Tiny Brother Meatball Handsome
I miss you

The fourth night that the sky must pass without a smile. During that time he had not done any other activities other than waiting for the wife in front of his nursery. He would only go home during the day: sleep an hour, check the report on his laptop, accompany Mamak for a while, then to his wife's house to pick up clothes and other supplies. After that go back to the hospital and sit in front of Bening's outpatient room.

"New Sky come?" Mang Juri who just after buying food greeted the Sky.

"Yes, Mang. What, are there any recent developments?"

"Nothing, Mom. Miss Bening is still the same as yesterday. It was a bit of a rampage, but the Princess Eyeang can calm down," explained Mang Juri.

The sky took a deep breath. Does Bening still think unstable?

The hour hand turned fast, but it was very long for the sky to wait until midnight. Like a few nights ago, he wanted to see Bening when she fell asleep, when his wife's eyes were closed so that the woman he loved did not see her face. He is not ready to meet face to face, he is not ready to meet and only debate questions that will destroy his atmosphere. He's not ready for all that.

"Lang." Mama Has came out of the nursery.

"Yes, is your sister asleep?"

"It has. Come inside!"

Sky nodded.

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"Mother." The sky called out in a soft voice, almost resembling a whisper. He longed to see his wife's pale face but still beautiful for him. He took a slow breath, then sat in a single chair beside his wife's gurney.

"Hay, baby. I'm coming again." The sky greeted the prospective child who was less than 4 weeks old. Of course still with his whisper. The man ventured to stroke Bening's stomach covered in a thick blanket. "Sorry, you always come at night. But you always wait in front."

Mamak said, although the baby in the stomach of his mother could not see the world, but the baby candidate could already hear the voice of his father and mother. The child candidate had already heard every word spoken outside of his world.

One drop of Bening tears escaped hearing every word heard. The sky realized that Bening had not fallen asleep. He immediately got up and wanted to leave, he did not want to disturb and make Bening hysterical again.

"You're always a loser who doesn't want to deal with problems in person!" sizzle Clear.

Sky sculpting. He did not dare to look at his wife.

"You're a coward who can only hide at the door! You found your own wife when she was sleeping! You always avoid."

"I met you in person, would you like to talk to me? Will the child not be angry? Can you be as calm as you sleep?"

"I'd better be a loser, but I can't afford to see Embak's hateful look at me."

Bening was silent, yet sobs began to sound.

"This is what I don't want. I hate to see you cry. I Hate to see the sad. I always wrong myself."

"You don't know what I'm thinking! You don't want to be me!" Bening spoke firmly.

"I never understood the situation. I also never succeeded in mahamin, Ma'am." The voice of Heaven is soft but no less resolute than Bening.

"Squealing!"

"I'm the only one who failed at this, ma'am. I failed to be a husband who could understand his wife. I failed at everything. Even my life failed, my life was a mess. I never understood how to be a good husband, how to be a good father-to-be. I don't know about all that. I just live this life full of drama. I never show what I feel because it doesn't matter. My life has been meaningless for ten years."

"Squealing."

"I'm sorry, Ma'am. I am sorry for failing at everything." The Eye of Heaven pooled the liquid that was ready to escape as his eyelids flickered. While Bening was stunned the first time he saw the man who became her husband looked fragile. Tell her once more if she's evil, she's cruel to make her husband so.

"Squealing." From then on he was only able to call without being able to say what became his burden. My tongue with a voice stuck in my throat.

Bening tried to grab Sky's hand and clasped tightly. "Squealing."

"I'm not going to force you to conceive my child. If Mbak is not ready and wants to abort our child candidate, I will not forbid."

"Squealing!"

"Mother."

"Shut up!"

"You keep talking. I just want to be hugged, not hear what you say."

In his sadness, the sky smiled faintly. "I miss you, Embrok."

"I am too."

The sky wanted to end their embrace, but Bening's hands grew tighter and tighter around his waist. He was only able to feel the warmth of the embrace that he had not felt for four days.

"Why should Embak hear my long ultimatum, it could just melt away."

"Because of your long ultimatum of awakening your mind and defeating my ego."

The sky loosened his embrace, he lowered his head and aligned his face with a Bening face. Both of his hands wiped his clear cheeks.

"You never fail. You always manage to beat my ego. But ...."

The sky frowned, waiting for the sentence that his wife would say.

"But .. although I keep this child, it is not my acceptance. For me this remains difficult."

Deg ....

The sky blinked slowly. "What if Ma'am can't accept the boy now. I thank you for still wanting to keep our child. Although Embak has not received it now, but I believe, there is a time when Embak received his presence."

"You're disappointed? You hate me?"

"Reluctant for sure, but not to hate. Consider this both of us's fault. So, let's go together. We go slowly because I don't know what to do either. Obviously, I am very affectionate and very much waiting for our future child to be born."

The pale lips that for four days did not curl the smile were now able to publish a thin smile.

The Hand of Heaven held both of his cheeks and kissed his wife's forehead deeply. At least things are better now than ever. He understands that Bening is a typical woman who cannot be forced. A woman who will only soften if she gives up. No problem, all for the sake of the integrity of the household are also prospective children.

"Mdaddy better?"

"Hem."

The sky smiled and sat down in the chair.

"Am I being too selfish?" ask Bening.

"Rubber."

"Squealing!"

"No. Not being selfish. They just want to be understood. If there's something, by the way, don't shut up."

"I'm not ready to get pregnant. You know that."

"Yes I know. I am not guilty of embak. Just want Embak to take our baby slowly."