Hate You, Love You
I Know

Gio's breathing is hunting and short-lived. His chest felt tight as if it was being squeezed by a huge rock. His mind floated on Amara who was about to leave. Until he drives in no direction.

"How can you do that to me, Ara ? Why ?" ask Gio inwardly.

"Isn't enough everything I've done to you ? Can't you understand a little of my feelings ? Can't you feel how I love you ??" A row of questions swirled in Gio's head. Makes his heart so crumpled with his own question. Without Gio noticing, his two eyes had become blurry as clear water started to wash over him.

Can't take it anymore, Gio claps the car and stops it. "I love you, Amara !! I love you !!! For Christ's sake... I love you so much. Aaarrrgggghhhh..," said Gio Lirih while bowing his head in the steering wheel of the car. He hid his wet face.

This was the first time Gio had cried because of a woman. Back when his fiancee betrayed even, Gio did not cry softly like this. Indeed Gio was disappointed and heartbroken but the man did not cry.

But now, Gio's heart feels so broken that he knows Amara is leaving. "Yes God... Am I so despicable that I don't deserve to love Amara ? I know, I was wrong with you, Ara... But I can't help but love you... Oh my... I love you Ara. I love you..." If anyone could hear Gio's moans, anyone would feel pity for the man.

The sobbing of Gio sounded soft and his groan that endured the pain sounded heartrending. And Gio enjoyed it alone.

Gio rested his body on the chair, and took a deep breath to calm down. He looks at his frustrated face. Then he brought his car back. He could not stay in that foreign place alone. The sun began to emit an orange color. The night signs are coming soon.

***

Amara who was receiving a phone call Danis had to end it immediately because she heard the sound of a tire squeak that was so ear-splitting. "Danis, yes, yes" he said and immediately he pressed the red button on the screen of his phone.

Amara quickly looked at the window and was surprised to see Gio's car walking out of their yard. "Loh Gio ?" Ask Amara surprised. Shouldn't Gio just come ? But why did the man's car even leave the house.

Quickly Amara went out, her chest pounding. He was afraid that Gio would hear his conversation with Danis on the phone earlier.

Amara's fear grew when she saw several paper bags located on the table. Amara is convinced that Gio took her. The man always bought it after work.

Half-run Amara went out and found Evan who was still carried by his sister. "Mh.. Ma'am, you've come home ?" amara asked with her chest pounding.

"Yes ma'am, but you're gone again,"

"Where ?" ask Amara again full of demands.

"Ngh. don't know, Mom. I didn't answer anything when I asked,"

Amara's face looked tense, even her breathing sounded short. The nurse thought, Amara was afraid that no one would look after Evan because Gio was gone. "Mom don't worry, let me take care of Evan. So you can study quietly. If necessary I will take Evan to the back room, "Amara did not answer, because that is not what he feared.

"Mom ?"

"Ah yes ? It took me about an hour or two to learn. Sister can take care of Evan ?" Amara asked back. Thinking too much about Gio makes him lose focus and not listen to what his sister said.

"Of course, I don't worry" sister Evan agreed.

Amara returned to her room, and opened the book she had to read. Not only that, Amara also turned on the laptop as a support for his learning.

An hour had passed, but nothing Amara had read went into her head. He kept waiting for the sound of the car engine that came in his yard. But what Amara wanted did not come. Even Amara tried to contact Gio and ask where the man was. But unfortunately Gio's phone died, unable to be contacted.

"Isn't this Ara's best ? If Gio listens to what you talked to Danis earlier, then you don't have to bother to explain it to her again. Your problem is done with Gio. Now learn the right thing so that your lecture is smooth and after that leave this place and forget everything that has happened" said Amara to himself.

Although Amara thought like that but in fact the heart did not want to calm down. His chest was still pounding when he thought about it.

Amara goes outside the room, only to make sure that Gio really hasn't come home yet. In the middle of the room there is the nurse and also her domestic assistant who is helping to keep Evan.

Amara's arrival makes Evan want to be with his mother. He whines when Amara is still learning.

"Don't darling, mama's still learning" said the nurse but Evan still whined spoiled.

"What's wrong Sus, here let me hold it for a while." Amara grabs Evan's body and holds him. Shortly after, he heard the roar of a car engine coming into his yard.

Hopeful to worry, Amara is waiting for the door to open. He kept staring at the door from a distance. His chest thumped even more as the doorknob moved and swiveled. Then after that came a man who was thinking about Amara.

The atmosphere between the two is different. Both Amara and Gio felt their chests beating faster than before.

Gio took a deep breath, before he decided to step inside. This is the part of his life that Gio has to face even though it feels so heavy and torturous. With definite steps, Gio walked up to Amara who was holding their child.

"I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise. There was something left in the office so I had to go back there" Gio reasoned.

"Ta-It's okay" said Amara with her small voice and trembling lips. Just this time Amara looked nervous as well as frightened in front of Gio.

"Thank you for your understanding" said Gio.

"Here baby... Mama has to learn" said Gio as he tried to grab Evan from Amara's arms.

But Evan, who was comfortable in his mother's arms, did not want to turn to Gio.

"You get changed, let Evan be with me, please,"

Gio nodded in understanding, "all right wait a minute," said Gio. Then he went to his room to clean up and change his clothes. After that he returned to Amara because now it is his turn to look after the baby.

***

Late at night, did not feel the time has shown at half an hour in the morning. Amara who was still awake with her books felt thirsty and she decided to fill her empty drinking bottle in the kitchen.

Amara came out of her room and sighed softly. "so much ego, Ara !" Maki Amara to herself. Long time studying but only a little stuck in his head because Gio was constantly present in his mind. The man's sad face has haunted Amara ever since.

"Oh my God" cried Amara as she dropped her bottle. He was surprised to find a tall man standing firmly in the darkness.

"Sorry to scare you" Gio said as he turned on the lights in the kitchen. Then he bent his body so that he could reach the empty bottle of Amara rolling towards him.

Amara who was surprised immediately turned her face because it turned out that Gio only wore long pants while bare chest.

His field chest and tight abdominal muscles looked so clayy. The masculine fragrance emanated from Gio's half-delayed body*ng it.

"Would you like a drink too?" Gio asked as Amara stood up and bowed his head.

"Yes" answered Amara briefly.

Gio opened the refrigerator and took out a bottle of cold water from it. "Here, don't sleep too late. Not good for your health," said Gio, handing the bottle to Amara and he left Amara alone.

Amara stared at the wide back that was moving away from her. His heart was pounding as he looked at Gio's body from behind. "Gio..," said Amara but Gio could still hear her clearly.

The man stopped his steps and looked at Amara. "Yes ?" gio asked with a frown.

"Gio's... I-I have something to talk to you about," said Amara.

Gio who heard that just stared straight at Amara with his lips tightly clenched. Her soft eyes could not hide her heartbreak.

"A-i...,"

"I know.." Cut Gio.

"I already know everything... I already knew about your departure plan," he continued, making Amara stunned at the place where he stood.

"Do whatever makes you happy. I will accept and appreciate all your decisions" Gio said.

to be continued ' ''______________________________________________________________________________

patience buibu patience....