MAYDEA: Turning Point
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...My name is Maydea, Maydea Alexandra Chandrawinata. Yes, the name given by Mother. But some people prefer to call me May because according to them, the name seems shorter and simpler. While Mommy herself prefers to call me Alexa, and until now only she called me that....
...I am so happy to be living in this world. Yeah, although some pretty dopey people in my village often call me an unlucky carrier. The reason, of course, is because I'm different. White-haired, white-haired, blue-eyed, or albino. Because of that, my skin is very sensitive, so I rarely go out to heat outside the house like other children. Different also made me shun other children, so I decided to just write this journal to drive away my boredom....
...Oh, like I said, I'm happy living in this world. Know what reason? Because both my parents loved me so much. It feels great because we can joke around, share stories, and make wonderful memories every day. Oh, not—all the time, even!...
...You know, I really love Mom and Dad. Yes, they are my happiness. Yes, even though Mother and Father both work, but that does not prevent them from watching my growth; they just keep me—Dad not only impose the task of taking care of children to Mother. In essence, I was very grateful to have them; for in hindsight, many children of my age were lacking the affection of their father who went wandering; or from his mother who must be smart to divide the time between taking care of children and the house, not to mention the affairs of emotional control....
...Me, Maydea, feel like the luckiest and happiest kid in the world....
...««« Maydea, 15/04/2011 »»»...
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Hi, I'm so happy today. You guys know why? Yes, because today is my birthday. My eighth birthday.
Mother gave me a gift of some books which are some children's fantasy fiction books and so on again knowledge books. Mother said, I should be happy to read because reading can give me a lot of new knowledge. In addition, Mother also said that reading can improve literacy skills, so we will not be easily eaten by fake news.
Dad gave me a gift of a ukulele. My favorite gift because I wanted it a long time ago. Dad and Mommy understand very well that I love music and have a talent for it. They say, my voice is good and I have to train it to be a successful professional singer someday. Mother said, in the past, she also had aspirations to become a singer, but in the end, Mommy prefers to focus on being an architect, like my great-grandfather's profession used to be.
Ever since I found out you ever wanted to be a singer, I've become more and more excited. I want to become a professional singer someday, continue your dream!
Maydea, 21/05/2011 »»»
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Today, I was sad because my friends at school said that I was an illegitimate child. I didn't know what it was until one of them explained it to me. I was angry and yelled at them, but one of them cried and complained to the teacher that I was being naughty. I told you that they started, but my teacher wouldn't believe me because the other kids didn't want to admit the truth. Finally, everyone cornered me.^^^
^^^My parents with the parents of my troubled son were called to the teacher's office, but the boy's parents came first. They scolded me and told me I was a bastard. They say my mother cheated on me, because it was born that I looked different. I didn't want to believe it that easily and yelled at them, and then they dubbed me a child with no manners. I don't understand what's wrong with me, because I think I just want to get back at their treatment.^^^
^^^ A few minutes later Father and Mother came and hugged me. The child's parents scolded both my parents and I who did not accept to explain the chronology directly. Of course my Mom and Dad believed me, and then I saw Dad give them an envelope that I didn't know what it was, and then they apologized and left. Shortly after that the teacher came and said that the problem was over.^^^
^^^I'm confused. While at home, Mother and Father explained to me that whatever bad things people say need not be heard. They also said that what I experienced could be explained medically, then they said that someday, at school I would get the lesson. I just nodded after that. After that, we hugged each other. My mood improved immediately after; but I was still thinking about the envelope that Dad had handed to my friend's parents. Whatisit?^^^
^^^««« Maydea, 03/01/2012^^
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^^^Hey, it feels like I haven't written here in a long time. Six months, I remember it. Coinciding with Mother's death, from that day on, I did not touch this book until this day arrived.^^^
...Tomorrow is my 13th birthday. My first birthday without my mom. It's so sad it feels. But Dad said he had a special gift for me. I didn't want to tell you what it was, because he said it was a surprise. I'm very curious and I can't wait for tomorrow....
...««« Maydea, 20/05/2016 »»»...
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I'm sad. A gift from Dad, it turns out to be my mother. Yes, stepmother. They got married three days ago, out of town without my knowledge. To be honest, I didn't think Dad would hide such a big thing from me. I was really surprised, and .. disappointed.
To her surprise, I had a half-brother. There are two, one female and one male. One was named Brother Gendhis who was four years above me, while the other was named Raka who was two years below me. Seen once Brother Gendhis did not like me; but Raka, his sister, seemed to be a good boy.
Today, a new history is forming in my life. I have a connecting mother and two half-brothers!
Maydea, 21/05/2016 »»»
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^^^That is why day by day, the nature of fathers is changing. As I was telling you yesterday, Dad scolded me for accidentally breaking Mom's beloved vase. Yes, my stepmother, Gayatri.^^^
I think my life will end now. Dad kicked me out of the house, told me to live alone in a small house. The reason is because I want to hurt Brother Gendhis, but it is not at all—it is just slander.^^^
^^^ I don't know what happened to Dad. He's not like my dad. I miss my old father, Mother too. On second thought, life is not that beautiful. Yeah, because back then, I didn't understand the real world yet.^^^
^^^««« Maydea, 15/05/2018^^
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...Today is my birthday. My life in this little house, it wasn't that bad. At least I found a lot of books here. Maybe, this house, once was a mini library owned by Mother....
...It's sad that there's no ukulele. One year ago, Gendhis broke it— on purpose, and I know it. I got angry and grabbed him, until Dad finally broke us. Genphis said he was not on purpose. Dad believed him and said he wanted to buy me a new ukulele. But that sounds nonsense now, because up until now, he didn't give it to me....
...««« Maydea, 21/05/2018 »»»...
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Four years have passed. I'm 19 now. I was forced not to continue my studies due to limited costs. The longer you go, the more you don't care about me.
You know what hurts?
Dad wanted to pay for Gendhis's tuition, but not my college. Gayatri. She said her children were more promising than me. It was obvious he was making up, and strangely again Dad believed him. You didn't even know I was a general first-time champion at my High School.
The only person who was the best to me was Raka. Yes, my step-sister. He was kind and loved to help me. He was even willing to give some of his allowance to me. In return, I often taught him some foreign languages. Yes, I do speak some languages. Long ago, Mother taught me. Mother's books are very helpful.
Ah, yes .., many say I'm out of date. Right, because I do not have a smart phone; all I have is a old-fashioned mobile phone relic Mother, and it is no longer usable. I don't have enough money to buy such an expensive item. Father also seemed to have no interest in buying it personally to me; let alone Gayatri.
I don't have a smartphone, but I can use it. Raka taught it to me, even with other electronic devices such as computers. It's nice, there's still someone who would care about me. Last year, in fact, he gave me the gift of a new acoustic guitar. He bought it with his own savings. I remember, Gayatri was angry because of that. He said he was wasting money on useless things. In fact, come to think of it, she and her daughter were, even worse than me.
Sometimes I think about going out of town. I mean escape. Actually, I can ask permission, and I'm sure they'll allow me; let alone Gayatri—he must be glad I went far away. But I don't want that to happen. I'm sure he'll make me a dairy cow. I might be working in the city, but all my money he took. But right, I can run away when I get there .... Well, that's not the main problem. I don't have any money, and that's the barrier. Here, I might be able to work odd jobs, but in town I'm not sure. Come on— lived in a foreign place and was alone?
Oh. .., I remember Raka once told me to wait for her. That's also why I'm staying here. He said he wanted to go to college in the city so he could take me there. Therefore, he became more and more diligent studying—by going to the university of his dreams, also. Romantic, right?
I often help Raka learn. He was the smart type of kid, therefore, it wasn't that hard to teach him. I'm sure, anyway, he can break through to the university of his dreams.
Ah, but ..., can I wait another year?
Maydea, 13/06/2022 »»»