Pellucid
Chapter 11 - Go
Upon arriving at home, he immediately entered and locked the door of his room. Ningsih who accidentally saw her master's son was climbing the stairs in a hurry and seemed to have a look of Bening's frightened face, making Ningsih quite worried.
He rushed to the room on the second floor.
Tok.dok...
"Non... Non Clear. What's lunch yet? Want Bibik to eat?" tanya Ningsih in front of the door of Bening's room.
"Not Bik. Clear later if you want to eat also come down. Clear sleepy," cried Bening from inside the room.
"Yes already. But don't forget to eat, Nope. Remember that grandpa in the stomach. Pity if you're hungry. Later playing ball in the stomach of his mother is not agile," great-grandson Bik Ningsih while entertaining Bening.
"Yes Bik. Thanks," said Bening.
Finally Bik Ningsih went down. He could not bear to see the condition of Bening from childhood to the present. Since childhood, he had been lacking the affection of his biological father and was left forever by his biological mother.
Now pregnant out of wedlock. He also did not know which man would impregnate Bening. As the closest person to Bening, he knew very well the relationship of his master's son was straight all this time.
"Is it possible that Non-Bening is raped?"
"That man once. If I meet the person, I want to ask him to change his duties to clean the fish pond that belongs to you, for life. All run around GBK (Gelora Bung Karno) Jakarta 100 times while carrying Neng Bening. Let's add more klenger!" grouse Bik Ningsih.
In the room, Bening was silent and was thinking. He finally made a big decision in his life.
"Yes, I better go. As far as possible. Where no one knows me or Papa. Help Mama, son."
Unknowingly since then he continues to stroke his stomach that is still flat and invite his baby to speak properly between mother and child. Finally, I decided to leave the house. His father had not yet returned home.
Previously he had gone to an ATM not far from the official house. He withdrew ten million rupiah worth of cash. It was purely his personal money that he had set aside from his allowance and the gift money from school because he got the champion of one scientific race.
While the other Gold-colored card is always filled with enough money by the Papa for other purposes, Bening rarely uses it. And when he was leaving the house, he decided not to draw anything from the card.
He had put it all in his medium-sized suitcase. Wallet and cell phone he put in his sling bag.
Before leaving, he wrote a letter to his father.
Assalammualaikum, My First Love.
The father I love so much. What I always say his name in every prayer and breath.
There were probably many children out there, his first love being his mother. But my first love was Papa. I pray enough throughout my breath. Because Mama has got so much and excess love from God in the best place by His side. Bening is very happy to be born from both parents such as Papa and the late Mama. The best gift from God is very grateful.
Maafin Bening, if since birth always makes Papa sad and disappointed. Because of the birth of Bening, make Papa live alone. Left gone Papa's soul mate for ever. If God had given choice to Bening when in the womb of Mama, Bening would have answered better Bening who slept in the ground than Mama.
The presence of Mama makes Papa live and smile happily. But the presence of Bening can never make Papa smile even a little let alone a happiness. Very far from the dream.
Clear go yes, Pah. Sorry, if Bening did not dare say goodbye first to Papa.
Take it easy, Bening won't kill himself. Bening will live alone with the baby in the womb Bening. Papa need not worry, Bening will go as far as possible where no one knows who Bening is. So that what happened just as clear will not make Papa's good name tarnished. May my baby not be ashamed of being born to a mother like me. Born outside of marriage.
Sorry if Bening didn't say who the man who impregnated Bening was. May Papa forgive him. Surely one day Papa will know for himself who he is. Bening has also forgiven him. It's all fate. No one is to blame. Bening.
Take care of your health, Pah. My prayers are always with you. Success for Papa's career forever. May he be a trustworthy General and remain a good Papa, whom Bening has known all along.
You are The Best Papa Ever. ^^
From Bening, of,
Your daughter who loves you all this breath is still blowing.
🍁🍁🍁