Downloads Mate
Chapter 12

I repeatedly tried to digest every word that came out of Adit's mouth. Well, in the end I had to repeatedly admit that my brain was lola when it came to dealing with the signals he gave me. Maybe for some people it's easy, but not with me.

"Sometimes we need friends to join hands when we're looking to the future. And I'm so sure that I'm the right friend for you, yeah."

Friends to see the future? Is this something new? Or is this just an illusion created by a man who is very skilled at word processing? It is not impossible, given the background of his work that has certainly made him trained to behave and speak.

"Your mind goes nowhere. I'm not as petty as you think, and this has absolutely nothing to do with my work" he said after removing his hand from my hand, and then lean his back on the back of the chair while putting both hands on the thighs.

"Why do you always read my brain?" I'm upset because he always knows what I'm thinking.

"The expression of your face can never lie, especially if your eyes have been twirling like a roller poster," she said, which made me move my lips because I was upset.

After keeping quiet for a while, I advanced my body towards him. Putting my face right on the table, resting on my chin. I looked at his face that was not handsome, but not ugly, just mediocre. But I liked the way he looked at me, too shady to the point that it felt like I wanted to immerse my body in his arms.

Uh, sober. The brain is the same heart that is always out of sync.

"Why are you doing that? Want me to kiss?" the god who managed to make my cheeks feel hot, and it is certain that this time it is reddened like boiled shrimp.

"What, anyway, you?" gertutuku while sucking out Ice Lychee Yakult who incubate the sound of srot srat srot srot look for attention.

"Beautiful, but bar-bar," Adit sneered as he ruffled my bangs that have become important icons in this life.

In the end we just kept quiet, dissolved in each other's minds. And for sure I don't know what's on this guy's mind. He looks so seductive, his way of thinking, his way of acting, his way of talking to me, and from our talks all along he has broad insight. It's just that we pretty much have a difference, I realize that.

"Don't think too much about the unnecessary, and you just need to know that I'm serious about everything I say."

Baper, right? Baper, right? Baperlah! No time? My heart seemed to be cheering at the words of this man before me. Aah, melt Yaya hear it.

"The mirror reflects a different side to the real thing, which is why couples are referred to as self-reflections. They look similar, but not the same. So all our differences don't get too thought out, just go where the ends are."

"Together or ended, will still meet the end. Together will still end later, even though the story is different."

Once again I have to admit I have lost far from this man who is 3 years younger than me. He's different, and I like him. It's just that I haven't dared to step forward yet, hand in hand to navigate the future like he said earlier. My life is not this simple, nor is my heart as clean as it is to receive a new love.

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Tonight I could not sleep at all, I tried repeatedly to close my eyes. But it felt so hard, even I tried to count sheep to feel tired and fall asleep. Unfortunately my efforts failed again, because some of the sentences Adit said made my mind distracted. I can't help but think about it, I can't just sit back and sit sweetly while waiting for fate to play me back.

"You don't want to work either. You want to read comics, there is no one who has a good picture. If you read adult comics, then there will be no opponent. Pangsad. Yay. Yay." Yaya."

I could only grumble while covering my face with the Hello Kitty doll that my best friend had given me. When you want to get love, don't use logic. If you always ask logic, the answer will never be found. People always have flaws, and sometimes they feel inappropriate too. But if I ask my own heart, I honestly still don't have the answer.

My parents almost gave up on what I was going to do in the future. All they could do was pray for his son to survive the world and the Hereafter. Even though my world isn't really okay, there are too many wounds and ulcers that I don't know which parts to heal first.

"Had it all been as simple as turning the palm of the hand, maybe I wouldn't have stuck with the past in this long time. Either stupid, or stupid. But as I recall, I'm pretty smart, except for love."

The digital clock on the wall of my room was 2am, and I was still awake with all my thoughts. Until I tried to pick up the phone I left lying on the dresser. My thumb skilfully shifted the display of the phone screen that displayed my conversation with Adit a year ago. Where the man gave his greetings and tried to get acquainted. Even though I returned it a month later.

Until finally came the pop-up message from the man who kept me awake until now. "It's great that you chatted me up early in the morning like this, yeah. My brain thinks all your sentences have a point, but it's still hard to accept."

I could only spill my frustration on the phone I was staring at. So reluctant to open a message from Adit, because I will only be increasingly unable to sleep made. The man was amazing, his presence managed to make my brain and heart clash. "Such a males, anyway, Dit. I don't want to talk to you first, dizzy to think."

In the end I closed the short message app I opened, and put the phone back on the dresser. I should try to sleep, however I should be able to sleep. Because tomorrow morning will do a presentation in front of the company's clients for a new project that is ongoing.

"Yaya, sleep, yeah. Tomorrow you work, and the company has to pay your salary. Do not fall asleep with love, remember there are dreams to be achieved," I said to myself while cupping both palms on the chest.

Hopefully this time my efforts will pay off, hopefully I can sleep well without Adit present in my dreams. Because at least I have time to take a break from the upheaval of the heart and mind for the first time to do brawl. And for the umpteenth time I also recited prayers in order to fall asleep, and it seemed like this time it worked because my eyes felt heavy.