My Sugar (Jenifer Alexander)
Chapters 80. Start from zero

I kept quiet, walked slowly in Kenzo's footsteps until I got to the place he said his apartment was. I don't know why Kenzo also rented an apartment in the same building as me and brother Nicho. And only 1 floor.

It seems like brother Nicho is hiding something from me. They must've been conspiring behind my back.

It's so annoying, Nicho.!

"Don't leave me like this Je," he said as we entered.

Was I wrong for being cold to her.? While Kenzo om who has made me hurt and so behave like this. I felt strange and awkward towards him.

"It's only 30 minutes. Better not waste your time."

"After all, instead of getting married, why meet me,,"

I had no intention of looking at her who was currently sitting next to me. I feel like there's a barrier between us. Unlike before that incident, I easily sat next to Kenzo with a very close distance, not even infrequently I sat on his lap.

"Je, I told you once that I was going to cancel my marriage to Nadine."

"I came here to pick you up, as I promised 3 weeks ago."

"My marriage and Nadine will never happen because I've canceled it,,"

"We were engaged more than 1 year ago in business, our relationship is not what you imagine. Nadine even has a lover, and she is currently pregnant,,"

After a long time I was silent to hear Kenzo's explanation, now I started to look at him because I was curious about the last sentence said by Kenzo.

"What's Alex's brother.?" Tanyaku.

"You know Alex.?" Kenzo asked me with a surprised expression.

I nodded slowly.

"He's Celina's older cousin," I said.

Apparently Nadine and Alex's relationship has gone that far.

I don't know what to react to after hearing about Kenzo's wedding that turned out to be canceled.

There was a bit of pleasure sneaking into my heart, but I didn't expect anything from him either. I'm tired, I really want to calm down and start a better life.

Right now romance is no longer on my priority list for a period of time that I cannot determine.

Heartache and disappointment, able to make a big impact on my life.

"I didn't mean to lie to you Je. Sorry if it disappointed you."

Om Kenzo grabbed my hand, grasped it with both hands.

"We're starting this relationship again, I really - really Je."

"Do we need to get married as soon as possible,,?"

Om Kenzo looked at me expectantly, also looking regretful from the look in his eyes.

He had lied to me to make me hurt like this, it was appropriate that he had regrets about it.

I took my hand out of Kenzo's.

"Whatever the reason, lying to someone is not allowed. More about feelings."

"I'm already disappointed om, at this time I don't even want to talk about romance, what else is marriage," I said firmly without hesitation.

"Now we consider that this problem is solved. No need to talk about it anymore."

"I want to focus on college here." I pulled Kenzo's hand to shake his hand.

"We're temenan now. I want to calm down without any hatred and heartache left."

I would rather end up closing the book. Thought nothing ever happened between me and Kenzo. It's the only way I can live my life like I used to, when I haven't loved her and been hurt by her.

"Start from zero o'm," I said with a smile, then let go of my hands. I feel much better now.

"Je,," he exclaimed with a sad look. I know Kenzo must have objected to my decision. He wanted our relationship to continue, and I asked him to start over like when he first met.

"I'll give you some time to calm down, but don't be like this.,,"

"How can we start from the beginning.? After what we've done Je." For the umpteenth time Kenzo again clasped my hand.

"I have to take responsibility for what I've done. So stay by my side,,"

Om Kenzo took me into his arms, he hugged me tightly.

"But om, I, I,,,

"I'll wait until you finish college."

"Stay by my side because I love you so much,,,"

I just stared in Kenzo's om's arms, not knowing what to answer.

Om Kenzo took off his embrace, put one hand on my left cheek.

"Look at me Je," he asked as he continued to stare at my two beads. I followed until our eyes clashed with each other for a while.

"You're just disappointed Je, I'm sure you still have feelings for me." He said after a long time looking at me.

I shook my head slowly.

"I'm wrong, I don't have any feelings now. There's pain and disappointment, but I'm trying not to get caught up in the pain and disappointment I've been given,,"

I slowly removed Kenzo's hand from my cheek. I choose to move from my seat.

"I have to get back to Nicho's apartment, man,,,"

Om Kenzo held my hand, he stood right in front of me.

At that time also om Kenzo grabbed my waist and nape, the kiss I could not avoid because suddenly - just clenched my lips.

This heart feels like it's going to explode, I can't control my heart beating any faster.

Immediately I push Kenzo's chest.

"Don't be like this.!"

"Why.? You're scared because you still have feelings for me.?" Kenzo's eyes could not be separated from my two beads, he was still holding me by wrapping his hands around my waist.

I don't know what I'm feeling right now that makes my heart beat. Maybe because of Kenzo who kissed me suddenly. What's more after that wound-filled incident, which made me feel alien to Kenzo, but then he kissed me. It's natural that my heart beats like I felt a kiss for the first time.

"I told you, no more feelings." Reply sure. I'm breaking away from Kenzo.

"Om coming here or come with me back to Nicho's apartment..?" My bargain.

It's one way to make peace with the situation. Act as usual with Kenzo, as when he first met her.

Om Kenzo looks to be breathing heavily.

"You alone, I'm cape. Just arrived," he said flatly.

Om Kenzo immediately threw himself on the sofa.

"I came out first, om," Without waiting for his approval, I came out immediately.

When I went back to Nicho's apartment, the atmosphere sounded noisy. It seems Edwin's brother has done it again.

"Style - ngabisin style 2 bottles,,!" Cibir brother Marchel.

"Did.! 2 Boto is nothing. I can do more than that,,!" Brother Edwin looks drunk, I'm so hesitant to join again. Still standing not far from them.

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