
The statement Leon made to Josh made Alicia feel guilty for her childhood best friend, for her it would be inappropriate for Leon to say that in the midst of the current crowd, especially when he saw the face of Josh who seemed hit accept that reality, coupled with the gossip of some viewers who began to blame Josh for what he did.
And when Alicia sees Aaron with his team rushing over, she immediately asks Leon to wait for him in the parking lot, as he himself needs a little time to reject Josh properly.
With a heavy heart Leon follows the wishes of his little lover, although a little jealous but he believes Alicia can think clearly and solve her own problems.
"Get it done soon, I'll be waiting for you in the car" whispered Leon as he kissed Alicia on the forehead.
Alicia nodded slowly, after Leon was no longer seen he glanced at Josh, his best friend seemed to be silent listening to Aaron who was talking to him.
"Josh, I want to talk to you alone" he asked in a soft voice.
Gwen and Aaron seem to object, as Leon's presence irritates them a little, but seeing the guilt Alicia shows through her eyes, Josh finally agrees to her request, he follows Alicia who invites him to leave the basketball court to a small park not far from the parking lot.
The silence and the sound of dried leaves being stepped on accompanied Josh and Alicia's footsteps.
"Has that guy always been nice to you?" josh asked when his feet had just stepped into the garden, he was already impatient to break the silence between himself and Alicia.
Alicia nodded and smiled.
"Leon him... A good man, even though he is more mature than me but he always tries to compensate me, sometimes... He looks cold and calm, but other times he'll act mischievous like a man your age."
Josh notices Alicia's look on the face, explaining that Leon looks happy, seeing that he understands that he shouldn't destroy Alicia's happiness if he really loves her, while he knows how Alicia's been living her life all along.
"Tell me, do you love that man?" he asked again while looking at Alicia who was leaning against a tree.
"About that... I'm sorry to you, because I can't accept you, and I... I can't refuse you in front of everyone who's in there! If I do that, I'll embarrass you and hurt you."
"But now you've hurt me too" murmured Josh softly.
"And I'd hurt you more if I accepted you while I loved another man! I don't want to lie to you and also lie to my own heart, it's true today I'm a bit confused and sad, but it's because I want to make it happy too! Leon... She was always trying to make me happy, I who had been isolated for 11 years without this association and suddenly had a perfect lover like her, really made me feel insecure in her presence, she said, but that is my stupidity! Seeing his presence here today I finally understood that Leon accepted me for who I was, he didn't care if I was lacking in company, and my manner was unlike the beautiful women he knew so much, even he accepted me after knowing my secret, not only that... I hit him too but Leon never counted on me, he accepted all my flaws and it made me feel comfortable being around him, because being with him I don't have to hide my secrets and be myself."
Josh just silently hears the reason why Alicia rejects him, he realizes that in a relationship the first thing that needs to be there is a sense of comfort and can be yourself, that's what Leon gave Alicia, and for Josh Alicia deserves it after living a lonely life of 11 years, these two things may not have been given by him as Leon had given Alicia, even by Wesley's birthday he had realized Leon was more worthy of his little friend, because the man was protecting Alicia unconditionally and at every time when her best friend needed protection, but at that time... He has not been able to accept Alicia's decision, and now... Josh understood he had to step down for the happiness of the girl he loved.
"Are we still friends?"
"Of course, you are my first best friend and also my best friend, I don't want to lose you!" alicia replied with a smile.
Seeing that smile, Josh hugged Alicia.
"Josh??"
"I know, thank you... Josh's." Josh."
***
The sun appears to have sunk when Alicia and Leon leave the basketball court.
In a speeding car splitting the streets of Los Angeles, Leon notices Alicia staring at the street that has now begun to be illuminated by the street lights, the little girl's gaze seems empty, and the, he paid no attention to what he had gone through like he was immersed in his own thoughts.
"What's wrong?" leon asked softly as he touched the cheek of his little lover with his thumb.
Alicia turned to look at her handsome boyfriend who seemed to be worried about her, she shook her head slowly and tried to smile.
"It's okay, I've explained your position in my heart to Josh, and he accepts it, but..."
"But??"
"But I don't know how to deal with you! In my eyes, you are so perfect and I... I'm just a little girl sitting in second semester college, my parents and my friends are all from ordinary families, while you... You have extensive company, successful friends, a face and body above the average man, I feel unworthy to be your lover!"
Leon stopped his car suddenly on the left side of the road hearing his little lover's remark.
"Who has said that you don't deserve to be my lover?!" when it was cold, he stared right into Alicia's eyeballs to make the little girl lower her face.
"Nobody said it, but I'm self-conscious, Leon I..." Alicia's words came to a halt as she raised her face and saw Leon still staring at her.
"You want to give up on me?! Don't want to continue this relationship?!"
"I... I just don't know how to live this with you!" Alicia lowered her head again.
"Is it because of that guy?!"
"Not." Alicia shook her head slowly.
Leon touched Alicia's chin and raised her face slowly to look back at her.
"If it's because I rejected you and made you doubt me, let's do it! But one thing you should know, I reject you is not because I don't want you, I reject you because I respect you! Little Girl, you may not realize this, but ever since I know you I have always tried to resist my desires for you! You know?? It was so heavy, even your face when being embarrassed was so teasing to me, I never felt this much desire to another girl, wanting to always be with you, wanting to touch you more and more, she said, this desire almost shook my stance! And you're the girl, the only girl who can make me helpless!"
"Eh??" Alicia was stunned in front of those blue eyes that were looking at her gently, eyes that were as beautiful as a stretch of clear sky with white clouds fluttering.