Mas Duda Looking For Mom Milk
Lowest Point
Baby C who was crying, apparently immediately fell silent as soon as getting the ASIP that was slowly being spooned by Kanaya. It does not use dodot, so that Citra, the newborn is not confused pu-ting.
Giving time for Tama to take a bath and refresh herself, Kanaya and Bhishma take over Citra, and pet her. Tears escaped Kanaya's eyes.
"Pity, Mas, this small baby has had to separate from his mother" Kanaya said.
Bhishma nodded in agreement, "Right sweetheart, how else. What man wants, unlike what God wants," he replied.
Kanaya was also very beaten. Especially observing the face of Citra that is so similar to Cellia. Staring at Citra seemed to make him remember with Cellia. Same eyes, same lips, same face.
"Baby Citra is very similar to Almarhumah," Kanaya said again with a soft look.
"Dear, yes we support as much as we can, and hope Tama will be strong to live it all," said Bhishma.
As soon as Tama is cleaning up, Kanaya and Bhishma give Baby C to Tama, both of whom then say goodbye to go home. Bisma also promised to send ASIP periodically to Tama. After all, there are inter-express messages that can be used to send ASIPs that can be directly arrived.
"Makasih Mas Bisma and Mbak Naya" he said.
As soon as night falls, after the lecture is held. Tama is alone in her room. Baby C brought Mama Marina to sleep in her room. While Tama chose to say yes.
According to Mama Marina, her son still needs time to calm himself down. Even Mama Marina asked Tama to stay at their home first. Mama Marina is worried that Tama is home alone with Baby C. In this time of grief, Mama Marina asks Tama to go home to her parents first.
Night sometimes gives a dark feeling and a sense of loss so envelops the heart. Last night, Cellia was still struggling to give birth to Baby C. Tonight, however, Tama is alone.
My heart is worried, Cellia …
When the sun changed and the night came back to say hello …
All that is left is silence …
I became a night hater …
Night gives me hurt and silence …
Night gives bitter memories …
I lost you …
I want to run far, lost and unremembered …
Cellia ... Cellia …
I miss you, Cellia …
In the room that was not illuminated with those lights, Tama sat on the floor of her cold room. A back that rests on the wall of the room, and tears that flow by themselves. Really, Tama felt very lost.
Cellia ... My dear …
Are you cold in there, honey?
Are you lonely there, honey?
Why did you leave without a message?
Why is all this happening, Cellia?
My love for you is great, but you have the heart to leave me alone …
Oh my God, the so-so cry of a Tama. The man closed his eyes dramatically. All the memories of the past few days seemed to be spinning back inside his memories. Starting from Cellia feeling the opening, the weakness of Cellia and the woman's desire to give up, and receive a short message that Cellia said.
I slept for a while Mas, take care of our daughter well ….
The message from Cellia with her soft and soft voice seemed to still ring in Tama's ears.
“Is this what you meant to me to look after our daughter, Cellia? After losing you, I'm not sure I can take care of her. After losing you, I don't know if I can move on with my life,” Tama muttered so softly.
Unable to express her sadness anymore, Tama is now lying on the floor of her room. Allowing the cold air from the AC to hit him, the man used his arm as his own head pad. The eyes that were so painful from crying, the dizzy head, and also the tightness that squeezed him made Tama completely lose half her soul.
The pain of heartbreak due to unrequited love is nothing, this time it feels really makes his faith shake. Life seems hopeless. Just encouraging himself is difficult, how can Tama take care of her daughter?
“Can I keep the Image well, dear? Instead of me, Baby C needs you more,” Tama said with her eyes closed.
Oh God, if this is the toughest ordeal, Tama wants to erase this toughest ordeal from her memory. A sense of tightness hit his chest. The feeling of tightness that now constricts him. Really, Tama felt really bad this time. Very badly hit.