
It was the fourth time this week that Sofia got a call from one of the bars not far from her office. Especially if not to pick up Rendi who was drunk and make fun there. Today that's not gonna happen. At least he would drag the man home but still be able to stand on his feet.
"Let's go home," Sofia snatches the glass glass in Rendi's hand but fails.
"Let go!" Rendi pulled her hand away until the woman could not reach her glass. "Would you like to come here?"
"Especially if not to pick you up," Sofia kept trying to pick up the glass in Rendi's hand which constantly failed because the man's hand was longer than her hand, even for Rendi who was in a sitting position. "I don't want you to embarrass yourself in public."
"It's none of your business" riled Rendi.
Five days ago, Sofia had to compensate the bar because Rendi was involved in a fight. Just because someone accidentally hit him and spilled a drink on his shirt. This man's emotions are being uncontrollable, even by himself.
"What if I say this is my business? Let's quickly put your glass down and we go home, now," forced Sofia.
"Deliver you from before me, you.not Tara Regita," snapped Rendi. "You don't have to take care of me!"
"Yes, I'm not Tara Regita. I'm Sofia Anastasya and I'm in front of you" Sofia pulled Rendi's body until the man looked at her. " And I care about you. So, put your glass down, now," he said slowly.
"You are a bitch," Rendi sipped the last liquid in her glass, left two hundred thousand pieces and walked after Sofia.
Sofia opens the car door and waits for Rendi to come inside, "What would you be without me now?" Sofia put on the seatbelt when Rendi had sat down.
Rendi just groaned indistinctly. Just as she was about to come out, Rendi held Sofia and held onto the woman's head with both hands. Slashed the woman's lips without Sofia fighting back.
"It's just that you're not Tara Regita" she said after removing her kiss from Sofia's lips.
"Fuck," said Sofia while slamming the passenger door and then move to the driver. He wears his seatbelt, glances at Rendi and runs his car.
Rendi still mentioned Tara's name along the way, Sofia was annoyed with her making.
"If it wasn't for me loving you, I would have left you lying like a scavenger on the side of the road" Sofia said.
"You know what you're about love? All you want is my body, right?"
Sofia hit Rendi's chest venting her anger.
"Stop hitting me," Pinta Rendi without fighting the woman next to her.
"Can you close your eyes for Tara and open them for me?" his yell. Sofia increased the car's speed to the touch at 100km/h.
"You kind of asked me to donate my heart when I was alive" Rendi chuckled.
"ARGH! GODDAMN SHIT!"
***
Sofia had to push the man into her apartment and the man collapsed to the floor when he reached the door of her apartment. Sofia pulled him inside and left him lying on the floor. He lost his breath only to a man who did not love him at all. Even almost every time he lost his breath to this person.
"Let's stand up, you're so heavy," Sofia tried to lift her up to stand up.
"Leave me alone, Sofia," Rendi tries to remove Sofia's hand from her body.
"You can get sick if you sleep on the floor like this," he kept forcing Rendi to get up.
"Deliver! I can stand on my own," with Gontai Rendi managed to reach the bed.
Sofia approached and corrected the position of the man, lifted both legs and released the shoes that Rendi was wearing. Let go of the man's suit and turn his body. Stripped his belt so that the man felt more relieved.
"You want what I do?" ask Rendi.
"You've been quiet" Tara took a small wet towel and wiped the man's face, hands and feet.
Rendi clasped Sofia's hand, "Tara..." As if awakened from his drunkenness, Rendi pulled Sofia up onto the bed and overstretched her body.
"Join!" Sofia tried to squirm but her body was locked as a result of Rendi having been sitting on her stomach.
Rendi held the woman's face with one hand, while the other denied her body. "Why can't you be touched like this?!" Rendi pours her kiss on Sofia's lips.
Sofia tries to hold Rendi's body with both hands, but Rendi's drunken strength comes out of nowhere, unopposed.
Rendi quickly took off Sofia's clothes and began fondling her, "why is it so hard to touch you like this, Tara!"
"You're crazy, Rendi!"
"You're a girl!" the hardic. Then continue what he
do so.
Sofia fell silent and looked at Rendi in fear. Just this time he saw Rendi so horribly. The man in front of her undressed and returned to shower kisses on every part of Sofia's affordable body. The woman almost cried. It's not like the Rendi he knows. Unlike the warmest night he had ever spent in Banyuwangi with Rendi.
Rendi's movements get so intense that nothing covers Sofia's body, "Why haven't you ever been this easy, Tara!?" erang Rendi's.
Rendi laid herself down on Sofia's body, her tense body slowly loosened and fell asleep. Sofia tried hard to push that heavy body and let go of herself. The joint rolls to the side and begins to snore subtly. Sofia got up and walked towards her bedroom window. Viewed by the streets that began to quiet from the hustle and bustle of city vehicles from the 7th floor of his apartment, he cried.
***
Raaa, call the cave if you've heard the cave voice message.
Raaaaaa... is still alive, aren't you? Call me back.
Kiara still sent out some similar messages and Tara listened in silence.
You okay, Tara? I picked you up this afternoon. I got two tickets to see Girl on the Mirror.
Message from Genta.
It was only three of the seventeen voicemail messages he received. Tara ignores every message that comes on her phone and responds only to all important work-related messages. Besides, Tara closed her eyes.
Kiara even tried to meet him at work but never managed to meet him. He doesn't even talk much to Vanka and prefers to wear a headset all day. Bring his lunch and ride to the office rooftop at lunch. There was no passion, his life was so much emptier than after he broke up.
Opening her heart to Rendi was a decision she could not have made, if that possibility was necessary. Given that the man was already together with the others; Sofia, his co-worker whom he had known all along. However, together with his new date only half-heartedly he runs the relationship.
He knew he couldn't be like this when his heart was still not balanced. Together with others but the rubbish of the past still burdensome steps. He will hurt many people, especially himself.
"Rooftop, yuk cuy," Vanka pulled the already uninhabited bench Dimas and placed next to Tara.
Tara opened her headset, "why?"
"Rooftop," whined Vanka while shaking Tara's arm.
"Can't, Ka. Ga napsu's cave."
"Ih, must have been gegara last week you saw the Rendi rampaging yes," Vanka guessed.
They both sat on the second floor, the outdoor bar. Then there was the sound of fighting from the first floor. A lot of damage was produced even the injured except for the man who was asleep in the middle of the floor, laughing. The man is Rendi. Tara was surprised, he never saw Rendi as drunk, even before he never won from Tara about vertical alcohol. He looks fucked.
Sofia comes to the rescue of the man as a guarantee. The police came but after talking to the bar owner they left shortly after. Vanka guaranteed, Rendi was shaken.
"Ok, okay. Quickly return my Taraku yes, hey you are mastering it," Vanka looked up close and waved to Tara's eyes as if to say hello to something inside Tara. Vanka kissed Tara's cheek and left.
The sky had darkened, as Tara walked out of the office. He stepped his legs, it felt like devouring a warm savory croissant with a cup of NiKopSu was delicious. Not realizing that there was a pair of footsteps that followed behind him until he reached the coffee shop.
"Welcome" Adam exclaimed from behind the coffee maker. "Eh, Mbak Tara and Mas Rendi came together, it's been awesome."
Tara turned around and found Rendi not far from where she was standing. He looked at her and smiled at Adam. "Again back and forth" he said.
Tara surprised.
"We need to talk, Tara," whispered Rendi.
"Come, let's order first." Rendi stepped onto the counter and started ordering. NiKopSu and Croissant for Tara, Si Item and a tuna sandwich for her. Tara exhaled and had no other choice but to serve what this man wanted.
After all the orders were fulfilled, he followed Rendi who brought the tray to their favorite table. Organized food from the top of the tray to the table in accordance with the order. For a long time they enjoyed each other's food even though the taste of food that he craved so it feels not as tempting as in his brain.
"I'm hungry, it seems like this morning I forgot what I was eating," Rendi chewed her sandwiches solemnly. "Or I don't eat anything, I don't know."
"You why?"
"What?" his mouth was full of sandwiches.
"You already know you're not good at drinking and making a mess where people make a living," Tara leaned back and drank NiKopSunya.
"Who said I'm not good at drinking?" Rendi is a little excited because Tara knows the furore she caused last week.
"You never hold more than one glass, Ren," Tara looked at him straight.
"Who would drive you home if I were drunk with you?" next to Rendi's eyebrows raised.
"And I've never fallen unconscious from a hangover" Tara reminded.
Yes, Rendi did salute Tara because how much the glass she had gulped had no effect on the girl.
"I purposely gave in front of my girl" he said. He held his head in one hand and looked at Tara.
Tara turned her head towards the street, keeping her eyes busy with the pedestrians passing by. So that he is distracted from the view of Rendi which still leads to him.
"Don't do that again, pity the owner of the business" Tara suggested.
"You're trying to set me up when you don't receive a comment on your clothes?" Rendi raises eyebrows.
Tara looked at Rendi wanting to defend herself, this was the moment they liked. Arguing about trivial matters only because they insist on different things. Tara undoes her intentions, "it's up to you."
"Riggers?"
"No" he answered quickly.
"Yes, cranky."
"No, Rendi."
"You say no but every time you snack it's like this, Tara" Rendi smiled. He saw his interlocutor uncomfortable, then he hurriedly diverted him with another conversation. "Why do you know I'm being violent?"
"I was there with Vanka when it happened" he answered while cutting the croissant.
"Ah, so," he replied indifferently. "You're sure Vanka wasn't with the gallery guy?"
"Whatever you say," he said.
"All right, I believe you," he didn't want to prolong the debate.
"What you're doing doesn't make sense, Ren," Tara looked at him. There was a look of sadness in his eyes and it bothered him.
"Never does anything make sense under the influence of alcohol," Rendi sipped her glass solemnly. "never. Including your DM."
"Is this what you want to talk about?"
"Yes," Rendi turned her glass.
"As I said last in the gallery, I miss you. Hugely. And stop there," Tara folded her hands on her chest. "In addition, these last three months, things have changed. Didn't you?"
"Depending on where you saw it," replied Rendi.
Tara took a breath and decided to be honest, "My feelings have changed for you."
"Because of that man?"
"Don't bring Genta into our troubles. She has nothing to do with you anyway" Tara said. "I understand our position more and more after we part ways. No matter how far we want to go together, our Qibla is impossible to put it together."
Stunned joints. The difference between them then comes to the surface.
"I ask my Lord, will I still be able to have you in my life? But all the answers point to the word no. No matter how big of a nego I'm offering him."
"Tara," both of his hands clenched under the table.
"Everything I've been through with anyone can't erase you, Ren, and it's too heavy" Tara clenched her hands holding back the emotions she felt. "They're all compared to you and no one's graduated. Now, I just want to live a quiet life and you're a shadow that's too thick for me."
"Then don't you try to understand how I feel?" chase Rendi.
Tara quiet.
"I have a feeling, Tar. It's not as easy as erasing all our memories as flicking a finger. It's not just you who's sick."
Tara never thought that even as heavy as Rendi took it off. Rendi never even tried to reach her or hold her back from leaving. Didn't all the words just now seem to be broken by an effort he never showed?
"I did everything you asked me to do, even though at that time you asked me to take you off," Rendi propped her head up with her hands.
"If you're wondering why I'm not looking for you, because I don't think you want to be with me. Understood?" Rendi looked at this girl sharply. He tried to read what Tara was thinking through the look on her face.
Tara tried hard to hold back her tears. Then Sofia's shadow appeared in his mind. "And now you're with Sofia, what can I do?"
"Sofia, she..."
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