The Angel of Heaven I Wasted
Feel Guilty

Next Day 

Time shows at half-five in the morning.

Reyfan opened his eyes and turned out to have entered the dawn prayer time.

"Why didn't Nisa wake me?" Reyfan muttered as he got out of his bed.

Usually at dawn, Nisa always knocks on the door and wakes her up for morning prayers. But today turned out to be quiet.

"Nisa, can't she wake me up, is she still mad at me?"

Reyfan headed for the bathroom to ablaze after which he came out of his room and knocked on the door.

"Tok tok Nisa! Lisa!"

"Just a second!" sounds coming from outside the door.

Moments later Nisa opens the door still with her shari'i clothes and a veil covering her face 

"Can you not wake me up praying dawn?"

"No, you can wake up alone now, right?" nisa answered a little.

"Yes, you don't pray at dawn?"

"So, I'm PMS again. From now on make it a habit to pray at dawn in the mosque, because a man is required to pray fardhu in the mosque."

Reyfan looked at Nisa's eyes that looked sad and as fragile as possible the woman had finished crying.

A few moments flinching, because Reyfan didn't know what to say anymore.

'I'll close the door to his room first."

After the door closed, Reyfan woke up.

Reyfan came down from the top floor to the car, but had not yet entered dawn prayer.

Although he said he forgave Reyfan, in fact there are still wounds that imprint in Annisa's heart.

Nisa has tried many times to forget Reyfan's words, but the insults continue to ring in her ear, making Anisa more insecure.

***

Reyfan down for breakfast. As usual, he only had breakfast alone. Reyfan usually feels lonely when he has to eat breakfast alone in the morning.

Usually Anisa will prepare breakfast for him, even though they never eat breakfast or eat together.

Reyfan polished the bread, he began to feel that there was a difference in Anisa's attitude towards him.

After breakfast, Reyfan went to the office. The days passed as usual, just as before Anisa was present in that house.

Along the way to the office, Reyfan still feels guilty towards Anisa, he once said more insulting things Anisa, but before Anisa was not angry, even Nisa was willing to lead him to return to the good road. Nisa is also willing to help him find the soul mate of a beautiful and sholeh woman. But after seeing the woman he married without love crying, Reyfan was not calm. Moreover, he felt that Anisa was now starting to avoid him.

Arriving at the office, Reyfan tried to busy himself so as not to think too much about the changes that happened to Anisa.

Tok tok door digedor from outside. 

"Just enter!" 

"Good morning, Rey!"greet one of the men.

"Eh loh bro . What's the matter early in the morning with my nyamperin?" reyfan asked without looking at the newly arrived Arya.

Reino sat down in front of Reyfan, though he was not welcome to sit down.

"Rey, the cave needs some help."

"What help?"

"Gue got caught cheating, bro."

Reyfan turned towards Reino.

"Well still cheating bro, got a beautiful wife, sexy and femes?" ask Reyfan. Reino's wife was a pretty famous celebrity.

"Well, I often end up in my cooperation. Busy him, than me."

"Who cheated on me why bring me."

"There's no bini bro. Cave found out, bill groceries my affair found my wife, but I still ngeles, I say that it's a shopping loh, not accidentally carried to me."

"Who did I say I didn't have a bini? I'm married."

"Yes, but you want a little bit of a bini."

" Say who?"

"Come Rey, please help me dong. Can be sued divorce me if I know bini I'm cheating, the news will definitely be viral."

"No, you also have to keep my wife feeling dong."

"Well Rey, your wife won't know. This time, just help me. Lo says that loh and Danisha are dating, you're afraid of getting caught bini loh, so you borrow a cave credit card."

'Ah loh crazy yes Rein, later I'm the one who actually got in trouble."

Cring.Reino's phone reads.

Reino reached into his pants pocket.

"From here I am Bro. Please Bro, you help me."

"Hello Honey," said Reino .

"Hello Reino where are you?"

'I'm in Reyfan's office again, taking responsibility from Reyfan, because he borrowed a cave credit card, we got into a fight."

Reyfan widened his eyeballs.

"Where's Reyfan, I want to talk!" 

Reino gave the phone to Reyfan.

"Please help the cave" Reino said, pleading.

Reyfan would not agree to it. Reyfan grabbed the phone offered by Reino..

"Hello,"who's the woman across the phone.

"Yes Karina."

"Fan, did you really borrow Reino's credit card to buy your girlfriend?" ask Karina.

"Yes, let me not get caught. Yes, yes," Reyfan said, hanging up the phone. Reyfan deliberately did not want to talk much, the problem of Reino's wife believes she does not believe the important bodo period she has petrified Reino.

"That's done. Now go home, I have a lot of work." Reyfan gave Reino's cell phone.

"Thanks yes bro, later if I get caught again, I ask for help again Rey."

"Huh, so you still want to continue with the same cheating loh that?"

"Still dong, redundant if thrown away. I'll pull it out."

Reyfan turned his head towards Reino who was slowly moving away from him.

"Say Karin was the most perfect woman for her, but she still loved me" Reyfan murmured.

"Humans are not satisfied, because no one is perfect in this world." Reyfan monologue.

Suddenly, he came to his own words.

"Iya manusia memang tak ada yang sempurna, karena itulah rasanya sulit mencari pendamping hidup yang benar-benar sesuai dengan yang kita inginkan," gumamnya lagi.

Reyfan jadi teringat kembali dengan Anisa, istri yang selama ini ia tuntut kesempurnaannya.

***

Nisa menyendiri di dalam kamarnya. Sejak kejadian itu Anisa lebih senang berada di dalam kamar sendiri. 

Hanya sesekali dia keluar dan itupun hanya untuk makan saja.

Nisa menunggu jatuhnya talak  yang dijanjikan oleh Reyfan padanya dan itu masih beberapa hari lagi.

Satu sisi Anisa ingin segera mengakhiri hubungan ini secepatnya. Namun disisi lainnya dia takut membuat orang tuanya bersedih, padahal kedua orang tuanya tentu berharap, jika ini adalah pernikahan terakhirnya.

"Ya Allah, bagaimana cara memberi tahu ayah dan ibu hamba, mereka pasti sedih dengan kabar perpisahan ini. Hamba  juga pasti akan dicap sebagai wanita doyan kawin cerai di lingkungan masyarakat disana, Astaghfirullah.' 

Nisa kembali meneteskan air matanya seraya berdoa.

"But how else, O God. It hurts for the servant to survive, in addition to the servant husband who does not want the servant, he also likes to bring up the status of the servant as a widow, whereas when Ijab kabul is pronounced, the status of the servant widow has fallen, but why does he always bring it up."

Annisa continued to complain to her Lord, whatever was discussed, because she thought God was the best place to complain. After complacently complaining, Annisa was a little calm, he prayed with a fervent and airy heart.

"O Allah I believe your destiny will always be better than what you desire and hope. Servant leave to you all these paths of life let them flow like flowing water."

***

In the afternoon Reyfan came home from work and went straight to his house. His eyes looked towards Anisa's room.

Usually every time she came, Anisa would always ask him. 

Have you been praying Ashar? Had Dzuhur prayer, but now there is no more question. Anisa still locked herself in the room.

A few days passed and Reyfan still had never met and heard Anisa's voice though.

There was not even a sound of a door being knocked down at dawn to wake her up . Nisa is like disappearing in the earth.

***

This morning Reyfan opened the door to his room he could not stand, it felt like he wanted to meet and talk to Anisa despite a word.

"Is he still angry because of what he said yesterday? How can I apologize for Anisa no longer avoiding me?

Reyfan approached Anisa's bedroom door, about to bang on her. He heard water running in the bathroom.

"Ehm, I'll see him in the afternoon. It seems that seducing a woman needs a special surprise" Reyfan murmured with a smile.

Reyfan was forced to postpone meeting with Annisa again.