Sharing Love: Red Stain of Marriage
Chapters 17. Sorry ... I'm Giving Up

Three months Later

Zahra's pregnancy has entered its third month. Ever since Zahra was pregnant, Albirru seemed to be getting further and further away from Zeya.

The weather tonight was very bad, the rain fell accompanied by earthy lightning in the sky.

Sometimes Albirru only once a week stays at Zeya's house. Like today, only one day at home, the night he returned again to the house of Zahra.

"Where are you going?" she said she saw Albirru changing her nightgown.

"Mas is going to Zahra's house."

"Just one night here, why now back to Zahra's house," said Zeya began to be unhappy.

"Zeya, I have to go there. Zahra must be afraid of this thunderstorm."

"But mas, it's dangerous to go in this weather."

"I'll be careful."

"Zahra was no longer a child, and she was accompanied by an aunt. Danger if you have to travel this weather."

"You don't be afraid, you'll be safe. Sorry, I have to go. Zahra has been a little spoiled since her pregnancy. Please understand from you."

"Why am I always the one who asks for understanding."

"What do you mean, Zeya."

"I don't understand what I've been doing all this time. Since Zahra's presence in our household, I've been second. Plus Zahra's pregnancy, I'm getting sidelined. Do you think only pregnant women need attention. Why don't you ever try to understand me, just always ask for my understanding."

"Zeya .. You have now started to sue. You already feel how painful it is to lose a baby. You should have understood."

"I could never understand you. After me, if you dare to polygamy should be ready to divide the time fairly. All this time I have been doing justice. I was always in the duakan number and forgotten. I have to give up forever, sorry I'm tired. I give up, mas. I better go. I can't share anymore."

"Zeya, what are you talking about. You're jealous because you're with Zahra more often. If you are pregnant, you will also have more time with you. Did you forget, the first time we got married you were also a top priority for us. To go home old people just think, because they don't want to leave you alone. And right now if you put Zahra first it's because she's pregnant."

"Go mas. There's no point in arguing. I'll never understand." Zeya walked out of her room and into the guest room.

His cry broke, he could no longer hold it. Since yesterday he has been feeling very unwell. He hoped Albirru would accompany him. But the only thing on her husband's mind was Zahra.

"Zeya, open the door. We're not done talking." Albirru knocked on the door hard.

"Zeyya don't be such a child. Open the door."

Zeya wiped her tears and opened the room door.

"Zeya, if you don't allow the mas to Zahra's house, then I'll do it. But don't sulk."

"I'm fine. Go ... I will learn more about your attitude. It may all be my fault" said Zeya, looking down.

"Never say you want to go and separate. I don't like it."

"I'm sleepy, if the mas will go .. hurry."

"You're expelling, mas."

"I would never dare to throw the mas out. I just want to rest."

"Morning - morning will be back. It's also because it's raining, I don't want Zahra to be scared. Tomorrow we'll talk again. Don't ever think that you love Zahra more or pay more attention to her." Albirru kissed Zeya's daho before leaving home.

Zeya who was not feeling well immediately lay down when Albirru left.

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In the morning Zeya felt his whole body ache and he also felt nauseous. Zeya went into the bathroom and vomited up her stomach.

Zeya remembered that this month he had not yet menstruated.he took a calendar and looked at it. It will usually mark the beginning and end of menstruation. This month there is no date that he has marked.

Am I pregnant. I should have come a month ago. I'd better buy a test and test it , I don't want it later after I tell Mas Al I'm not pregnant.

Zeya washed her face and changed her clothes. He'll buy a test to the pharmacy.

As Zeya waited for a taxi on the side of the road near her home, a car stopped right in front of her.

Zeya looked at the man's face. He remembered the man who had come to his house.

"You're the man who was looking for me at the time."

"Sorry, if it bothers you."

"Where do you know my name. Have we ever met."

"Yes, and maybe I've forgotten."

"If we have ever met, what do you need to look for me."

"Nothing, I just want to know how you are."

"You've seen me, haven't you. I'm doing fine. I'm sorry, I'm going to the pharmacy."

"Let me take you."

"Thank you, I'd better take a taxi. I don't want people who see us both walk away misunderstood."

Zeya stopped the passing taxi. He asked to be sent to the pharmacy.

.................

Zeya has tested with a test and the results are positive she is pregnant. He wanted to surprise Albirru.

Zeya awaits the return of Albirru. He promised to come home in the morning. In the afternoon, Zeya waited for Albirru to return home.

"Mas wants to eat .... "

"I take a shower first" said Albirru and entered the bathroom to clean herself.

After getting dressed he headed to the dining table. With a carefree heart, Zeya prepared a dinner for Albirru.

Zeya intends to surprise her pregnancy.

"Eat the mas .... "

"You are not angry anymore" said Albirru.

"Sorry mas. Yesterday I was carried away by emotions."

"Other times if you want to say something you have to think about it."

"Yes, mas. I have good news .... " Zeya's words came to a halt as her husband's phone rang.

Albirru took the phone out of her pants pocket and saw Zahra's name on it. Albirru stood up and raised her phone.

After that Albirru seemed to rush to retrieve the car keys.

"Sorry Zeya, I have to go to Zahra's house. He fell in the bathroom." Albirru immediately walked over without caring for Zeya.

Zeya held onto her chest which felt tight. He slammed the door and went into his room.

A pair of eyes across from his house noticed everything that was happening. Azril's men saw Zeya slamming the door after Albirru's departure.

In her room, Zeya picked up a suitcase and put her clothes on. He decided to go and give up. He sincerely released Albirru only for Zahra.

Albirru, thank you for teaching me the meaning of fighting, and then letting go

There is a time for hope, a time for hope to stop. There is a time to fight, there is a time to fight. Already, no need to force. I give up and leave.

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Seriate

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Fighting alone was indeed exhausting, and in the end Zeya gave up. Looking forward to the continuation of this novel, tomorrow.

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