Hate You, Love You
Hate You Love You

Amara knocked on her parents' door repeatedly. In order to avoid Dea and Gio, Amara actually came there. But the house was so deserted as uninhabited. Amara also stepped her feet towards the other side of the house and peeked into the house from the window whose curtains were partially exposed.

There was no one there, making Amara's mood more chaotic. Amara opened the bag and reached into it. Looking for his white flat object. After getting it, Amara swiped the screen and searched for her mother's contact number. Impatiently, Amara waited for the call to connect.

"Hello... Assalamualaikum Ma, where's Mama ?" Ask Amara without further ado.

The mother who received the call was certainly surprised by Amara's urgent tone of voice. "Wa-waalaikumsalam Ara. Mama's at the bookstore with your sister. Why ? Are you okay ?" Ask her mother worried.

"Ara at Mama's house. Just got here. Where's papa going ?" Asked Amara who was impatient to enter the house of his parents

"Papa's got an event in his office. If you want, follow us to the mall. Your mom and sister just arrived"

"Not to ! Ara just wait. Lock in a regular place ?" Cut Amara.

"Hu'um is in-"

"OK, Ma. Ara came in, yes" cut Amara again and she decided on a call.

Quickly Amara searched for a house key hidden under one of the flower pots that were there. After getting it, Amara went inside. And impatiently, Amara went up to his room.

Amara dropped her body on the bed with a bowed position. "Hiks. hiks.. hiks..," the cry of Amara was heard. After desperately holding back, Amara was finally able to vent her feelings alone.

No one knew that from last night, Amara's chest was filled with an immeasurable sense of tightness. Gio and Dea's marriage tormented Amara. He couldn't sleep all night just thinking about it. And this morning, Dea's arrival worsened her mood.

That was what Amara felt in her heart when Gio had to be betrothed to her cousin Dea. "I. I. I. I.." - Amara cried. Amara's feelings are so ungodly.

"I'm in love with you, Gio. Oh my... I'm in love with you." she said again with her tears rolling down her cheeks and bed. In the end Amara realized her own feelings and it really made her tormented. Amara realized, she and Gio could not unite.

One by one the shadows about Gio flashed inside his head. Gio never said anything bad even though Amara always spoke softly and harshly to him. Gio never complained of disgust as he massaged Amara's nape in the morning. Gio almost never forgets to fulfill whatever Amara wants. Gio always took the time to take Amara to campus. His eyes were always calm and calm. And I don't know since when Amara got lost in the man's eyes.

"Gio's... Gio... Gio..," Amara realized she already had another man in her life, and that man was waiting for her arrival. But Amara can't stop her own feelings.

"Yes God... I'm in love with you, Gio... I want you just for me. Yeah right.I have a boyfriend but I can't help myself... I'm in love with you" Amara said in her solitude. Amara vented her love with her growing cries. As hard as Amara felt herself.

"I hate you, Gio ! I hate it because you can't see how I feel. Hate you who are too good, so many women want you. Hate you who always looks at me shady. Hate you for making me fall in love. I hate loving you... Aarghgh... Help me, O Lord." said Amara, squeezing her bedsheet with all her might, venting her immeasurable pain.

Amara feels both hate and love for Gio at the same time.

After being content to express what she felt even though it was alone, Amara felt better than before. He felt the burden of his feelings reduced a lot. Clear water still fell from both eyes, although Amara was no longer talking.

Amara's phone rang and Danis's name was on it. Amara just stared at the screen of her phone without intending to lift her up. Whereas usually on weekends like this, Amara and Danis spend a lot of their time to exchange news and stories. But for now Amara is not wanting to talk to the man who is still his fiancee. Amara wants to be alone...

***

Arriving at home, Mama Amara called her son's name repeatedly but there was no word at all. With hasty steps, Amara's mother entered Amara's room. He smiled in relief when he saw Amara sleeping curled up while hugging her bolster.

Mama Amara felt her forehead, and smiled as she found Amara's temperature normal. He watched Amara's face fall asleep. Amara's puffy face made her mother know if Amara had cried.

"Mmmhh..," muttered Amara while changing her position but she was not disturbed by the presence of her mother. Amara is still busy exploring dreamland. Understandably last night, Amara could not sleep at all.

"Sleep again... Mama's gonna wake you up." Mama Amara stood up and walked towards the door. Let Amara sleep in her bed.

***

At exactly 4 p.m., a black car stopped at Amara's house. A tall man got out of the car and walked over to the fence and opened it. He knocked on Amara's door and hoped someone would open it for him.

"Loh Gio ?" What Gio expected, came true as well. Mama Amara opened the door for her.

"Assalamualaikum Ma" said Gio, kissing the back of his hand.

"Waalaikum... Where's Evan ?"

"Gio's alone, Ma. Go get Amara. Where's the amara ?" Gio asked directly, he looked towards the direction in search of his wife's whereabouts.

"Mara is sleeping in her room again" replied Amara's mother.

Gio nodded in understanding, "Gio can see Amara in his room, no, Ma ?" ask Gio.

"Sure Gio, let's go in ! want some coffee ?"

"no need Ma. Gio went to Amara's room, yes" said Gio again as he directly walked up the stairs that led him to the second floor where Amara's room was located.

Scared Gio put his foot through. Amara used to drive him away if he went in there. But this time his longing was unstoppable when he and Amara were only a few hours apart.

Amara's bedroom door was not closed perfectly. It made it easy for Gio to open it. Gio's heart warmed when he saw Amara falling asleep on the bed.

Slowly but surely Gio stepped his foot in and he was faced with the beautiful face of Amara who was closing his eyes.

"Mmh Gio..," muttered Amara in his sleep. Made Gio dumbfounded for a while. Gio's chest was pounding, he couldn't believe what he had just heard.

"Glho.."

Can't stand it anymore, Gio also dared to gently caress his wife's hair with a feeling of love. "Yes Honey... I'm right here..."