Officer Wing 2. (The Fighter )
104. SP2'S. 7. Confident among doubts.
"You still don't believe your son needs a mother figure?" ask Papa Wira.
"I really understand pa, but if forced, I will only hurt Jihan because my heart is still for Asya, couldn't bear to see Jihan crying because of my carelessness." Bang Rico replied.
"I also don't mean to be high-hearted or over-confident thrusting my daughter who can't possibly pull in your eyes or minus in your heart." Dan Garin said.
"One day you will understand if you have a daughter. Father only seeks the best for his daughter even though destiny is still God's deciding." And Garin left the place.
Bang Rico felt bad, but really all of this was so heartbreaking. He also wondered why the two wanted him and Jihan so much together.
"Sihan why?" Ask Bang Rico to stop Dan Garin's steps.
"Obviously, Jihan doesn't want to hurt anyone for remembering her past" Dan Garin replied, continuing on.
Bang Rico sat down violently.
"Astagfirullah." he said as he rubbed his chest.
Papa Wira pats Bang Rico on the shoulder.
"Papa lives Ric. Hope your heart isn't hot anymore"
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Honey, are you angry if you give Gazha a mother. Not to replace yourself in your heart, but in this world there are many things you cannot face.
Bang Rico looked up, eyes closed powerless to hold back tears. His tightly clenched hands held back the longing and burden on his chest.
tock.tok..
Soon Bang Tino's voice knocked on Bang Rico's office door.
"Good afternoon.. Letda Tino's permission to face" he said officially.
"Get in..!!" Bang Rico took a breath and tried to behave normally like nothing had happened.
"Opo Tin?" ask Bang Rico.
"Ijin. there's a radiogram.. Brother moved to Kalimantan" replied Bang Tino.
Bang Rico sighed uneasily feeling his life getting heavier. He saw the desk calendar. Means two more weeks of skeps down. Total in the next month he had to move to Kalimantan.
A heat suddenly enveloped his body. Bang Rico unbuttoned his uniform.
"Make some members.. I'm asking you to help me pack the goods..!!"
"Ready Bang. soon..!!"
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"Tante Jihan isn't coming, Dad?" ask Gazha.
"Not a Bang. Just follow me" replied Bang Rico.
"If Aunt Jihan doesn't come, Gazha doesn't want to go either" Gazha runs back to Bang Pandu's house.
braaakk..
Bang Rico kicked the door.
"Why doesn't anyone want to understand how I feel?? Why do I have to face such a difficult choice????" said rough.
"Huuusshhh.. what the hell is Ric, don't be..!! many of your members" reprimanded Bang Pandu then pulled the arm of Bang Rico.
"Sit down first, coffee.we chat together" asked Bang Pandu.
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Gazha sleeps a lot, her body has a fever. Bang Rico has compressed it but the fever has not yet gone down. Bang Rico's chest tight feels like a failure to be a father.
"Dad to lose or give up, son? You're the only treasure I have" muttered Bang Rico.
"Look at your son deck, he misses you so much, he needs you. No matter how much I give him love, no one can replace a mother's affection" Bang Rico curled up, stroking Gazha's feet. He wanted to keep his eyes closed, but he was very afraid of losing.
***
Three days passed.
Gazha still has a fever and inevitably.. Bang Rico took him to the army hospital.
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"Should be treated yes sir, Hb his down." said the doctor.
Bang Rico was admitted to Gazha hospital.
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"Youngpam..!!!!" Gazha kept on delirious, crying and screaming.
"Yes dear.this is the same Dad used to be" persuaded Bang Rico, but until his neck hurt.. Gazha remained silent.
"Mamaaaa.. Mamaa Jihaaan" Gazha's crying voice was so bitter that Bang Rico completely relented. He took his phone.
"Assynolajet.. Jihan" said Bang Rico to throw away her sense of prestige.
Bang Rico smiled bitterly.
"This Brother.. can be a little troublesome? Can you go to the hospital? Gazha's in the care, she's looking for you"
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Bang Rico peeked out of the window leaving Jihan and Gazha alone in the nursery. Gazha looks like she wants to eat, very happy and it makes Bang Rico's chest tight.
"Do you have a decision?" tanya Bang Pandu who all brought Bang Rico dinner and visited his nephew.
Bang Rico sat down, his face glaring uncertainly.
"I don't know Bang, all the options are heavy for me" Bang Rico replied.
Jihan came out of Gazha's room.
"Will I move on?"
"Yes, what's Gazha's story?" ask Bang Rico.
Jihan could only nod.
"Gazha said what?" Bang Rico started to worry.
"Gazha was sad that you wanted to move" Jihan's face could not cover what was in her heart.
"Abang wants to see Gazha first" said Bang Pandu did not want to interfere with the conversation of Jihan and Bang Rico.
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"If you leave. Are you sad or not?" ask Bang Rico.
Jihan doesn't know what to say. The meeting between him and Bang Rico was so short. Nor does he want to incorrectly answer questions that might mean something else.
"No Bang.. Jihan is nobody Brother" Jihan replied firmly.
"Jihan.. Would you pretend to love Gazha? I'll pay you for it"
"Can the heart be forced to pretend to be dear?" jihan's real question was irritated by Bang Rico's words.
"What a pity can we fertilize without love" asked Jihan again.
"Allah is Most Merciful. No one can resist love for His trusted servant" Bang Rico replied.
"If it is heavy.. Brother doesn't force"
"No need to pretend, Jihan loves Gazha" Jihan replied and left Bang Rico.
***
"Lettu Enrico's. Please allow me to face"
"What's the problem Ric?" tanya And Garin.
"Ijin.. Can I bring Jihan to Kalimantan?"
"You're crazy..!! What people say later. I'm not letting you take Jihan" refused Dan Garin.
"I beg for my son.. Gazha" said Bang Rico.
"You want to make Jihan a nanny? Jihan still has to finish her studies. Jihan I didn't go to college to be your son's babysitter" and Garin deliberately answered fiercely and raised the volume of her voice.
Bang Rico took off his beret then bent his leg, kneeling before Dan Garin.
"I beg Dan"
"No. Your guts are so great to bring a virgin child, to me. My daughter is precious even though Jihan means nothing to you" Dan Garin once again refused.
Bang Rico crawled.His hands were shaking. Not until he expressed his feelings.. Jihan opens the door to Dan Garin's borrowed room and headquarters to complete the task.
"Jihan is ready to join Brother to Kalimantan"
"What the fuck are you. Women want to be brought by men. Even though you are bad, you must have faith" snapped Papa Garin.
"I am asking for the Commander's daughter, I will not run away and if I violate the commander's trust, I am willing to accept any punishment from the commander" Bang Rico's request was trying to find a way out of the tough negotiations.
"Just boy. No. no lamar-lamaran. Women who are married alone can still cry because of men, let alone a proposal because they are forced. Get out now.. I'm busy..!!" And Garin saw both hands in front of the chest, his face was visibly agar.
"Ehmm.. means that Jihan is not a virgin can follow Brother khan pa?" jihan asked with his face.
"Opo Jihaan's.. Try talking again???" dan Garin's voice rose, his fangs seemed to grow all of a sudden.
Astagfirullah.. What is this Jihan talking about?? I tried to talk carefully why his lips came from ceplos only.
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