Look at Me One
46. Dinner

"Mama asked me to propose to her next week."

Bagas's voice made Sandra stop her activities that were pouring juice into the glass. The woman immediately released a hug Bagas. I don't know what he felt at the moment, which is clear, Bagas' words immediately made his heart claustrophobic.

"Sandra–"

"Sit down first, I'll prepare your drink." Sandra continued to pour the drink into the glass. Meanwhile, Bagas was forced to fulfill Sandra's request as the woman looked at him with a sharp gaze.

Sandra let out a long breath. Trying to neutralize his feelings. His heart rate was pumping fast as the man's speech came back ringing.

Apply him? What did Bagas mean was to propose to a woman named Shena? The beautiful girl who he said had been betrothed to Bagas?

Sandra's heart ached. There was a sense of unwillingness when Bagas said he would propose to someone next week.

Sandra took a long breath again.

"I always denied my feelings, but, when I heard she wanted to propose to another woman, I didn't seem to accept it. Actually, what happened to me?" inner Sandra.

Sandra stepped closer to Bagas who was returning to the living room when Sandra threw him out earlier.

"Drink first." Sandra noticed Bagas's uncharacteristic face. The man was not as cheerful and thick as Sandra had seen all this time.

"What's wrong?" Sandra watched Bagas while drinking her homemade juice.

"I told you that. Didn't you hear?" Bagas who was not in good mood looked upset to hear his heart adoration.

"You said something while I was at work, I wasn't focused" Sandra said. In fact, the truth is that the woman was so curious that she wanted to go back to hearing the story of Bagas. If necessary, in detail so that he does not feel curious.

His feelings have been mixed ever since Bagas said about the proposal. His deepest heart clearly did not accept Bagas proposing to another woman. However, his side of his heart laughed because no matter how bad his current feelings were towards Bagas, wasn't he and Bagas not related?

"Darling, can't you just listen to me a little bit? I know you're not–"

"Don't beat around. Just get to the point, "cut Sandra impatiently.

Bagas took a long breath. Staring at the woman he loved so much with a look of ignorance. Seeing Sandra who was close to him, but, feeling far from his reach made Bagas' confidence drop bit by bit.

Did she really not love him at all? Or, at the very least, doesn't the woman hold a little feeling for him?

Bagas is not tired. He just wants certainty. His love for Sandra made him feel tormented. Bagas chased Sandra every day hoping that she would give her a little taste. However, how much time passed the woman did not give him the slightest hope.

Sandra remained silent not rejecting and not asserting about all the feelings she almost every day expressed to the woman

On one hand Bagas felt that Sandra also had the same feelings for him. However, on the other side of her heart, she felt that Sandra did not care about her at all.

Bagas just wants certainty. The man wants his relationship with Sandra to be made clear. Sandra refused his love. However, the woman did not refuse when Bagas approached her.

Sandra seemed to deliberately pull her heart out, to make Bagas go awry. He wanted to leave, but he loved Sandra very much. However, staying with the unclear status also made Bagas' heart unsettled.

In the past, Bagas was indeed a female player. His attitude towards his women back then was almost exactly the same as what Sandra was doing at the moment.

The difference is, Bagas so easily took his woman to the top of the bed even though the relationship is unclear. At that time, the purpose of Bagas was only one, how to get the woman who became his target to melt and end up sleeping together.

Recalling that, Bagas smiled in a miris. How depraved he was in the past. Even what he did to Sandra at that time was not an act that could be forgiven by Sandra. However, his love for the woman made Bagas throw his shame.

Doesn't every human being have a past? So, it is not wrong, if he expects love from the woman he once almost abused?

"Mama asked me to propose to Shena next week."

Sandra squeezed both of her hands as there was a throbbing taste at the end of her heart.

"Then?" Sandra's voice was heard softly, but, it still sounded in Bagas' ear.

"I can't propose to her, honey, I don't love her." Bagas grabbed Sandra's hand and placed it on her chest.

"You know that I love you so much, don't you?"

"I can't marry someone I don't love" Bagas continued.

"Then what should I do?" Sandra was very upset to hear Bagas' words. Not upset by the man's expression of love. But it was upset that the man wanted to propose to the woman named Shena.

According to him, a person like Shena was clearly no match for a man like Bagas. Then, what kind of woman does he think is worthy of Bagas?

"You just have to say yes or no."

"What do you mean?"

"Tell me that you love me too. Tell me if you don't want to be with me, Sandra. I love you so much. I just need an answer from you so I can calm down." Bagas looked at the woman with love and hope.

"If you really don't have any feelings for me, right now I'm going away from you. Next week, I'll fulfill my mother's request to propose to her even if I don't love her."

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