Rangga.
“You can't go anywhere. I forbid it!” He came back to Bella and stood in front of Bella with a short distance. Bella could see Rangga's roaring breath holding back the anger.
“You can't take a step away from me. I won't let it."
"You think it's that easy to get you? No! Hard Minara!!! And it's harder if I have to let you go.”
Struggled with her stifled crying voice. It was like something was blocking his throat and making his breath seem choked.
“Please, don't be like this Michael.” Timpal Bella.
“You should know that this is also difficult for me. But,” Bella grabbed Rangga's hand where the wedding ring was embedded in the ring finger of her right hand.
“I can't hurt another woman. I can't be that bad, take a husband from his wife. I can't. You understand right?” Bella's voice stammered. Her tears came back with her lips shaking, it was hard not to cry.
Rangga does not necessarily chimed in. He held back the anger in his heart. He understood that this was also difficult for Bella. Slowly he touched the left side of Bella's face with his hand embedded in the wedding ring.
“You didn't snatch anyone from anyone. From the beginning, all I loved was you Nara. I never thought of that woman as my wife. I hateit. I hate him so much and more than, I hate myself for being so stupid to have let him be among us.” Rangga was crying in front of Bella. He placed his forehead over Bella's forehead making their distance very close.
Bella closed her eyes while biting her lips. He felt the same sadness as Rangga. He stared at Rangga's face with his red and watery eyes.
“Michael, you're the best man I've ever known. Please don't ruin my impression for you. There is never a way out for our relationship, then we should end this.” Lirih Bella quietly and tried to calm down.
Rangga just shook his head. His eyes that were originally closed now looked at Bella with a frown.
“You know that I love you so much?” Smirkingly. His face was white to red as it held back anger and sadness at the same time.
“Sure,” Bella nudged slowly.
"Why did you choose to go? Can't you hold on for a second? I'll settle my affairs with that woman and we can get back together, I beg you." Persuade Rangga.
Bella can only sniffle without a sound. For a moment they fell silent, staring fixedly at the two eyes that were right in front of each other. Together is the desire of both but circumstances are not possible.
Everything's quiet. There was no sound including the cries of the spectators they were trying to endure. Rangga brought her face closer to Bella making the nose of the two meet. In one more movement Rangga was about to kiss Bella's lips but quickly Bella turned her face. His view now turned to Devan who was silent in his place and was looking at what Bella was playing before him.
Looking at Devan's gaze, there was somehow a sense of urgency in his chest. The shadows in his head were like coming back. The shadow as he slumped, the shadow as he felt alone and the shadow as Devan always sat beside him. What he had in mind was no longer a shadow of his friendship with Rangga first. Bella felt that every moment with Devan that suddenly flashed through her mind felt much more contained in her mind.
Bella put her hand on Rangga's chest and slowly she pushed Rangga's body away.
“Please don't make me look like a cheap woman, Michael.” He looked away without taking his eyes off Devan.
It felt like he wanted to run at Devan and say that he had just gone through a big leap in his life. A leap of consciousness that made him feel like he could sigh again more freely. But not for now. He has to finish what he started with Rangga.
He took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. In his eyes came back Rangga who looked at him with sadness.
“Thank you for giving me the opportunity to feel beautiful and fight for. But please, just get here.” Bella touched Rangga's chest slowly and rubbed it gently.
He smiled crazily at Rangga who now raised his head while pressing the corner of his eyes so as not to cry. Nothing more Rangga said.
Slowly Bella turned around leaving Rangga. He stepped in a new direction without Rangga.
“Ra, Nara!!” Call Rangga.
But Bella continued to continue her steps, the longer the longer and away from Rangga. He did not want to turn around and his heart melted again. Enough to get here.
“NARAAA!!!!! AAAARRRGHHHH!!!” Shouted Rangga. He fell in his place. His strength was exhausted because of his broken heart. He clutched his left chest which was painful and tight. But it's all over.
Bella remained with her choice to leave.
“CUT!!” Indra Seru.
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