Datuk White Crocodile.
60 That pain is my feeling

"I'm sorry Philip, I don't mean to make you sad, but sooner is better. I don't want you to forever bear the pain in this world". Rinjani said in her heart.

"Ria, maybe it's time I leave. I'm sorry I had to leave you out of this world, my prayers will always be with you". philip, who was now looking at Ria from afar, was talking in the gazebo together with Gunawan in the yard.

"Mas, are you okay?". asked Ria, he was worried because he had just seen the news on tv about the fire at Mr. Santoso's house which also took several fatalities which Ria believed must be one of them was the father of Gunawan.

"Maybe this was the fate of his Dek, before returning home, he also stopped by the orphanage to ask them to pray for Dad to be accepted by his side.

Gunawan knows, if he is not likely to hold a study at home because he does not want Sari's mother to get angry and return to fainting.

"Later tonight I will also send a prayer for him, who is patient Mas. at least he stopped committing major sins in this world and now only have to account for his actions.

Gunawan took a deep breath and nodded his head slowly, Not long after he was on the phone by his boss to go to the office because there was a sudden affair.

He rushed to prepare and Pamitan on all his, and said maybe he would not go home because he wanted to go straight to the service so that tomorrow could bring Ria and Lula home.

The afternoon after the completion of the Maghriban Ria did not go straight out of the room but instead he read Yasin to the late father of Gunawan, who was the father of Gunawan, then after they finished, they all had dinner and talked for a while before he finally went to sleep.

When Ria wants to close her eyes Rinjani appears and asks Ria to come with her, Ria finally returns her own Sukma to go with Rinjani, a beautiful view of the city.

But suddenly Ria was reminded of Philip, because a high place like this was Philip's favorite place. actually Ria wanted to ask where Philip was to her own brother but she did not want to make her brother misunderstand.

"Ria, sister wants to ask something is it okay?". said Rinjani, Ria nodded slowly at the sign of telling her sister to ask.

"How do you feel about Philip, do you still love him?". Ria was surprised by the question from her brother, because she never told him at all if she liked her Spirit friend.

"Sister, what kind of question is that?. Philip and I are just friends, you know the nature we live in is different.

"Ria, brother won't be mad at you. We never know to whom love grows, the feeling comes alone. But Ria, it looks like Philip is leaving soon, he's going to the light. At least before he leaves I think Philip deserves to know that his love doesn't clap one hand so he leaves happily". Rinjani.

"She's leaving, Why?". asked Ria, there was a feeling of fear of loss in her heart. but this time it hurt more than she let her sister down yesterday with Philip, who was the only one in the world, at least Ria could still see Philip's presence.

But when it comes to light, Ria may no longer be able to meet her first friend when she can interact with the creature.

And Ria will also completely lose her first love, Ria shook her head.

"Why should he leave so soon, brother, is he angry with us?". said Ria asked Rinjani with tears that had fallen down her cheeks.

"Whatever he should have been away from this world long ago Ria, surely He has suffered so much all this time because he was always alone.even when he was able to be reunited with his first love, he said, but the fact is he still can't have her.

"Help him to go Ria, let him rest in peace and you also continue your life in your world well even without his presence.

Elsewhere Philip comes to meet Gunawan who is now on night duty in his office, Gunawan knows Philip so when he sees Philip's presence in front of him Gunawan is not surprised. Although he was confused why Philip's clothes covered in blood were not as usual, maybe Philip wanted to show his true form think Gunawan.

"Why come here, you don't take care of Ria". asked Gunawan, coincidentally now he was alone in the room.he first put a headset in his ear as if he was talking on the phone, he said, although it is alone, there is a Cctv in this space.

"I'm going to the light, can I ask you something?". Philip said softly, Gunawan looked into Philip's eyes carefully. Gunawan could see there was sadness emanating in those eyes.

"I want to ask something from you, can it.

"Tell me, I'll help if I can.

"I want to leave Ria, take care of her for me. She's not only my friend, but also my love.if I can I want to be with her forever, always, but it turns out that God did not create it for me to have". Philip once again shed tears of blood from his eyes, now Gunawan knows why Philip's clothes are covered in blood, but he's still alive, it was tears of sadness because he was about to leave this world.

"Don't worry, I can't promise you, but I will try to keep it as much and as I can.

"Thank you, I know you're a good person.You deserve it, but be patient.Maybe he needs time to forget me, just like when you forgot your former lover.

Now Gunawan understand, why Ria has not been able to accept his feelings.maybe Ria also loves Philip other friends of nature.

But Gunawan knows, just as he does not know where his heart will dock.so does Ria, but Gunawan is not too sad because now Philip himself is retreating.

"I'm happy, make her as happy as you can". Philip said, then left.

Philip went straight to the place where he had promised Rinjani to go, but there he also saw Ria who was now crying slumped on the floor in a very heartbreaking voice.

"Ria." said Philip sitting crouched down in front of Ria, Ria raised her face and was surprised to see Philip who was drenched in blood.

"You Why, what happened, did it hurt?". said Ria holding Philip's chest while squeezing Philip's shirt which had now turned red due to the blood that kept dripping from Philip's eyes.

"Yes, this hurts Ria. Here, it hurts a lot". Philip pointed towards his heart, holding Ria's hand.

"I'm sick because right now it's me who will leave you forever out of this world, but Ria I don't want to be a barrier from you. No matter how strong my love is, I don't want to be, I know this love will not be reciprocated.

"No Philip, your love does not clap one hand. I love you too, Sangattt".said Ria finally expressed her feelings that she had been keeping meetings alone.

"I'm sorry for never being honest with you, I don't want you not to be able to go to the light because of me and this feeling, but hearing you want to go, I'm afraid". ria said now sobbing.

Philip also shed more and more blood on his face, "It hurts my feeling to leave you Ria" he said in his heart.