
Actually Ben did not even want to remember the days where his childhood was nothing about happiness, all it just contained about blows, abuse, abuse, and all the things that made him prolonged trauma.
All his life he wanted to get rid of that memory even though it made him have to take many pills given by Gavriel, even though it was all for free, Ben was even more disgusted with all the women, even more, because Ben considers all women dirty like his mother, throughout his age Ben remained depressed and traumatized until he himself could not help it.
Job yes...