Grudge of Grief: Kasyaf
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The following days, it felt even harder for Icha. Various news about his father makes his emotions like to be difficult to control. Not to mention the news about the pain of the mother, although it is always denied when she asked the mother directly.

The company's financial condition that never improved, even decreased because of the mistake, making the issue of employee reductions strengthened. Icha is becoming increasingly concerned about the continuation of his contract.

The lover, although he is a confidant of the company owner, but he looks hard to help, when Icha asks for help from him. His request for help so that he is not included in the list of employees who will be sent home, is always answered with uncertainty. His girlfriend always said that Icha is a mainstay technician, so there is no need to be afraid.

One day, Icha was told by her two best friends that she was invited by her superiors to discuss her performance. There were several errors and there was one fatal mistake when carrying out an inspection on board the ship that was considered a failure. The failure caused the ship to suffer engine damage and almost capsized in the middle of the sea. That's what burdens the bargaining power of Icha.

Unwilling to give up, Icha tries to remind his superiors of his achievements as well as the mistakes of other technicians who are more than him.

But apparently, the boss is not discussing his opinion, but is discussing the disappointment of the company owner to him.

Icha could only fall into tears as her boss asked her to give her best for the rest of her contract. Hopefully the company owner will still be willing to give the opportunity to Icha.

On that day, after being exhausted from noon work while continuing to focus, Icha wanted to immediately meet her lover and confide in him. Especially after the information from his superiors about the continuation of his employment contract.

He thought, the lover will stop by their subscription restaurant before going home. And he wants to go there.

Icha immediately ordered an ojek online and went to the restaurant. The drizzle started to come down. But the offer of a raincoat from the motorcycle driver he refused. It was close, he thought. He immediately ran into the restaurant, arriving at the location. Because the drizzle is starting to wiggle.

The restaurant is cafe-style, with one of the points being outdoor. It was also a favorite of Icha and Farhan. Icha just went to that place.

*duaarrr*

“A’?”

Along with the thunderbolt that struck, Icha's heart also felt like it had been struck. What he saw was not at all what he expected. Even the opposite. Farhan was there, but his man was joking spoiled with a woman.

“Icha?”

Farhan learns of Icha's arrival, and he is shocked. For a moment, Icha nodded her head once as a greeting gesture. Then he passed away on another road.

“Cha”

Farhan called and chased after Icha. Icha hastened her pace, but it was not as if she was being chased.

“Cha, stupid! I can clearin” said Farhan, when he managed to block Icha's footsteps.

“What? Want to say if the girl is sodara aa’? Cousin, so?” ask Icha. Kalem, but firm. His eyes were calm but sharp.

Farhan could not answer. Only his lips twitched, but not a word came out.

Feeling unable to get an answer, Ichapun moved along with the melting of his tears.

This time he did not order any more ojek. He continued walking even though his contract was still quite far away. No matter the rain that was now soaking all over his body.

His heart was broken, seeing his heart-lover dote on him. Now he feels his fate is the same as his mother. And considering his father, his anger grew.

Things lying in the street, like cans and such, he kicked with a fast. No matter if there is a street user who protests, because the can hit his head. Fortunately, the man was wearing a helmet.

It took me half an hour to get to the contract. Just arrived, not yet had time to change clothes, his phone rang. Tika, that name again appeared on her screen.

“Halo” greet Icha.

“Mbaak” Tika's voice sounded along with sobs.

“Dek, why? Mommy hurts again?” tanya Icha started to panic.

“The father is completely insane, mad. Tomorrow he wants to marry that woman”

“Astaghfirulloh. Where's mr?”

“Bentar”

“Pak. Ma'am Icha want to say” heard Tika's voice exclaim.

“This you, really like to make things” comments his father.

“Bapak” exciting Icha.

Icha's voice was apparently heard by her father.

“What exactly does Tika say?” ask Icha.

His father did not answer immediately. I only heard a breath for a few moments.

“Mother gave me permission, nduk” replied his father.

“Oh. Is that? Is that permission? You can't be different, where is your sincere mother, where is your mother forced? That's forced mother, sir. And Icha do not give permission for the father nyamperin woman it”

“Your mom already knows, nduk. You're fair, really. I didn't leave you guys”

“PAK” shouted Icha.

“Nduk. How yells?” the voice of grandmothers.

“Bapak so people are not grateful at all. What father inget, who was that father? The father was just his laborer Mbah Ismo. Fouled by the same mother, you should be grateful. Now my father has everything. Ud be given good even ngelunjak”

“Kok you talk like that father? Do you feel like you can live without your father, ha?” asked father.

“Halah ngeles aja” denies Icha.

“Nduk, watch your talk! Can be brave if you dare to be with your father” the voice of the grandmothers reverberated.

No answer from Icha. His cry broke out sensing that no one was defending him. It took him a while to calm down.

“Good, Mbah. Maybe this is the last time Icha's voice is heard. Icha is tired, Mbah”

“Mbak” protest Tika.

“Already from yesterday-yesterday Icha nahan emotions, mbah. Already from yesterday-yesterday Icha polite same father. Sampe lowly pleading too already, mbah. But what do you love, Mbah?”

“What?” ask Icha.

“Bapak won't take a penny”

“BASIC, MEN ALL BANG***”

“Nduk!”

*Wuuss*

*Preakk*

Icha threw her phone tight. The phone hit the sharp end of the tivi table. The screen is shapelessly shattered.

The rear casing even the beretai was released, so tight Icha threw the object.

His father's last words, Icha understood as an agreement, for his reprimand earlier, that his father had enjoyed his symbolic inheritance. And the agreement, that his father would no longer enjoy the treasure, because his father preferred to continue his second marriage. She was crying so much.

In her anger, Icha changed clothes back out of her room. He intercepted a taxi that happened to be passing by a big road, to drive him somewhere. To a beach he's headed. The beach on the west side of Java island, with a cliff on one side. He walked up to the edge of the cliff.

*I love you, Icha*

It was back to how Farhan, in this place, had once expressed his feelings.

*Do you want to be my girlfriend*?

It was also how the man wanted to be his lover.

*yes. I want to, a*’

Then the answer he gave the man fell on his ear. But to him, all of that had been destroyed in a lie.

All he wanted was support, all he got was a plan of dismissal. All he wants is attention, which he gets instead of betrayal. He wanted his father to understand, but his voice was not touched.

Icha felt her heart ache. It was as if he himself felt the betrayal that befell his mother. He felt alone, he felt it was meaningless to live.

*Good way, sir. May you be happy with the departure of Icha*.

Icha's body leaned forward. Breeze is not necessarily able to hold its weight. The body is getting leaning, leaning, leaning, leaning,

*Syuuut*

“ICHAA”

In the dimness of the night, Icha felt that someone was hugging her body. There was a handsome face also beside his face. Icha confused, is this real or hallucination? But then he smiled. It doesn't matter now, whether it's real or a hallucination. Because soon, it'll all be over.

***

Icha felt confused as she opened her eyes. Because he thought, the grave is not like this. Munkar and Nakir should be men, not women.

“Cha. Are you human?” one of the two women greeted him.

Then Icha understood, he had not moved. He's still alive. And he can guess where he is now. A doctor and a nurse came to check on him. Shortly thereafter, the doctor spoke to the two women.

“Who brought me here, Nov?” icha asked in a soft voice, as one of the women approached her.

“Yes who else if not your super hero, Cha” replied Nova.

Icha let out a heavy sigh, making Nova think. Because Icha doesn't give thanks, as usual if she gets a favor.

“Udah, don't think too much! Poor mom. I'm sick, instead you make panic” Nova's advice. Icha does not argue. He nodded his head.

For a moment he was pensive. He remembered something. He felt he had just met a woman, who rebuked him for his rude words. But not the grandmothers. She was like the daughter of an old court. Icha know, the meeting took place in the dreamland.

The woman rebuked him to smooth his words. Because Icha is only a human being who is not told about the destiny that will be inflicted on every creature.

The woman tells Icha, maybe this fate that Icha doesn't like is best for her family. Because, if the father wants to listen to his words, then the second destiny will approach his family.

Starting with an abundance of treasure that continues to flow until confused to keep it where, but then will be followed by a terrible disaster, which will lead to the death of the mother. And if the second destiny is chosen, then lost next year, death will approach his mother.

Of course Icha doesn't want her mother to die next year. He still wants to be with his mother for another twenty years, even if he can, more than that.

The woman smiled. That answer, already an obvious gesture, about which destiny Icha set for her to choose.

Unfinished she remembers her dream, Rita comes with a cell phone pointed at her. Yes, the mother called with a video call. Icha's tears can't be contained anymore. He felt guilty, had made his mother even sicker, for thinking about it.

“Sorry Icha yes, mom!”

That was the only sentence that came out of his lips. His mother must have forgiven him. Even given a strand of prayer, so that he can control all his feelings.

***

After recovering, Icha no longer thought about his contract. He just followed destiny. Continued, lived. Not continued, yes what can be done. How thought.

He also did not think of Farhan. He's had a stupid time with that guy. Their relationship is now tandem work only, that is also if it is signed.

Even so, he felt strange about Farhan's attitude, which did not give his clarification. Even if there are many opportunities. And he himself did not close himself.

But fate is not on his side. Six months later, Icha was completely undefended. He really should go home. His return, only his two best friends were released.

The man did not bring up his nose. Nova said Farhan deliberately stayed away from her, for some reason. But when Icha asks why, Nova herself is not told. Farhan said he had reasons that could not be explained clearly.

“Supra natural again?” ask Icha.

“What else. No way, intel” replied Nova.

On Sunday, morning, they split up at the bus terminal. It feels hard for Icha, parting ways with her two best friends. Although it was often separated because of work, but he never expected it to be separated in this way.