WHITE ROSE
(CHAPTER - 03)

The twilight wind was blowing tempting our bodies. The coldness was so pierced into the soul that it tasted bitter. The sun looks warm. But it was not so felt on my body that was walking beside the two of them. Who left the funeral.

A girl sits weakly on a wheelchair. As well as in the back, a mother pushed lightly her beloved daughter. I occasionally glanced a little down.

Now, a month has passed. After such an incident that made my life quite shaken. I don't know why my memory is still imprinted despite trying to forget every day. About the death of Bu Yuli and the Goddess who had changed with Kinara. And also about my time like coming back a few minutes.

However, until now I still can not tell the strange thing.

I still remember, after meeting and telling about the accident that hit Kinara on him. We headed straight to the Emergency Unit in the next building. Find out where Kinara is.

After informing them that Bu Yuli was his family, we were shown where Kinara was. Of course, in the Corpse Room. The ground floor only takes 5 minutes.

After getting there, one of the officers showed us with a figure lying on a white cloth covering his entire body. The middle part looks a big red stain that seeps from inside the figure.

It is like giving a clear limit. Until I realized that the body had separated into two parts. I remember a lot of blood smearing the car tires and asphalt in the park earlier. It seemed, Kinara's body was crushed and dragged.

My head immediately felt dizzy. My mind started to get messed up again.

Slowly Bu Yuli tried to approach the lying figure. Holding the top edge of the white cloth and opening it tremblingly.

We were surprised to find out the face from behind a white cloth that opened about 30 centimeters from the top. A very familiar face to us. Still covered in tears on her cheeks. Which is now pale white and begins to stiffen in his body.

Mom Yuli was crying. Hugging Kinara's body which was stiffened and felt cold. The resounding sound of crying broke the silence of the night. It shakes the heart of everyone who sees. The screams of his heart were so loud and painful that my tears also dripped.

A memory a month ago, which so stifles my heart to this day.

"Andy?" Miss Yuli surprised my daydream back.

"Ah, sorry, ma'am," I replied a little surprised.

"You're daydreaming again. What's up?" asked Bu Yuli curiously.

"Ah, no, Mom. I just remembered about Kinara first. And also I feel sorry for the Goddess," I replied that was getting smoother and a little downcast.

The face of Bu Yuli who saw me now turned forward with a smile. "Hm. Sorry, yes, Andy. I told you to keep Kinara's death a secret for a month."

"It's okay, Mom. After all for the healing of the Goddess," I replied. Smiling looked at the princess who was asleep in a wheelchair.

After Kinara's death, we got word that the operation that Dewi underwent was successful and Dewi was declared to be able to recover from her illness. And for the sake of the Goddess's recovery, the doctor advised her not to tell him about Kinara's death. So that he can focus more on rehabilitation for a month and his mentality is not disturbed. We finally agreed and tried to shut up about Kinara.

Day after day I kept visiting him. Always accompany her when she starts waking up post-surgery. Bring her red roses, her favorite flower. Which sometimes makes me think of Kinara first. I tried to take her mind off Kinara so she wouldn't remember it too often.

While undergoing rehabilitation I was always present. Seeing the Goddess grind her teeth, and her tears flowed as she struggled in her training to be able to walk. It was so painful as if my heart was pierced. Imagine his feelings while struggling to heal for the person he loves. But the man had left him even further.

A month after the rehabilitation, we all told the truth. Where the Goddess began to feel happy has gone through a period of rehabilitation. And also began to ask frequently about Kinara. We're telling you about Kinara's death. Kinara died a month ago, when she had surgery.

Shock, crying, even screaming. That's what we got from him after hearing our explanation. That cry, was the cry of the one who suffered so much. The same reaction with his mother when he saw Kinara's body stiffened. I could feel a broken heart from that cry. Like everything he had fought for all this time was just a waste. Even if I was in his position, I might have thought it was better to just die. However, the Goddess was so fierce to face. Although her tears never stopped flowing due to the deep wounds in her heart.

After that, we always visited Kinara's tomb. And every time we were there, we were always treated to the Goddess's cry every second. Even until he was exhausted and fell asleep leaning on the tombstone. It makes my heart hurt too. See the same scene every visit to the tomb.

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I leaned against the left side wall of the pale green door in the corner of the corridor. The door of the Goddess's nursery. Sighing my sigh at something so upsetting. Why did it rain today? Though the weather forecast I saw on TV this morning said it would be sunny today.

I pulled out my phone in my pants pocket to see what time it was.

"Huh.. at three," I murmured.

Feeling worried, I sent a short message to my father that I could not get home in time because of the rain. Along with the 'send' button I pressed, the door from the open. Bu Yuli looks like she is about to come out of the Dewi's nursery room and look at me.

"What about the Goddess, Mom?" my question is to approach him.

"Ah, still asleep." His face turned to the glass at the door and looked back at me. "She looks tired."

"Oh. I see, huh?" I put my phone in my little bag.

"It's still raining outside?" asked Bu Yuli while looking at the window.

"Eh, yes, Mom. Maybe I should wait a bit longer," I replied smiling wryly.

"Hmm, while waiting for the rain to subside, would you like to come to the cafeteria?" bring her. Hearing her offer I fell silent for a moment and nodded my face in agreement.

We walked towards the canteen leaving the Dewi's nursery. Walk about 15 meters in an empty corridor and stop in front of an elevator door. Ms. Yuli pressed a button on the side wall. We went inside after the door opened about two seconds later and he pressed the number three button again, the door closed again.

Mustika Hospital is a large and luxurious hospital. Divided by two buildings that have different classes. Both services are equally good. Each building has 12 floors. Even so, the outward appearance of this hospital has a design that is full of vertical elements. Make it look like two buildings that are towering each other.

Now, the building where Dewi is treated is an intensive and inhabited place for patients who have serious diseases. More precisely located in Building-A 6th floor.

About ten seconds the door opened. We set foot on a different floor than before. It looks so bright and comfortable because of its spacious room. In every eye looked, on each side the edge of this floor was covered by a wide glass. Decorate green dwarf plants on the bottom edge, adding a fresh feel to this place. In the center there was a vast void up to the second floor. So if I look down I can see the first floor from here. It feels like inside a Grand Mall.

On the other side there are small canteens and taverns located on each edge, and are quite spaced apart. So that the place provided for visitors is so vast. A special place that is very indulgent to relax for the hospital visitors.

I followed Bu Yuli two steps behind her. Walk towards one of the taverns and greet the salesman when he arrives. Actually, the owner of the shop we were going to was a friend of Ms. Yuli. He always visited here to just chat and rest after returning from work or when the Goddess was asleep. Sometimes shop owners also often stop by the room of the Goddess to visit.

After Ms. Yuli ordered lemon tea and I ordered black coffee, we headed to a seat close to the window. From here I can see almost the whole city. Although it looks so blurry because of the droplets of millions of rain water that fell. See the outside atmosphere adorned by the rain from behind the window. Sometimes my eyes can follow the flow of tiny water that fell slowly by the splash of rain that clumps on the outer glass. Accompanied by a warm drink feels so delicious and comfortable. Although actually my habit of drinking black coffee is quite not good for children my age.

... ...

"Andy?" call Bu Yuli to disperse my daydream.

"Ah, yes, ma'am," I replied a little surprised as I looked at him.

"Hm. You daydream often. Is there something?" asked Ms. Yuli after she drank her lemon tea.

"Ah, no, Mom. Seeing the state of the Goddess like that I became reminded of what Kinara had told me, Mom," I replied. Crossed my fingers and put them on the table. My eyes were now fixed on the shadow of my face that was bouncing on the black coffee, which was right in front of my hand.

Ms. Yuli wants to drink her tea back. But he stopped because he heard my answer. "News?"

"Yes. At that time Kinara told me about her parents who died - ah, sorry, Mom," I replied, which I stopped immediately after I realized something.

Feeling worried and guilty I looked directly at Bu Yuli. Bu Yuli was a little surprised to hear that. Ah, crap! Why am I so lost?! A few seconds into silence, he put his cup on the table and smiled at me.

"It's okay. Then?" ask Bu Yuli to come back.

I think I made him remember his past. But because it had already happened and he told me to continue, inevitably I had to continue my explanation.

"Eh, um. I apologized earlier, Mom. About Kinara's father and Dewi's father who died of the Mustika Bank Tragedy" I said, staring back into my cup.

"Hmm? You know about the tragedy?"

"Yes, Mom. It just so happened that when I was a kid my dad used to take me to the City Library to read something he wanted to find. Looking for an old newspaper article and I accidentally read the news about the tragedy. Ah, at that time my father was still a newspaper reporter. Now he works at one of the private TV companies and often leaves me alone at home" I explained, putting on a smiling face.

"Oh, then your mother?"

Hearing her question, I was silent for a moment. My smile was forced a little. "My mom is dead, Mom. When she gave birth to me."

Bu Yuli froze, sighed slowly and leaned her body against the chair. His eyes now turned to look out the window.

"You're like Kinara turns out."

"No, Ma. I'm still not much with Kinara" replied I who had lost my smile. Staring at my face in the coffee water that has begun to reduce the heat vapor. Hearing my reply Bu Yuli looked at me for a moment and went back to drinking her tea.

"Kinara was so subjected to a very heavy ordeal. But he could still look strong and smile. It felt like every time Kinara asked about her parents, Mother always wanted to hug her," Bu Yuli replied, staring at the teacup she was holding.

Right my guess first. Kinara always put on a thick mask called a smile. But I know there's something that makes it closer. That is, he did not want to make people around him sad. Trying not to feel the pain. And on the other hand, the more he covered it, the more he knew that he wouldn't be able to stay with the mask forever. So forced to give up on the circumstances he experienced. Comforting yourself by always paying attention and making people happy around him without thinking about himself who is increasingly fragile.

"Sometimes Mother also remembered about Almarhumah Sinta, her mother Kinara. Who at that time had witnessed our husband was shot by the. Imagine her Mother always crying," said Bu Yuli while rubbing her eyes that want to shed tears.

"Heh?! See directly?!" I was surprised to hear what Bu Yuli said. It's like I remember something.

"Yes. It just so happened that Sinta was working there," Bu Yuli replied in a heavy tone. I was more astonished by his words.

"Not the officer there - sorry, no one survived, Mom?!"

Hearing my question he was a little surprised and a small smile appeared on his lips, "What are you talking about, Andy boy? If there were no survivors Kinara would not have been born. Thank God that time Sinta survived, who happened to be pregnant with Kinara."

From what Bu Yuli said I became even more confused. So there's one survivor? What did I read in the newspaper article? Maybe they are lacking information? No way! Large libraries will not contain articles of a news story that is said to be famous that the news is less accurate. But hearing what Bu Yuli said was certainly right. Because there's no way he's lying because of something like this.

Feeling unsatisfied about my astonishment I tried to find something that could convince me. "By the way, I have a picture of Sinta's mother?"

"Ah yes, of course," said Bu Yuli as she picked up the phone in her bag. Shred it and open a gallery to find the photo he meant.

"This, the person wearing the employee uniform is Kinara's mother" Ms. Yuli said, showing me a photo she meant.

Bu Yuli and Bu Sinta are in the picture. Bu Sinta was wearing a uniform from a private bank. It made me believe it even more after seeing the photo.

Seen there is no shadow because of exposure to sunlight from the body of Bu Sinta. While Bu Yuli who was next to him had a shadow. Either I feel this strange thing because of my imagination or it is reality. But I don't want to say that to Miss Yuli.

I put my head back a little, as a sign of satisfaction watching the photo. Ms. Yuli then turned off her phone and put it back in her bag.

But when he closed the zipper, there was something falling from his bag. Seeing this, I looked down, planning to take it.

But when I saw him, I was pensive. It was like I knew that thing before. A pendant crowned with red roses. Bu Yuli immediately took the pendant and was about to put it back in her bag. Making my gaze follow the pendant from the floor to Bu Yuli's grasp. Seeing my reaction that was so attentive to the pendant, Bu Yuli felt a little astonished.

"What's up, Andy?" ask Ms. Yuli.

"Ah, it's okay, Mom. I feel like I've seen that locket before. But I don't know where and when," I replied while wearing a look of remembrance.

"Oh, you've seen this locket before. It belongs to the Goddess. Gifts from Kinara as a birthday gift first. Had fallen while at Kinara's funeral earlier," replied Bu Yuli as she opened her hand, revealing the locket to me.

"Not-not. I've seen a locket like that. But with a different color - ah! Right too," I said slowly while recalling the thing I meant.

The locket was like the one I found near an electronics store a month ago. Now I keep that locket in my house. Even so I am still not sure that it is the same thing.

"sorry. Can I borrow it for a second, Mom? I'll give it back tomorrow morning. Because it's Sunday tomorrow, so I can come here in the morning" I asked for permission.

"Eh, sure. But for what?" said Ms. Yuli as she handed the locket to me.

"Eh, it's nothing, ma'am. Just a little curious," I said as I took the locket and examined it for a moment.

When I put the pendant in the small bag I was carrying, I saw that the rain outside had started to subside.

It's time to go home.

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I threw myself on a soft bed. For a moment my body bounced a little because of this action of mine. Staring at the ceiling while squeezing my memories. After I searched for an object that was almost the same as the one I borrowed from Bu Yuli earlier. My body was still a little tired after returning from the hospital.

Pedaled my bike quickly so that it was not too late I arrived home. Of course to make dinner. But because of my high curiosity, I headed straight to the room after finishing making dinner to look for the object.

"Where did I put it?" I said a little frustrated looking for that thing.

I went back through my memories the first time I found them. As I recall, I put it in a small box that I put on my desk. But the longer I started to forget about it. Maybe because I put it in a different place when I rearranged my desk position two weeks ago.

I started to move and get my school bag. Who knows I accidentally put it in. Putting a small object in my school bag that I thought was important became a habit of mine. And strangely enough, I always forget. Opening all the zippers and flipping my bag while bouncing it slightly on the mattress. The things in it are falling. Until last, a small transparent box-shaped object I knew fell in between.

"...!"

Finally, the thing I was looking for I found. I took the little box and saw a pendant in it. Open to take it. Not to forget I also took the pendant from Bu Yuli on my little bag. Trying to compare the two objects as both of my hands each held the two pendants.

It looks very similar. From engraving. The crown is like a rose in bloom. Only the colors of the two objects are different. The locket I found was white. While the pendant belonging to the Goddess is red. It didn't take me long to guess whose locket I found.

The locket belonged to a girl I found a month ago, Kinara. Maybe he dropped it when he passed in front of the electronics store. If so, I better leave it to Bu Yuli so that he keeps it. Maybe this thing is a valuable object for Kinara and Goddess.

I put the two pendants back in the small box and I put them in my small bag. Put it on my study table and get out of my room to get to the dining table. Understandably, from noon my stomach was only filled with a cup of coffee that I drank while in the hospital earlier. My stomach is hungry!

...※ ※ ※...

A bright week. Although the clock still shows exactly at 6 am. It looks like yesterday has already squeezed out the remaining rain. After taking a shower, I changed my clothes and went on my favorite bike. With this, 2 more kilometers towards my destination felt quite short. A pretty good burden for my body that is still in its growth stage.

Continuing the 30-minute slow paddling ride, I went out onto the main road and turned to a still-deserted road in the wind. Shortly after, two large buildings appeared in front of me. Mustika Hospital that looks modern because of its design, and looks like a work of art. The security guard at the entrance, now a familiar face, no longer asked the reason for my arrival. I parked my bike in the corner of the big parking lot.

At the first-floor reception desk, which had the appearance of a high-class lobby, I was given a visitor sign. Put it on my chest and get into the elevator to the 6th floor. In it I was with a mother and a little child she was carrying. More precisely behind me.

"No want! I want to get off! Wanna down!" the little boy shouted as he rebelled from his mother's arms. But he was patient with his son.

Shortly thereafter the mother seemed unable to hold her increasingly powerful child in revolt. As the mother lowered her child slowly and carefully, the elevator door opened. The little boy immediately went out and pushed my feet as I was about to step outside. It made me stumble and lose my balance.

When my body fell I heard like an object coming out of my little bag. I immediately found the thing. I was immediately surprised to see the small box containing two pendants fall between the elevator doors that were about to close. I pulled my body up to try to reach the box. But baby, that door has clamped my little box. Destroying the box and the pendant inside.

Seeing this I pressed the elevator side button over and over again. Soon the elevator door opened and I picked up the box in a very panicked feeling. My box is shapelessly destroyed. It looks like the pendant belonging to the Goddess was destroyed. But Kinara's locket is still intact. My face immediately pale to see it.

"Why is it destroyed? When you look at it, the door is not too hard to press it."

"Ah, sorry, Dek," said the mother who approached me with a very sorry face after seeing the pendant I brought had been destroyed.

"It's okay, Mom. It's also my fault I forgot to close my zipper bag," I smiled at him. Even though my heart is very sad.

"Mom's going to change her pendant, Dek," said the mother trying to take responsibility.

"No, Ma. No need to." I refused his help.

Putting the pendant of the Goddess in my pocket. And the Kinara pendant into my little bag back. After that I went back to the room of the Goddess while smiling excuse me to the Mother. In my footsteps I felt very sad and agitated.

My feet are so heavy down the corridor. I was shackled by the weight chains on my ankles. I unconsciously whispered. "Even if I take his place, it won't bring back the memories of the locket."

As I lamented my regret every step of the way, I thought of something after saying that sentence. I feel a little nostalgic. It feels like I've heard it too. But when and who? However, once I was about 10 meters away from the Goddess's nursery and saw the door, I started to remember it.

Also true. Like that time. Where I offered my help to him. But he refused because he did not want to disappoint the Goddess. Then why am I like him? I felt like I could tell his heart from the incident just now.

When I was right in front of the door, I stood there for a moment. Raised my right hand, trying to knock on the door. However, the back of my index finger was stuck to the door and I just fell silent again in front of the door. I still don't dare to do it. I don't know how I'm going to tell Ms. Yuli. I feel very guilty for not keeping the pendant that belonged to the Goddess well. I've disappointed them.

Even so, I still have to say it. I have to vent to whatever the risk. Even if they hate me, I have to accept it. I slowly put my right hand back to try to tap it. However, not yet my finger touched, suddenly the door opened and Bu Yuli was about to come out. We were surprised and stared at each other. It looks like Miss Yuli put on a face full of question marks on me.

"Eh, Mum... Yuli," I said slightly trembling to her.

"Yes?" asked Bu Yuli who still had the same face.

"I'm sorry before. I just dropped the Goddess's pendant. The locket was clamped onto the elevator and shattered," I said in a frightened and downcast tone.

"Continue? What locket, huh?" ask Bu Yuli slowly. I was surprised to hear it. Makes me look back at him.

"Did? Uh, the locket I borrowed yesterday afternoon, ma'am." With a remembering face, he was silent for a moment.

After that, he said something that surprised me even more. "Yesterday afternoon? Eh, sorry. Who is this guy, huh?"

"...Heh?!"

Whatdoes thatmean? I was silent staring at him. Hearing what Bu Yuli asked I was even more surprised. It was like he didn't know me. His eyes seemed to hint at me that I looked foreign to him and had never met him before.

"Andy, Mom!" I answered who was still confused.

"Andy? Sorry, Andy who, huh?" said Ms. Yuli trying to remember.

"I'm Kinara's friend, Mom! I was helping Kinara. I also drove him to Mustika Park. Did you forget?!" I started to panic a little. But Bu Yuli was only speechless as her face was still trying to dig into her memories.

I took out the shattered Goddess's pendant from my shirt pocket. Try to show her, "Here, Mom! This is the Goddess's pendant. Mom let me take him yesterday."

Seeing the locket, Bu Yuli tried to pick it up. However, as soon as he touched the pendant, he immediately fell silent. His eyes looked like they were looking at something else even though his gaze was fixed on the pendant. Like his mind was in another dimension.

For a moment, Bu Yuli gasped a little. Like something hit his mind. Shortly after, his body began to stagger. His eyes began to close slightly and his body began to lose balance. I grabbed her arm, trying to hold her.

"Mr Yuli!" I said trying to wake him up. He immediately opened his eyes and held his head.

"Sorry Andy. Mother's head felt very dizzy earlier," replied Bu Yuli who slightly massaged her forehead. I tried to help him stand up. After that, he looked back at me.

"Eh, Andy. Tumben came here early in the morning" said Bu Yuli smiling.

I was shocked to hear what Ms. Yuli said. It seems like he had forgotten about the incident just now. His eyes that were looking at me so strangely had disappeared.

"Eh, yes, Mom. Because I want to return the pendant.... huh?!" I was cut off because I realized something.

When I tried to show the pendant of the Goddess to him, I was immediately surprised to see this thing that I thrust. My eyes are confused. My lips were slightly gaping and my body instantly froze for a moment. Seeing the pendant that belonged to the Goddess that was in my hand had now changed with the pendant that belonged to Kinara.

"Why, Andy?" asked Bu Yuli astonished to see me. But I still remained silent.

"What's this...?"

"Mother! Is that Andy's sister? Why not just go in?!"

There was a sound of the Goddess calling after realizing my arrival.

After hearing the voice of the Goddess, I was instantly freed from my frost. I immediately saw my surroundings. Looking for the pendant that the Goddess might have dropped earlier when I held Bu Yuli. But not finding it. I also opened my little bag, where I put Kinara's pendant. Inside is empty.

Seeing this, I began to tremble and creep. Cold sweat started to come out in my sweat. Feeling Kinara's pendant is like moving in place of the Goddess's pendant in my hand. And also obliterated the pendant belonging to the Goddess.

With trembling my lips softly. "What... just happened? It felt exactly like... that time...!"