
It showed at 08:15 am, right on Sunday I was allowed outpatient by the doctor. The wind this morning made me breathe a sigh of relief because doctor Brama had given me a sedative after I said what was going on. Vaguely, yet I felt that a strange event had happened to me before.
"How are you doing?" Ask the doctor when driving.
"Okay sir" I replied
"Is there something you have planned?" Ask.
I paused for a moment thinking of a planing that I should make while glancing at the mother dian wife of the doctor brama hoping he could give advice to end the question. however, he did not make any statement.
"Yes sir" I replied.
"Where are you going?" Ask dian's mom, though,
"Trus dinda how about you go?" Ask back. My eyes were on dinda.
"Dinda's a good boy, if you like your father and mother, can you stay with you?" I asked with a sad face that I could not cover.
The sadness was really unstoppable, my throat felt like it was being strangled by someone else. I honestly don't want to part with Dinda because she's the only person who's very close to me, but with this kind of situation, it doesn't feel right to be next to someone like me.
"We are indeed planning to adopt the two of you, can you also stay?" Ask mother dian with a look of pity on me.
I gave him a warm smile and I unintentionally replied, "Want to know about my identity is bigger ma'am, so after a few days of rest at Brama's and mom's house, I was planning to leave"
There was no holding back so that I wouldn't leave maybe because they didn't want to enter my privacy so they easily agreed to the decision I had made.
A few days have passed, as usual I always take you to go to his new school. Nothing strange, everything went as usual,
"is this because the drug works?" Askaqua. The car stopped right in front of the Cempaka SDN school.
"A diligent school yah dinda" I said with a smile and hugged her.
"Zia, take me to yah" he said
"She" I replied with a short tone and the best smile.
After the dinda turned around, my eyes were glued to see a girl who was coming with her father at that time. Their faces looked familiar. My heart felt tight and wanted to feel like I was calling while running towards him. But I don't know why I can't do that at all.
"Can we go home now De' Zia?" ask bayu sir.
"Ah yes sir" I replied. It seems like my feelings and hallucinations will happen again.
The sound of the car rang, the baby sir drove it and left the elementary school. On the way posters of the perpetrators of the orphanage burning were installed on trees and electricity poles, but more than a week had passed and still the perpetrator had not been found at all.
The car went in the right direction, I leaned back on the car to close my eyes for a moment, suddenly my hands hurt and my eyes could not open. The sound of the car stopping seemed to signal that we had arrived home,
"it's too soon" I thought. An unpleasant feeling as if to tell a strange event will happen again.
My eyes then slowly opened, the dew that was felt with cloudy weather as if it was going to rain at that time.I was faced with a reality that made me again confused, I was confused,
My glances everywhere, no cars and baby packs, around the house felt empty and empty. The door of the house immediately opened by itself while showing a short-haired woman sitting behind me seriously staring at a photo, her posture was unfamiliar, it seemed like some time ago I had met her.
"Excuse me!!" My speech. There was no answer on the scale, I glanced at the glass window facing the woman.
"Ah, I remember, she was the woman I saw in the hospital yesterday" I said.
Suddenly a 13-year-old boy came down from the stairs, his face completely invisible, he walked up to the woman and then slowly looked at me.
My eyes grew bigger, my voice could not come out. Half-shoulder hair, with white skin looking a lot like my body once, his smile grinning, he ran quickly towards me while carrying a small white knife.
he was getting closer to me but my gaze was immediately diverted to a man who had been staring at me while stroking the hair of the adult woman.
"He again" I said. The knife was getting closer and my body couldn't move.
"De' zia, de' zia wake up, we've arrived" reprimanded the baby.
"Well, sir" I replied with a feeling of shock and confusion, actually what had happened to me, the same incident as if it happened again, the pain in my hand had felt, actually, I glanced at the hand I was wearing opening the car door.
"Ah mantra again," I said in shock because all the memories suddenly crossed my mind.
This hallucination began to come again, my hand spontaneously hitting the head several times, rubbing my eyes many times and quickly I tried to wipe them as hard as I could even my clothes became one of the tools I used to be the eraser of the spell marks.
It felt cold as if a chunk of ice was fusing with my skin,
"Aaaahh why does it feel so hot?" I was confused trying to blow the spell sign.
"What's de' zia?? Why haven't you come out?" Ask bayu sir.
"yes sir, I'm going out" I replied as I pulled the jacket to cover the spell sign in my hand. Not yet out, suddenly a short memory crossed my mind. My body was silent within a few minutes.
"What was that?" I was confused because the memory was suddenly gone. I tried to digest and recall what had crossed my mind, but still the memories I could not find.
"What's this about?". An uneasy feeling tried to envelop my whole heart and mind. Everything happened after incident seemed to gnaw me. There's nothing I can do. I'm still confused about everything.
"Why did this happen to me" I complained as I opened the door. My feet slowly stepped onto the porch of Mr. Brama's house. A beautiful house is just an illusion.
"Is this real?"
"Or is it just part of my imagination?" I asked in disbelief at what had happened so far. Even I realized with some memories that had previously been lost now returned by itself without any coercion from my body.
"Is Dinda really alive?" My greeting in doubt. Mr. Bayu who saw my silent behavior slowly walked towards me.
"What's de'? Is there forgetfulness?" Ask.
"Ah, no sir" I replied with a smile as I walked side by side with him entering Mr. Brama's house.