MY HUSBAND IS MENTALLY DISABLED
Chapter.38. Looking for Anisa

"Tonight I'm in the night again. Today I have to start looking for Anisa in some hospitals. For an international hospital, I don't think it's possible. It is only for people who have good performance, good skills and connections. While Anisa is not that smart to get in there. I had to find her before my engagement day in the title, so that I would feel calm and not feel guilty anymore" Abian murmured.

Abian then began looking for Anisa to various government hospitals and private hospitals. However, he did not find the whereabouts of Anisa.

"It doesn't matter today I failed to find him. There are many other hospitals I have not been to. I can definitely find him. It's stupid how I never asked him where he worked all this time. Just because I wanted to avoid him, I didn't care about him. She was...."

Abian recalled all of Anisa's attention to her. He remembered about the fan that Anisa first bought with her first salary. A fan that doesn't make itself hot anymore.

"A fan?"

Abian stopped his car and turned around. Now the main purpose is to go to Suban's house. When I got there, the house looked very quiet. Abian just walked in, because the door wasn't locked. When he saw Abian's arrival, Neneng did not stay silent. He did not care what Abian did when he entered his room.

Abian looked at the big fan, still in the same place. He recalled his memories while he was still with Anisa. Where Anisa used to change clothes, preening, and lying on the bed.

"This is not true. Why do I miss him so much all of a sudden. I felt a tightness in my chest, when I remembered everything about him" Abian muttered as he slightly squeezed his chest.

Abian brushed aside all his thoughts, and then brought along the fan that Anisa bought. When he saw Abian carrying a fan, of course, Neneng protested.

"Where do you want to take that fan? what's in a mental hospital doesn't have a fan. Whatever is in this house, should not be taken out," said Neneng.

Abian stopped his steps and turned around after putting the fan on the floor. Abian then approached Neneng, who made the woman so scared.

"Be careful to talk to crazy people. If he is offended, you can strangle him to death," said Abian who made Neneng so run into his room.

Abian then leaves with the fan of Anisa's purchase. Once at home, Abian turned off the air conditioning in his room. Instead he turned on the fan and lay on the bed until his eyes fell asleep.

"Why would you lie to me. Why mas? why would I stay alone? I know only where I lean and share. I'm lonely, I'm scared. Mas very evil has made Nisa a widow at a young age. Mas wicked...mas evil!"

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Abian awoke from his sleep, because he had a nightmare of blasphemy from Anisa. The man rubbed his face many times, the arrival of Anisa so felt real to him.

"I'm sorry Nisa. I admit I am guilty of you. I also reneged on your late father's promise. But honestly I have no intention of hurting you" Abian murmured.

Abian glanced at the clock at his wrist which was already showing at 3 pm.

"Some day I'm going to work again. But I still have a little time to go to that tomb, don't I?"

Abian decides to go find Anisa's home address. After meeting, it turns out that the house has changed ownership.

"So where's the Anisa, sir?" ask Abian.

"I know less. I just rented this house. This house belongs to his uncle, Mr. Surani." Answer the tenant.

"Is the Anise in his uncle's house?" ask Abian.

"Not really. You see, yesterday I just went to Mr. Surani's house to pay rent."

"yes too. There is no way Anisa lives with her three parents. Because in addition to his uncle being evil, his aunt and cousin are not good people either. She would definitely prefer to live alone," Anisa's inner.

"Emm...do you know the tomb of Mr. Sumarno?" ask Abian.

"Sorry, I don't know. I used to contract not far from here, but when he died I did not go to the funeral. Maybe the time could be with the person next door," the man seemed to point to the neighboring house next to Anisa's house.

Without wasting much time, Abian immediately went to meet the neighbor next to Anisa's house. After asking, the man was willing to take Abian to the cemetery where Sumarno was buried. Abian gave some money to his introduction and let the man go.

Abian saw the adjacent grave there looked a flower that had withered but still looked new. Sumarno was buried side by side with his wife Kusmini. But there is something interesting that Abian saw from the tomb. Abian saw there was a bottle that Anisa might have used to flush the navel. Abian grabbed the bottle and took out a piece of paper inside.

"Sir. I'm sorry Nisa just came to see you and buk'e. Because honestly Anisa's embarrassed sir. Everyone rejected Anisa's presence, including Anisa's own husband. The man Anisa chose to be her husband, the man she blessed to be my husband. Maybe this is karma because Nisa has lied to the father, because the man Anisa married someone who was mentally handicapped

Again sorry Nisa sir. But now Anisa is frightened sir, because Anisa lives alone. Anisa has failed to defend Anisa's household. Nisa thinks only Nisa's husband will always be by Anisa's side and will never leave Anisa. But apparently, even mentally disabled people don't want to be with me. And I loved him very much.

Now Anisa is living a very miserable life even though Nisa is already working. But take it easy, Anisa will definitely be a strong man. Nisa can definitely succeed with Nisa's own efforts. Nisa's gonna prove to the bad guys that we're the same if I can succeed more than them.

It was already sir. I'm sorry to express my feelings through the letter, because only through the letter Nisa can pour out all the contents of the heart without anyone left behind. Nisa kangen sama buk'e"

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Abian's tears did not feel dripping on his cheeks. She knew very well what Anisa was feeling at this moment. The moment when he feels alone in the world. Without any support, without any guards, and it made her guilt towards Anisa even more mountainous.