All About Missing
His heart is too complicated

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This house still looks the same. The decoration is mostly made of wood, a unique painting hanging on the top wall of the sofa. The layout of the furniture is also still as before. It was just that everything seemed to have changed its color due to being eaten by age. Family photos are still the same, where there is a longing papa in there. They will never replace it. For eight years the family never made any more family photos. Just a few photos of Kanaya and Miss are placed on a small frame on the table. As well as photos of Alan and Alen—adik twins Missing while still in High School.

Ardian was engrossed in chatting with the little girl on his lap. Miss and her mother who sat next to each other looked with a sense of haru. Kanaya seemed to be very familiar with Ardian.

"Kanaya, like daddy?" The question came from Ardian's mouth. I don't know why he suddenly wanted a confession.

"Emm .. like." The cute girl replied with her adorable distinctive voice.

"Dear dad didn't?"

"Emm .. Dear."

"Beautiful .. You are so funny, I love Kanaya too, dear Kanaya ... muach!" a sweet kiss landed again on that puffed cheek. They had just met, but Ardian had already put his affection on the girl.

Oma and Kanaya's mother look at each other. Kanaya is a difficult child to be close to other people from the baby. The three-year-old girl cried more often when approached by unknown people. Why is Ardian so different? Not thirty minutes before they met, Kanaya like they had known Ardian for a long time, they looked very happy.

"Rin …?" Dahlia is confused by the closeness of her granddaughter and daughter's best friend.

"Leave it first, Ma .. Kanaya seems to like Ardian," Miss answered later. "I'll make you a drink first, Ma."

He then turned to Ardian. "I'll be in for a minute, Ardi." Ardian glanced at it for a moment and nodded slowly.

Before going to the kitchen to make a drink, miss to the room briefly put his things. When Miss is busy making drinks, Alan and Alen come to her simultaneously.

"Sir .. Is there a guest?" ask Alan his older brother.

"Yes, Deck," replied Short miss.

"Who, Brother?" ask Alen later.

"Ary."

"Navy ... Ardian's sister?" ask them simultaneously, then look at each other. Alen peeked for a moment into their living room.

"Lan, that's right, Brother Ardi, let's go out" Alen asked Alan when he returned to the kitchen.

They also ran towards the living room. Longing to look at his two twin sisters running around. She smiles. It used to be every time Ardian came to play at his house. Alan and Alen were often invited to play together. They are only three years old. Ardian became a friend and brother to the twin brothers.

Sayup-sayup heard their chatter from the kitchen. Alan and Alen are like invading Ardian. There was also the voice of Kanaya who was angry, because suddenly the man Kanaya thought was the father was bullied by his two uncles. Missed shaking her head, smiling alone with the atmosphere in the living room, sounding very happy. The harmony of the family that is very longing to like from the past.

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After lunch together, their fun continues in the side garden of the house. Joking and running around for a while before Kanaya went to take a nap. The little girl was put on the shoulder, Ardian ran after Alan and Alen. Kanaya's carefree laughter rang out as they chased after the twin duo. Accompanying Kanaya playing together made Ardian feel opium. He had never been this happy. Even with his own nephew he did not feel this familiar.

A tired looking Ardian leaned on the bench of the house garden. The miss who just came out of the room came straight to him. Kanaya was tired of playing and now she was asleep.

"Arm ...,"

Ardian turned his head and straightened his body and smiled.

"Emm .. Dear here sit down," he asked as he patted the empty space plan next to him.

"Iiiss .. what the hell, later heard mama," murmur Missing, he looked at the expanse of flowers in the park. There are many different types of flowers planted there. Her mother planted all those flowers.

"Let's just, honey, it'd be nice if you'd straighten out our relationship."

"I'm your future husband" he replied confidently.

"Hahaha ... You didn't even ask for my approval?" Missing to dodge, his gaze returned straight ahead.

Ardian furrowed his brows, thinking of the right answer. It is not easy to melt the heart of a miss.

"Don't Kanaya call me dad, so there's no reason for you to avoid it anymore" Ardin said later.

Missed silence, out of words. His gaze was gentle to Ardian who was back leaning his body. He smiled wryly. "I'm not ready for Ardi." The look on his face was sad, his tone sounded like it harbored a sense of disappointment.

Ardian returned that look. "I'll wait for you, as long as possible, until you come to me and say, 'I'm ready'."

Miss jolted, how could she possibly let Ardian be tormented like that. He may still love Ardian, and the man may be able to make him happy. The Missing is the result of the decision she will make later. His heart and mind were at odds, perhaps out of fear of failure.

"I'm not sure how long it will take. You'll get tired of waiting." Miss still hoping Ardian just give up. His heart was too complicated to explore anymore.

"No, it won't happen, I've been waiting for eight years. Even during that wait, I was able to. This is the beginning of my struggle" Ardian replied confidently.

Missed to breath. "Ardi, I don't want to discuss this anymore. I beg you to understand my situation," he said firmly.

Ardian was silent, maybe this was too soon. Why does Miss always have to avoid? "I'm sorry. It's just that I don't understand, why are you resisting so hard?"

"It's nothing. Thank you for coming and accompanying Kanaya to play. I need to rest, I'm tired." Without waiting for an answer from Ardian, he went back inside.

Ardian smiled bitterly, no matter how hard he tried, Longing was still firm with his stance. He bowed propped up his elbows on his knees, refuting his head while thinking.

"Where is wrong, Rin?, why is your heart so hard? You really don't love me anymore?" inner Ardian.

Accidentally, Dahlia saw the debate from a distance. He was about to clean the kitchen and watch from the window. Longing to go inside with a little emotion and just pass it by. As if he was unaware of his existence there. Dahlia looked a little worried, she approached Ardian who was downcast in thought.

Dahlia sat down, she patted Ardi on the shoulder, which made him flinch. "Ary."

Hearing someone say hello, Ardian straightened his body and turned his head. "Mama, over here?" tanyanya. Mama's call to Dahlia has been a habit for a long time.

"You and Miss quarreling?"

Ardian smiled wryly. "No, Ma. We just understand the difference."

"You know, you don't have to worry. Tell me if there is anything important. Mama see there's something between you guys." Dahlia immediately guessed, looking at Ardian's countenance and Missing's expression just now. He was confident in his thinking.

Ardian breathed a heavy sigh. "Ma, can Ardi ask you something?" tanyanya.

"Ask me, son."

"Sorry before, Ma. It's about Miss."

"Regarding his past misses?"

Ardian felt doubtful, afraid if he mispronounced. "Sorry, Ma. Ardi didn't want to interfere, but …."

It seems like Dahlia understands the real situation. "You still love Miss, right?"

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