My CRUEL husband (S1&S2)
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...Soundtrack//tell me-kim na young//...

...Should I give up and end it all?...

...-mina-is...

   I tremble in fear in Astan's arms, still don't know where he'll take me? Not into the house because he passed through the door, where exactly would he take me? I'm really scared right now, what if he's really gonna kill me? I'm sorry, I really miss you sir.

Wait why is it so dark? Where'sisthis? Is this behind the house? There were no lights or lighting, not to mention the weather was very unfriendly, it was cold as if my entire joints were painful because of the cold.

Tuk..

"Akhh" I grimaced with the shock of the astan mass throwing my body into a dark room and so narrow that I hit a slightly sharp object, my knee was so sore that my knee was bleeding? I don't know because it's so dark.

"Try pondering all your mistakes and your fucking family in this place, because your consciousness is still lacking, do you think a dark place like this is more creepy and painful than my sister's place now?My sister is now in the land of origin you know, dark and uncomfortable and it's all because of that damn guy your father's status, that,I want to know how he reacted when he found out that his daughter also felt the same way, grateful that you did not bury me in a state of still breathing, he said,but just look if your behavior still does not know myself I will not hesitate to bury you alive."kecam mas Astan with a voice full of emphasis did not forget with his loud voice and closed the door of the warehouse very loudly.

I was trembling in fear, I was so afraid of the darkness, it felt so stifling, I remembered the time when I was alone again, there was no Father and no mother, it all seemed to go from my side.

But what Astan said is true, if Brother Dyva suffers more there, in the soil that is very uncomfortable, but how can I make Astan feel better?.

You accidentally hit Dyva's sister until I can no longer be saved, I've tried to make amends to you by willingly marrying her and treated unnaturally, you know,I no longer know how to make Astan better.

I held back my tears with great difficulty, I was so scared to death.

"Hiks, my father, I miss you." I can't hold back my tears anymore, I feel so claustrophobic, I've held back my tears for a long time, and it's only at times like this that I can vent my pain.

I live like a prisoner, everything I do is never right, I am treated like a non-human, he does not hesitate to beat and insult me,I have often received insults and insults because since I was a child living alone there were no mothers and fathers busy working in this city, father only came home if I was sick and had problems.

Do I deserve to live?I'm tired actually after the departure of my mother I never felt happy life, always suffered, what is true that people say that I should also go with my mother, she said,since I was just a child who brought bad luck to my father and mother, I hated myself.

If only I hadn't forced you to go play to the night market when you were sick you would have survived and all three of us came out safely from that house, I killed you,I'm the one who made my mother die, I'm the one who made my father suffer, he also had to work hard for my school to go to the city Work as a taxi driver and accidentally hit Dyva's sister,I'm the one who made you a murderer and even almost arrested, I'm the unlucky bearer, it's true that Astan said that if I was a despicable woman, I had no right to live, I should have died.

I cried so much, it was painful to know and realize we are the ones who hurt so many people why should I be born if I have to be this evil? Why should I be in this world, I shouldn't exist because I can only give hurt and misfortune to many people.

I grabbed my hair hard, what else do I have? I can't see how many more people I'm going to make suffer, I've never made anyone feel at ease, I've only given cuts and wounds.

I'm so frustrated right now and without me realizing I'm slamming my own forehead into a pole that's near me, don't know what that pole is because it's so dark in here, it was so painful and I could feel something running down my face, I could guess it was blood because maybe my forehead was injured when I smashed it into the pole.

"Akhh."I felt a pain of course, but my heart was more painful because of the guilt that was getting worse, The door opened hard, I jumped in shock and saw the flashlight from the door.

My tears are falling unbearably, I feel guilty every time I see the face of Astan, he must have suffered so much and been hurt, I have felt the pain of losing someone we love so much, he said,and it feels very painful for sure Astan also feels the same way.

"Hiks, forgive me lord of torment, forgive me, I apologize torment," I bowed before him, perhaps prostrating before him will not be able to treat his heartache and longing for Dyva's sister.

He was still standing with a surprised face looking at me, he did not flinch and still faithfully watch me who looked so messy, my hair was messy because I was Pond earlier and blood was still flowing on my face"What are you doing stupid?"tanya mas astan approached and looked at my bloody forehead.

I was still crying and apologizing, I couldn't bear to see her face, I felt tightness in my chest every time I saw her because I thought of mom, I must be disappointed to have had a child like me.

"Hiks, forgive me, lord of torment, I must how to make you feel better, forgive me." I bowed down to him, I can't stand it now, it hurts so much.

"Stop being stupid and get up now!!"it stands.

I also according to try to stand but I collapsed, I forgot that my knee was injured until I could not stand"Akhh."I fell again.

I tried to stand up again but I still couldn't, it felt so painful.

I held my cry in her cradle, I felt more and more guilty to the astan mas.

My tears are removed and I remove before he falls, I don't want to if Astan gets irritated if he sees me still crying like this.

Mas Astan sat me in the front room sofa, because it felt inappropriate I also moved to go down even though my knee felt very sore but had not yet dropped.

"Be quiet!dare to move you I finish," he said so loudly that I could not move at all.

He came from the room carrying a p3k and sat down next to me.

He opened the p3k box and picked up the cotton and alcohol, he came closer to me and started to clean the wound on my forehead, I avoided it because it was not good to bother Astan.

"Hiks, let me just sir, forgive me my torment, I'm sorry sir," I said still crying like that, it was very difficult to hold back my tears especially when the Astan was in front of me, it was getting stifling.

He did not heed my words, he still insisted on cleaning my wounds, I became more sick, got this warm treatment I felt unworthy, I deserved his tantrums more than this, he said,I feel like a bad guy.

"Hiks," I shut my mouth so he wouldn't hear my cries.

He still cleaned the wound on my forehead thoroughly, and I still faithfully questioned how I could stop fighting when I was warm like this.

"What's the pain until you keep fighting that?"ask mas astan, and this time not with a loud voice as I usually hear, this sounds Warm in my ears, it feels like the voice of my father while worrying about me.

My tears were getting louder and I nodded back to the question of the astan mas, he blew my wound slowly and gently, I was still crying.

"Be quiet, I don't like to see a girl fighting like this" he said blowing my wound and putting cotton wool on the wound and held with a flaster so as not to fall.

I nodded again but my tears did not stop flowing"I'm sorry sir, I'm sorry."I closed my mouth so as not to cry anymore.

Wh why?why does it look like dyva?when menagis dyva looks desperate like this

Suddenly I felt a warm embrace of the astan mas"Silence, "he said softly.

How can I be silent?I wouldn't be able to keep quiet if he was this warm, he should now insult me and even whip me again, that would be better than being warm like this, because if he acts like this I feel more guilty and want to keep fighting.

My cry broke out in my arms, while apologizing for feeling guilty.

...//Connected//...

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What's the matter?

Why did Astan suddenly act this warm?

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