Miss Most Perfect Beauty
Scarlesia's Despair
“Kak, I'm empty..”.
How poignant Carlen felt to find Scarlesia in the midst of despair, the speck of rain and lightning striking in the sky described the destruction very felt by his sister. There was no life in his pupils, no glimmer of light to obliterate the void. The crack in his heart, can it heal and return as it was? The little girl's soft heart was now falling dropping the hope that had been built from the beginning.
Carlen touched Scarlesia's cheek, there was no residual warmth in her white skin. Both of his eyes did not blink, a heartache approached Carlen. He was eager to help Scarlesia out from the snare of thorns wrapped around his soul, he was eager to replace his sister's position to feel the pain. However, what is the power of self because he is unable to do it and can only give a hug in order to encourage him to rise from a deep slump.
“Why do you have to suffer like this? Why do you have to endure this matter all by yourself? I am your brother, but why can't the pain be transferred to me? I can no longer see you sick. Why can't I do anything for you? Sia, please settle down and please be strong. I will always be by your side without leaving you, brother loves you Sia.”
Carlen's innermost feelings were poured out, although Scarlesia was now unable to accept the outpouring of her feelings but she still told Scarlesia. Carlen could only be a buffer milestone for Scarlesia not to fall any deeper. Carlen's tears fell down immediately, but soon his tears were wiped away by the rain that washed over him.
“Already, now we go home yes. I will have the doctor treat your wounds, from today I will replace the role of Father to take care of you. Therefore, you don't have to feel alone because there's me and Aldert who will protect you. Hug me as you please if the pain strikes you again, I will not let you suffer again Sia. This is the last time, you won't lose anyone again. Please trust some of your happiness to me,” Carlen said in a trembling voice.
Then Carlen took Scarlesia back to the palace, in this stormy weather he forced himself to go against the wind and rain. Since the day Eldrick died, Carlen had not slept and rested at all, Scarlesia's condition made him so worried that he could not put his body to sleep at all.
“YOUR ROYAL HIGHNESS THE EMPEROR HAS BEEN FOUND!”
The chaos in the palace momentarily subsided after they saw Carlen directly holding Scarlesia home.
“Call the doctor immediately! His Majesty seems to be seriously injured,” Victor ordered.
Carlen took a quick step towards the room, he laid Scarlesia's still-drenched body on the bed. Her personal servants Scarlesia immediately replaced Carlen to take care of Scarlesia further. Shortly after, a doctor entered the room and immediately checked Scarlesia's condition and bandaged her wound using a bandage.
“What happened to Sia sister? Why is he back in a state of injury?” tanya Aldert had just arrived with Xeon and the others.
“I found Sia in the middle of the forest stabbing her heart using a dagger, luckily I came just in time and I removed the dagger from her hand,” Carlen replied.
“But why the wound cannot be closed perfectly? Doesn't Sia have healing powers?” ask Elios.
“That's because he is in a state of mental shock, his strength will not work perfectly if he is not fully aware,” said Xeon.
Honestly, they also felt a deep sadness like what Scarlesia felt. His suffering flowed in their respective feelings, the sluggishness in their facial expressions could be clearly read.
“What else can we do now? I can't stand to see Sia like this,” Oliver said.
Although it looks calm from the outside, Xeon is also anxious to make her heart sick and tight. The girl he fought for for 2000 years again had to suffer, his feelings full and seemed to burst out because so unable he could act further for Scarlesia. Even though he was a god, there was still nothing he could do when Scarlesia was caught in the endless agony of gaining her light.
After that day, security throughout the palace was tightened as they did not want the same thing to happen again. All of Scarlesia's work was temporarily handled by Lucas and Victor, as well as regarding the temporary training duties taken over by Xeon and the others. The news of Scarlesia being in quite bad shape has spread throughout the Evariste Empire, they know the news of Eldrick's death and they feel sorry for Scarlesia.
Now in the town square, people were talking about Scarlesia, and concern arose from each of them.
“Have you guys sent a letter to His Majesty?”
“Already, I sent him to the palace. May His Majesty read my letter and bounce back from his loss.”
“After I thought about it, Your Majesty suffered quite a lot during this time. He lost his mother from a young age, lost his adopted sister, followed by the loss of his family and closest servants and beloved animals who were always with him. Not covered with old wounds, now he must be injured again because of the loss of his father. If I were His Majesty, maybe I would be dead.”
“I will also die if I am in His Majesty's position, however he is only a girl who just turned 18 years old.”
“Look, since the day His Majesty lost his Father the sky has never been at peace. The rain did not stop falling, as if the sky was grieving for His Majesty. Even on the day of the death of the previous emperor was also like this.”
“Looks like nature also felt what His Majesty felt, as if they were crying over their queen.”
Letters from the people kept coming to the palace, they were unceasingly sending word of spirit to Scarlesia. The people did not want Scarlesia to fall even longer, they wanted to see Scarlesia rise from all the wounds she felt.
“This is all your fault, your family died because of you. From the very beginning if you are not born into this world, they will feel happiness. They won't suffer like this.”
“Better you die from now than later everyone dies for you.”
“Your life is useless, even if you die even if the world still goes on as usual. You are the unlucky bearer and the bearer of suffering for everyone.”
“Kau tidak pantas untuk bahagia, dunia tidak akan pernah berpihak padamu.”
The voices still resonated in Scarlesia's head, she could hear nothing but the evil voice that kept telling her to die and disappear from the circulation of the world.
“I don't deserve to live.”