Datuk White Crocodile.
61. My Love and my Love.

Philip also shed more and more blood on his face, "It hurts my feeling to leave you Ria" he said in his heart.

"Philip I'm sorry, I couldn't be honest all this time with my feelings, sorry this might be too late". Ria was crying loudly, her hands were covered in Philip's blood but she really did not care and was not disgusted at all.

"Ria, I'm happy to hear that my love is reciprocated, I will leave peacefully. Keep yourself here, don't cry for too long, don't remember our memories too long. as I disappear, I want you to also disappear from our love". Philip now holds the face that he has been waiting for for a hundred years, that face in the rest of his life in this world had filled his days.

"Once again, I'll bring all this love dear.but this time I'll really go, no more promises I'll make. Just the prayers I leave for you, I say, be strong without me. Take care of your health, and let your heart be filled with other love".The first time Philip called Ria with affection, dear, the name he wanted to say to his love.

"No Philip, can you take a little longer with kuuuu, soon". Ria was sobbing in front of Philip, she took hold of Philip's hand which was holding both cheeks.

Philip clung his head to Ria's head "My dear and my Love, be happy in your present life, swear to God. There is no regret in my life if I go now Ria, I will be happy in your present life, I beg you not to hold me back, I do not want to be selfish and end up waiting for you for hundreds of years alone until your rebirth if I continue to be with you, now that his face had turned into the usual Philip Ria saw, his blood tears had already changed to ordinary tears where only clear liquid was coming out.

"Ria, let Philip go towards the light, all his promises in the world are fulfilled.Let him bring all the wonderful memories at the end of his story here, the story that He also received love from you".Rinjani shared behind Ria and stroked her shoulders.

Philip gave his first and last kiss on his love before he left, "Given me dear, our beautiful story is enough to remember once in a while. Don't always be remembered to make your heart ache, forgive me for not knowing this self once loved you as great and as big as this.

"You know dear the throne of supreme love is to let our love go if it is for his good, My love is such love, my love is, I leave you here so you can find the happiness of your own love". Philip cried to give his last love word, but his heart was happy to see Ria who also loved him so fiercely.

"Ria, the light has been seen to release Philip"., Rinjani said trying to release the hand of Ria who was still clutching Philip's hand with all her might, Rinjani understood Ria was really scared Philip away from his world.

"Darling, please let me go to the peaceful realm. Although for only a moment I was happy to feel the love you gave me, I was happy". Philip began to rise to go to the light.

"Philip no, I beg you not, I beg you soon".Ria shook her head as she continued to hold Philip's hand that was almost released because Philip started to retreat, saying, while he is no longer able to rise and pursue his love so as not to go.

"Ria, let Philip go. This is already his destiny, and your destiny is not to be with him".Rinjani now embraces his sister's increasingly thrashing body wanting to hold Philip with the rest of his energy, and is not his best friend, his voice was almost gone as he just kept shouting to hold Philip.

Until finally holding Ria and Philip's hands apart, Philip turned around after a while giving a final smile to the lover who was crying over his departure.

She stepped into the light with a restrained cry, a happy cry she was finally able to leave quietly even though her heart ached leaving the Love created not for her.

"Cry my sister, because after this you will slowly forget her". Rinjani said in her heart, because before Philip left she had the message to erase her memory in Ria's life.

Philip did not want Ria too long to be sad, he wanted in the present life Ria really happy. could be school, could be friends, no longer be a slave, Ria did not want to be, and the important thing is to be free to love anyone without anything getting in the way of love like it was and is now.

His first love is hindered by caste, and his second love with the same face is hindered by the world.

"I hope if reincarnation really exists like you found Ria, I want you to live happily with your love later Philip. Love without any more obstacles.

"Ria let's go home".Take Rinjani to her sister who is still crying but with a blank look, regret always comes last thought Ria.

"Sister, I should have said from the beginning that I love her, I should never have shied away from her, should I..!?". Ria was crying and unable to continue her words, and Rinjani just silently let her sister let out her heart.

"It's over regretting everything my sister, you know what it's like to lose someone you didn't want to initially assume her presence.But love isn't just about happiness and regret, it's not just about happiness and regret, in love there are also lessons, my dear. Never waste someone loving you". Rinjani gives a wobble while stroking her sister's head and then helps Ria wake up to get back into her Raga.

Ria turned her head for a moment, "I'm sorry Philip, I'm sorry that I didn't quickly return your love, I'm sorry that I was too selfish to manage your feelings and I hope you calm down there. If you can, please, I will pray that you meet him there, someone who is truly capable of loving you more than me. Someone who will sacrifice his life for your sake first". Ria finally returned to her body and fell asleep until morning, until I saw the dawn Adhan build her right.

Ria opened her eyes and this morning she woke up with her heart hurting, she remembered her love that went away last night.she cried back to make Lula who was sleeping next to her wake up.

"Ria you why, what is it, why are you crying.do you have nightmares". said Lula trying to calm her friend who actually returned more sobbing.

"He went Lula, he left, he's not here anymore.

"Ria, heyy, Ria, this isn't funny, let's get up. Ruby, heyyy". Lula patted Ria's cheeks slowly but Ria really did not open her eyes.

Rinjani who is near Ria can not do much, this is his sister's feelings and he has no right to force himself to be strong.

"I'll make the memory of you disappear Philip, forgive me". Rinjani felt guilty about having to disappear Ria's memory of Philip in her sister's life.