Hate You, Love You
Not Same Again

After 23 hours of air travel, Amara finally arrived in Boston. Unlike other people who are so enthusiastic about meeting their lover. Amara felt the opposite. His feelings are so empty, because all his love he left with Gio in Indonesia. Only the body moves like a robot.

"Thank you for choosing us" said one of the flight attendants, and Amara only smiled faintly in response.

Amara stepped out of the plane. Now he will start his life in a new place with Danis. But just as Amara was breathing Boston air, her chest felt tight to hold back the tears. Amara realized if she got lost in the void of taste that would have no end.

When she was done with the luggage, Amara walked to the exit with her two suitcases. No heart beating, no body shaking. Amara was mediocre, but she did not meet Danis for two years.

Amara stopped her steps as she saw a bespectacled man standing with a bunch of red roses in his hand. Amara forced both ends of her lips to curl a smile.

A smile that did not come from his heart, because it was true that Amara's feelings for Danis were no longer the same.

"Fra !" The bespectacled man waved his hand with a smile.

Amara returned the wave of the hand. "You can, Ara," Amara told herself. After sighing that feels heavy, Amara continued her footsteps towards Danis.

"How was your flight ?" That's what Danis said when they first met. He bowed his head and kissed Amara's cheek briefly. There is no tempestuous kiss as an outlet of longing between the two.

"It's exhausting, but it's good enough" Amara replied with a gentle smile at her fiance.

"Thank God this is for you" Danis said, handing over the flowers she had brought.

Amara grabbed the flower and inhaled its fragrance deeply. "Thank you" said Amara.

"Let's go now. Your apartment is ready to be occupied" Danis asked.

Amara and Danis do not live together because the two are not yet married. But Amara lived in the same apartment building as her fiancee it was just that their floors were different.

Amara spread her views in the foreign land. Meksipun Danis is now by his side but he still feels alone. What was pictured in his head right now was the face of Gio who was kissing him last night. Oath by whatever Amara felt immeasurable longing for the man who was still her husband status.

Not only to Gio but to Evan as well. 2 men who mean a lot to him but unfortunately Amara can not have.

"Ara ? You're beating me up, aren't you ?" ask Danis. Apparently the man was talking from earlier but Amara did not notice him at all because he was busy with his own thoughts about Gio and also Evan.

"Ah sorry... What did you say ? I'm still jetlag nih," replied Amara reasoned.

"I just want to find food first or want to go straight to the apartment ? Karina said there's a nice place to eat near this airport,"

"Karina..," said Amara inwardly. The girl's name was always Danis mentioned every time they spoke, but it made Amara jealous.

"Oh yeah ? But I don't feel hungry. What if I go straight to the apartment ?"

"Okay well then," Danis replied, and the two returned to their apartment.

***

"Welcome" Danis said as she opened the door to Amara's apartment. .

The apartment looks clean as well. Completely ready to be occupied. Amara spread her eyes and she liked it enough. "The place is very comfortable," said Amara as she stepped her foot in.

"You like it ? Karina helped me arrange it. And this place is only for a while. We'll live together once we get married."

"Ah yes, of course..," said Amara, and the feeling became so unreasonable. "but it seems we have to wait because Gio took care of it."

"Yes.it's OK. We're not in a hurry either" Danis said with a laugh. The man seemed to be still willing to wait and be patient for some more time.

"Thank you for your understanding,"

"That's not a big deal. Most importantly now, you are here" Danis said. Then he approached Amara and kissed his lover's forehead long enough.

"We'll get married once your business with Gio is done" Danis said, and Amara only nodded her head in agreement.

"Where is Karina ? I want to get to know him" said Amara, shifting the direction of their conversation. Hearing the name Gio, Amara's longing became increasingly for the man she now loved.

"Karina's at work, if I'm on purpose not to enter work because I want to pick you up at the airport. But if you want to meet him, we can have dinner together," said Danis enthusiastically, making Amara could not refuse even though he was very tired.

***

Jakarta, a few weeks before.

Gio sat his blanket-clad body on the edge of his bed. In her hand was a letter that Amara had written for her. Gio repeatedly read the letter with a feeling so crumbled. Falling in love and also the heartbreak Gio felt simultaneously.

He remembered his amazing romance*nnnya last night. Soft and also hot. Still clearly visible in his head when Amara said "have me, Gio. I love you too,"

It was then that Gio's world stopped spinning for a while. His thumping chest almost exploded from an immeasurable sense of happiness. For a moment, Gio became the happiest man in the world.

But now Amara leaves with all the love that Gio has. To the blank that Gio now felt in his heart.

Gio was sure, after this his life would no longer be the same. Gio will live in endless emptiness, and he will never be able to love another woman like he loves Amara.

Or maybe Gio will never fall in love again.

"Gio's... Gio...," There was the voice of a girl who was looking for him. Gio immediately got up and came out of his room, he hoped Amara would come to him.

But what Gio wanted was unfulfilled because the one who came looking for him was not Amara, but Dea.

Gio squealed the winding of his blanket because he did not put a piece of yarn behind it. "What's up ? Why lookout for me?" Ask Gio.

"Mhhh... I was at your mom's house but she said you didn't come home from last night. I thought you must have come here to meet Amara and it turned out I was right. Where's Amara ? Has he left already ?" Ask Dea.

"Yes, Amara is gone," Gio replied with his heart that felt so pained.

"Oohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Mmhh I came to make you and Evan breakfast."

Gio nodded in understanding, Dea was indeed as attentive as it was to him and Evan. "Well wait, I take a shower. We'd better go back to Mom's. I can't be alone here with you" Gio said.

"Yes sure... I will wait for you in the living room, Dea agreed.

***

Dea closed the door of Gio's car, and before long Gio sat his body on the driver's bench. The two will return to Gio's parents' house where Evan is.

"We're going straight to my mom's house. Or is there something you should buy first, Amara ?" Ask Gio. Unknowingly, he had mispronounced the name.

Dea who heard that looked with a wry look at Gio.

"What ?" Asked Gio while frowning he did not understand.

"No... It's okay..," Dea replied while forcing her smile.

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