Black Ball
Chapters 1. Part 6's

After dinner, the night was getting darker.

My eyes are too heavy to open. Wherever I am, after a meal it is best to sleep. However, Nazdia and I had to walk back to the inn.

“How about you guys sleep here?”

Hearing Anifsa's words made my heart happy. If allowed, it must be a great relief because there is no need to walk again.

“Nazdia can sleep with me and Rizkal sleep alone, what do you think?” anifsa asked Lizfa and Linda who were sitting side by side.

Lizfa and Linda nodded together.

“Alright, it's decided.”

After finishing the dining table, each of us went into the room.

Even though today we lost someone very valuable to us, we have to stay strong. Based on Rizkal's memory, I believe, we can be sad, but we must still move forward together with our loved ones.

When I arrived at the room I was in, I immediately took off my outer clothes and laid my body on the bed. Although not as comfortable as in the bed of the inn, but still more comfortable than the mattress in my original world .

Finally sleeping too.

Just a few minutes I closed my eyes and had not really fallen asleep, the door to my room was knocked.

I sighed softly, stood up, then opened my room door.

Nazdia was standing at my doorstep.

"Can we talk for a second?"

Of course I nodded, even though I was already feeling sleepy, seeing Nazdia's pretty face, I couldn't possibly reject her.

"Let's go in," I told him to throw himself in.

I don't really understand why I let Nazdia into my room, but it seems like it's normal for Rizkal and Nazdia to talk to one room in the room. Even several times also sleep together, even though it is just sleeping together without anything happening.

Although I have Rizkal's memory, I am not Rizkal. And this is the first time I've invited a pretty girl into a room.

My heart is beating fast.

We sat down on the bed. I waited for Nazdia to open her voice, but Nazdia didn't seem to want to say anything. He just looked down.

"So..," I said in the end after a moment of silence between us.

Nazdia shook her head slowly. "I just want to be around you soon."

"You want to sleep together?"

"Can?"

I'm nodding. We both laid our bodies on the bed, fortunately the mattress area was enough for two people.

We lay with our faces facing each other.

I watched Nazdia's face at a very close distance, this time looking quite sad.

Our eyes stared for a while, then suddenly from the end of his eyes shed tears.

I rubbed her tears slowly with my finger.

Whether this is Rizkal's feeling or not, I don't want to see Nazdia crying.

"I'm ready to listen" I said in a soft voice.

Unexpectedly, Nazdia buried her face in my chest.

"Any anime is great?" nazdia said still burrowing her face in my chest, her voice still sounding clear.

"meaning?"

"While losing such a precious person to him, he could still smile in front of his younger siblings."

Nazdia was right, although the first time Anifsa saw Zazki was gone, she cried so loudly. But after meeting with Zazki's two younger siblings, he looks to be stronger.

"Maybe he didn't want Zazki's two sisters to get sadder when he saw her cry."

"You are right" Nazdia said in a soft voice. "If I were to be her, maybe I would choose not to continue living."

"You can't say that."

"I don't know why we have to live even if it's just suffering that we're going through."

"You suffer with me?"

Nazdia. "But I'm sure there won't be any happiness if we split up."

I did not know how to answer his question and chose to wipe his back slowly.

"You know, I still cry when I remember my papa mama died, just to protect me." Nazdia started sobbing softly in my chest. "If I also lose you, I will no longer be able to continue living."

I don't really understand this kind of situation, after all, it's my first time. One thing I understand is that Rizkal's last wish is to make Nazdia happy.

"We don't know what the future holds, I think rather than thinking of an uncertain future, it's better to think of the present. Thinking about how to make happiness in the moment, which we can become memories for the future. If one day we remember those memories, we can keep living so that they don't disappear from our memories, right?"

Nazdia just sobbed slowly.

"I'm sure you have good memories with your mom and dad."

"You're right" Nazdia said, then distanced her face from my chest.

We stared for a while, Nazdia's eyes still wet after crying. Then with a sudden movement his face approached towards my face.

Then our lips touched.

"Memories like this?" nazdia said after taking her face away from me. His face was flushed and smiled embarrassedly.

"You're right" I said and kissed her lips once more.

First kiss.

To be honest I still feel guilty for taking Rizkal's body all of a sudden and taking everything he's got. One of them was the girl in front of me.

Is it okay?

I touched the skin of Nazdia's cheeks gently. There is still guilt in my heart.

"What's wrong?" nazdia asked, then gently touched my hand that was above her cheek. "Today you've been daydreaming."

I nodded, I motioned the tip of my thumb feeling the smoothness of Nazdia's skin.

"For example," I said slowly, there was doubt when I wanted to tell my anxiety. "For example, the Rizkal before you is not Rizkal, what are you going to do?"

For a moment Nazdia just looked at me, watching my face closely. Although my question was very strange, he did not look surprised in the slightest.

"meaning?"

I convinced myself. "If the present me is the personality of someone with Rizkal's memory."

"I don't understand." Nazdia closed his eyes, looking to think of something. "But there's one thing I want to make sure of?"

I'm nodding.

"Do you remember our promise?"

"Finding happiness together, right?"

Nazdia nodded then smiled very sweetly. She buried her face in my chest once again.

"Whatever happens, I will always love you" Nazdia said very slowly, but I could still hear clearly.

I rubbed his back slowly. "Me too, no matter what happens, I'll make you happy."

For the sake of Rizkal and myself, I promise to try as hard as possible to make Nazdia happy.

Finally, I realized something about my life purpose in this world, for Nazdia's sake I'll try harder.

In my real world, is there someone I want to be happy with?

When I remember my real world, maybe it's the right time to return to my real world.

But how do I summon that little creature.

As I remembered this afternoon, my gaze turned gray once again.

Time stops.

A small light appeared then a moment later came out the little creature I had been waiting for.

She flew around in circles over my bed, until it finally stopped.

"You called me?"

I tried to sit down, but since Nazdia was still burrowing her face in my chest, I had enough trouble moving my body. Then I tried to push Nazdia's body a little away from me. But I realized a strange thing.

I can't touch Nazdia.

Surprised, I got out of my bed.

I stood up and saw Nazdia's body still burrowing her face into my chest, or rather Rizkal's body. Yes, I still saw Rizkal's body even though I was standing.

“What's up? Did you just realize, you are now just a spirit?” said the little creature in front of me by crossing his hands, looking annoyed.

“Did this afternoon also be like this?”

“Aaahhhh...” The little creature sighed in great annoyance. “Will be my long explanation earlier.”

“Sorry,” said I feel guilty. Maybe because I was too surprised by what happened, I did not understand all the words of the little creature.

I looked at my hand and could still give it, but the strange thing was that my hand was now translucent.

“No problem, it's common for me." The little thing laughed out loud and quite startled me. “So, you want to go back to your original world now?”

“Ah is right,” answered me quickly, I still do not understand his behavior.

“Alright, but there are some important things before you return, and this time do not forget it.”

“I understand.”

"First, if we want to enter this world again, you have to hold a black ball while sleeping. If not, you won't come in here.

Second, the black sphere in your real world, only you can see it, not even others can touch let alone see the black sphere. So better keep it in a safe place.

And lastly, my name is Pieria, just call my name, I'll come."

I nodded trying to remember and store it in my brain. But it seems like the explanation this time is shorter than during the afternoon.

Even important things like Pieria's name, were not explained to me. Anyway, now I want to go back to my original world and see if everything Pieria said is all true.

"Wait a minute" I said, remembering something. "Can I go back when I fall asleep tonight."

At least I slept next to the girl I like, after all I feel bad, if I suddenly leave her at a time like this.

"That's the easy thing." Pieria raised her thumb. "Well then, wait, one more thing."

"Ehh…."

"I hope you don't regret coming into this world and still want to continue living here."

"Of course, don't worry."

"Well, I'll see you later."

I nodded, then noticed Pieria turning into a wisp of light.

Before time went back, I quickly lay down as before.

My eyes are colored again.

I gently rubbed Nazdia's back before I tried to close my eyes.

"Good sleep, Nazdia."

"Good sleep too, Rizkal."

***

I opened both my eyes.

A very familiar sight to me. I blinked my eyes a few times, trying to see the numbers on my bedroom wall clock.

16.00.

If I don't remember wrongly, I fell asleep around 14:30.

I sighed softly. I raised my right hand and looked at the black sphere once more.

All of Pieria's sayings are correct, even though I passed through the world for more than 12 hours, but here it only passed 12 minutes huh?

It was like a dream at once like reality.

Even the sad feeling I felt in that world I can still feel right now.

Nazdia, huh?

If I had someone like Nazdia here, maybe my life would be better.

I shook my head slowly.

Even if Nazdia's here, I'm not sure he'll still love me when he sees me like this.

Pathetic, right?

Plus, there are a lot of different things. When I was in Rizkal's body, I felt like I could work hard for Nazdia. But when I returned to my original body, I felt that such a thing was impossible to do in this world.

Besides I don't have close enough girlfriends, even men are almost non-existent. My parents were the same, I felt they didn't love me, they were always busy working. It's like they only raised me for their old-age assets. Of course it's not the wrong thing, but that's why, I feel like I don't have to try hard.

Life in this world is impossible for the sake of others?

Although one day I found the girl I love so much and tried to work hard for her sake. But all that does not guarantee the girl will be faithful. In a world with all the comforts of life, finding someone to replace is not difficult.

Certainly very different compared to the life of Rizkal and Nazdia. After living life and death together, they could not easily change partners.

I woke up from my sleep, and sat on the edge of my bed, my hand still holding a black ball.

I sighed softly.

What I should do.

Given all the events that happened in that world, I shouldn't be lazing around anymore right?

But somehow, not as easy as I thought, in contrast to Rizkal's body that was easily able to do something, my real body felt very heavy to do something.

It's the result of my laziness all this time huh?

At least I want to do something small first.

Push up 5 times, squat jump 20 times and sit up 10 times.

After doing all that, my heart was racing and my breathing was irregular. That is the limit I exercise, if it exceeds that, my body will feel powerful.

I took a deep breath and breathed it out.

Shower time.

As I was about to step out of the room, my gaze was turned to a laptop on my desk. I remember there was a daily quest I hadn't done in any of the games I now really liked.

Ten minutes is okay, right?

I shook my head hard. Steady my heart and walked towards the bathroom.