
This morning I have decided to express my intention and intention to make Ainun my wife even though in reality this is a crazy thing but it could be the right time to apologize.
I know he won't be that easy to forgive me he could hate me but I can't give up even if I won't be living for at least the rest of my life ,I'll do one good.
Ainun must know that I've changed I'm not the Dhika he knows I will fix this relationship anyway if Ainun is pregnant with my child ,I have to take responsibility I don't want my son to be immaculate .
I'm not a good man but I will try to take responsibility for my actions ,I really did judge Anaya that's why I tortured and assumed that Ainun was Anaya because Anaya's actions made me like a mad person I became frustrated and unable to think clearly so darken my eyes, lay a sharp weapon at Anaya and Brano, making them both lifeless,I do not regret killing them because the pain my family experienced was nothing compared to the murder I did that did not scare me to death even when I was sentenced to death no matter what it takes to die tomorrow, tomorrow or today is the same for me, but why should there be a second Anaya coming in my life and making me feel guilty for my actions ,before I didn't care people thought I was a fugitive but after I got to know Ainun like I started falling in love ,I don't know if this is really love or a temporary feeling for me, because my love is actually only for Anaya, not Ainun, and Anaya is dead.
I would love to tell Ainun that he loves her.
That day she came to see me on Rudy's orders somehow to express my feelings, I was so nervous and it was hard to say that I was in love with her,I want to say that if I love him, and what I think happened turns out Ainun rejected this relationship he hates me frankly he said to me ,I can only surrender I know this is indeed appropriate for me where maybe there is a normal woman who wants to marry an inmate ?? as I looked at her face clearly I saw the look in the eyes that hated me so much that I didn't want her to be here with me.
Well, only doctor Rudy who can help me immediately I ask for help from him I express my sincere intention to marry Ainun I think he will be angry with me instead Goddess luck seems to still be on my side,Rudy immediately agreed to my request and persuaded him to accept my last wish before I would leave for good.