
I was still quietly down, unable to speak anything. There is guilt, now I realize that love can not be forced.so also my feelings on bang Yandra.
I can't force a will. I should have tried to open my heart to Dr. Yoga, but coming back, I can't have a relationship without love.
I don't know.let's just let the time will answer, which is clear now I don't want to give any hope to this nice guy.I don't want to make him expect more of me.
After expressing the feeling he returned to run his car to drive me home, along the way we just kept quiet, now it was not like usual awkwardness between us increasingly felt . I don't know how she feels at the moment.
I'm sorry, Doctor, I can't promise you anything about how I feel.
***
"Thank you, ok. Does the doctor want to stop by first?" I said offer him to stop by
"Other times, Father, I have business" he refused
"Yes, Dok. How's Rara doing?" I suddenly remembered the jolly little girl.
"Thank God he's fine.Then I go first, yes.say my regards to mother," he said avoiding long conversations with me.
The face of disappointment is still clearly visible.I know it is not easy to respond to the state of the heart that is chaotic.There is nothing I can do. I can only mutter in the heart with one word that is Sorry.
After I got down. a little smile he engraved to cover up the disappointment and immediately went to bring everything to heart.
Why can I say that? as if I knew how she felt. Yes, of course I know, because I was in that position first.When the man I love openly rejected me in front of everyone. even though she doesn't know my true feelings love her very much.
O Allah. forgive me for hurting Dr. Yoga's feelings. I really can't repay his feelings if there is no love in my heart. I now greed all my life's destiny to you Rabb. you are the One who turns over the heart of Your servant.
I took a deep breath to remove the guilt that was piled up in the qalbu, I swung a sure step to enter the house. Shall I tell all the turmoil of my heart to mother?
"Assynoltom..."
"Wa'alaikum... Fa, you're home, son? how's tumben. your son?" ask mom
"Yes, Bu. earlier I've been knocking ASI for Yanju. I miss the mother and also the sisters. You father did not go to work today?" I asked when I saw Dad sitting in the living room seat.
"Your father's permission today is not to work because he is not feeling well" explained Mother
I approached the father who was sitting limp. "how are you doing? did you take medication? we go to the nearest clinic, okay?" I asked while sitting next to him and felt my body temperature was quite high.
"There's no need, Son. I've been taking medication, I just need to rest," said the father refused my invitation.
"Well, now I'm resting. If the afternoon condition of the father has not improved, then there is no reason for the father to refuse to go to the hospital," I immediately put the father into the room to rest.
***
This afternoon I was preparing to return to the Malik family residence, but before returning I confirmed the condition of the father first. Actually it is not calm to leave the father in pain, but before returning I was sure, but I also have a responsibility to my little son.
When I went to my mother to ask about my father's condition, she said that my body temperature was getting higher.
"Now we take dad to the nearest hospital, yes, Mom." I said feeling anxious about the situation of the father.
"Your mother changed your father's clothes first." Mom followed my desire to take him to the hospital.
I immediately went out, sat on the terrace while opening the online taxi application ordering him to take my father to the hospital, but bang Yandra had come to pick me up.
"Are you ready?" tanyanya walked over to me.
"It's been, but I want to take my dad to the hospital for a while, Bang. later I go home to take a taxi" I explained
"Daddy sick? is it bad?" tanyanya looks a little surprised.
"The temperature is still hot, maybe the father's soy sauce" I replied
"Let's get me to the hospital now,"
"But I've booked a cab online, Bang,"
***
Now I've been at Prof Malik.bang Hospital Yandra brought my father here, and he requested that my father be hospitalized and do the MCU (Medical check up) to find out about the father's illness, and avoid disease complications.
After the examination was completed. now the father was taken to the inpatient room.bang Yandra put the father in the VIP room.he was so good with my family.
"Well, I'll go home later tonight I'm here again, I don't feel good leaving Yanju for too long" I told my father who started to improve and his body temperature had started to normal. maybe because he gets intensive handling.yes, all of that can not be separated from the orders of the Yandra bang on the side of the Dr who handles the father.
"Go away, Son. Dad is fine. You don't have to worry, you're fine,"
"Mom, I go home first huh. Mom's okay I live alone, right?" ask my mother
"It's okay, Father. soon Joseph and Najuwa come to accompany, Mother."
"Mom, Dad. I went home with Fatimah first yes. if you later need something. Just call me," bang yandra said to mom and dad politely.
But I wonder, since when he changed the call that usually Pak Eko, now turned into "Dad" ah I don't know.maybe he just want to be more familiar with father and mother. what does it mean to call
Me and bang Yandra down the hallway of the hospital to go to the lobby, but we passed with the general practitioner who had been taking care of dad.so bang yandra told me to wait in the lobby. he still has business with the doctor.
I sat in an empty chair in the RS lobby, waiting for the Yandra bang, I played my smartphone to get rid of saturation. Because waiting was a very boring thing even if only for a moment.
"Fatima..."
The voice distracted me from the flat screen in my hand, I raised my face to see who was standing in front of me.
"Ah, Dr Yoga. why are you still in the hospital?" reply me with a big smile.
"Yes, there's a patient I have to deal with. What are you doing here? who else is waiting for?" tannya
"I, again bring my father to treatment and now I'm being treated at this hospital" I explained honestly
"really? what's the sick dad, Fa?"
"So from the results of the examination, the father was only soybean.so the immune system of the father decreased so that the father had a high fever,"
"So now what about dad?"
"Thank God it's getting better, but just waiting for recovery,"
"Thank God. I hope you get well soon.I'll look at you later.Where are you in the room, Fa?" tannya
"Let's go home now!"
Suddenly the voice cut off my conversation with Dr. Yoga. I did not tell my father's hospital room.
"Dok, I go home first, yes," I said to Dr. Yoga.
"Yes, be careful. But you haven't answered my question, Father, which room is your father in?" dr. Yoga is still asking that question, maybe he wants to see Dad.
"Sorry Dr. Yoga.we go home first!" ketus
"Doctor Yandra. I'm not talking to you. So let Fatimah answer my question. Why do you show dislike to me? are you also the one who made the distance between me and Fatimah?!"
I did not expect Dr Yoga to talk like that. I just kept silent while staring at the facial expression of bang Yandra when responding to Dr. Yoga's remarks.
"If that's true, why?" reply bang Yandra with flat
"Are you jealous of my closeness and Fatimah's?"
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