Sharing Love: She's My Husband
Chapter 3 I'm her real mother

Two days passed and Fathi was declared allowed to go home by the doctor, Fathi returned to the Hasbi house which had been the most comfortable place for him, where they took shelter and shared love and happy stories.

But it seems like this time is different, a place that used to be comfortable now makes it crowded, they used to always share their daily stories with happiness now maybe just a sad story that Fathi felt. Just imagining it left his world shattered in an instant.

In the household is not always happy there is a test that makes their love deeper. Is this a test in the home? could this test make their love deeper?, it didn't seem that what he was feeling now was actually a deep pain and wanted to leave everything behind.

But his love is too deep for Hasbi and her son, he will try to accept Hasbi's second marriage, because this is not his fault, this is his destiny and maybe this is his destiny to be polygamous?.

Fathi had met Mala while in the hospital when Mala drove Kayla, it turns out Kayla was very close to Mala probably because Mala who took care of Kayla since Kayla was 3 months old, the inner bond between them has been formed, the nature of the baby is close to the person he often sees and with him. Therefore Hasbi brought Kayla to the hospital to invite Mala so that Kayla is not fussy because it is far from Mala.

Actually Fathi's heart was a little jealous knowing Kayla was closer to Mala but Fathi understood all this time Malalah took care of Kayla.

The first impression that Fathi can see on Mala is gentle, motherly, loving, kind and beautiful. Hasbi hit the jackpot according to Fathi. Even though Mala has its shortcomings, it cannot have offspring.

Fathi is currently in his room with Hasbi, this is his first day at home. Hasbi told him to rest first and not get too tired. Hasbi indulged Fathi as usual.

“ mas, after you married Mala did you sleep in the room with her ?”

“ yes.. sometimes, if Kayla cries and fusses I will sleep in Mala's room, we will take turns holding Kayla.” Hasbi's words incised a new wound in Fathi's heart because it was his dream all along but Hasbi did it with another woman. Fathi's tears trickled but was immediately wiped with his finger to keep Hasbi from knowing.

“ Did mas already do the first night with Mala ?” What Fathi was doing was cursing to himself why he asked what would hurt him but curiosity had already dispelled his wits.

“Not yet, although mas bed room but we did nothing, just take care of Kayla so she can sleep comfortably that's it ,”

“What did you say mas?” inner Fathi, he does not believe or indeed he does not want to believe it is impossible for him a man who sleeps with a beautiful woman is not tempted let alone this woman is halal .

This is the disease caused by polygamy to cause liver disease, from being jealous, feeling inferior, not believing, envy, then becoming hate. It is better for women who are unable to never polygamy not only the ability of the man in question but whether his wife is able to be in the duakan . Therefore, can not marry again without the permission of the first wife, this is where the fault of Hasbi who remarried without the knowledge and permission of his first wife.

“oh so.. why ?” oh Fathi why do you keep asking her heart outcry.

“ Because if I do I feel betrayed and hurt your heart ”, I married Mala not out of love but forced in return Mala who has helped me.

Hasbi looked into Fathi's eyes which usually shone cheerfully now look sad .

“ You don't have to worry I only love you ,” Hasbi continued later. Hasbi brings her face closer to Fathi's, Fathi enjoys what Hasbi does . The longer it does not feel Fathiyah has been lying in bed with Hasbi the more intense doing it.

Geck...Geck...

The sound of door knocking disrupts the activities of husband and wife who are taking off longing.

“ Who ?” asked Hasbi she was upset her activities were disrupted.

“ sorry mas I'm Mala ,” The first day of her at home has got interference the inner honey Fathi.

“ A minute !” Shouted Hasbi

“ Dear sorry yes, I saw first she need what ?” Hasbi's permission to Fathi even though she feels bad.

Chequek...

“ What's wrong?” Ask Hasbi with a flat face .

“ Sorry mas but Kayla crying want same papahnya ,”

“ I'm afraid to disturb brother Fathi so not taken, just to room ,”

“ You knock on the door already bother what the difference is, do you want to monopolize Kayla for yourself, she is also my son there is no way I feel disturbed with my own son, bring him here !” Fathi came to Hasbi at the door.

“ yes brother ,” Mala went to his room and carried the sleeping Kayla.

“ This mas Kaylanya Alhamdulillah already sleeping, tuh her tears.” Mala gave Kayla to Hasbi.

“ Thank you Mal, you just rest while Kayla is with us ,” Fathi closes the door.

Mala was pensive at door , what to do when Kayla and Hasbi were not by her side , she felt lonely . This is what it feels like to share a husband, protests can not be because he is the third person in the Hasbi household.

What if Hasbi divorces her then she will live alone so that Brother Fathi will accept her and not try to keep Kayla and Hasbi away from her.

Hasbi laid Kayla on the bed, Fathi smiled looking at Kayla's peaceful and adorable face as she fell asleep .

“ Thank God yes mas , our son is so beautiful and adorable as a dream mas finally I can have a child.”

“ Yes .. Dear she is very similar to you, beautiful and adorable ” Hasbi pecked Fathi cheeks.

“ Ah.. You can only mas ,” Fathi give kiss on the whole face Kayla .

Fathi lay on the bed with Kayla in the middle and Hasbi on Kayla's side, they slept sideways facing Kayla . An hour goes by and Kayla cries Hasbi holds her but Kayla always calls bubu, bubu is Kayla's call to Mala.

Fathi tries to carry Kayla but Kayla gets sober and cries, Hasbi takes her to Mala's room. Hasbi did not return to Fathi's room.

Fathi tried to get rid of his negative thoughts about what Hasbi and Mala were doing. He suggested that they were halal partners and that it was natural to do so, sometimes he dismissed it with the thought of Hasbi loving him and could not have betrayed him by having a husband and wife relationship .

As Hasbi said, she just put Kayla to bed, but why should I stay overnight in Mala's room.

“ I miss you mas, I want to sleep with you after 6 months I was in a coma, when I realized even now I can not be with you and our child . It's like a nightmare for me. .” Fathi muttered as she shed tears. Didn't feel like his eyes were closed for long.

Fathi opened her eyes after she heard a voice in the mosque, she wore decorative lights on her bedside table. Then he saw a small clock by the bed.

At 3 am, apparently it was an invitation to pray tahajud. Hasbi's house is not far from the mosque.

Fathi wakes up sitting for a while . Then he went to the bathroom to brush his teeth, wash his face, then remove the contents of his bladder and berwudhu to pray tahajud.

Fathi pleaded with Allah that he should always be given patience and strength to face all his trials and Fathi begged to always be given peace in his heart.

And hopefully she can be close to Kayla, as her birth mother she wants to take care of Kayla pouring out her affection, singing nina bobo for her, caressing her.

Ever since she realized Kayla was as if she was unattainable, always with Mala, if Kayla cries with him it's natural that Kayla only knows him but they should try to get Fathi closer to Kayla and give Kayla time to know him , instead of being kept away like this it was as if it would make Kayla cry and suffer.

"I miss her, I am the one who conceived her, I who fought her life and gave birth to her, O Allah close me to my son, I would have liked him to take Hasbi but close me to my son let me be with my son God.I beg you..... " Fathi prayed to Allah with tears.

" I believe there is wisdom behind all this, the destiny You give is the best for me to guide me and give me the strength to live it, I give my life to You O God ... grant my prayer amiiiin "Fathi closes his prayer by reading al-fatihah.

Then he taught while waiting for dawn.

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